Did not take the bike today on account of downpours. I could've made it to the office dry but the return would've been a pain.
I'm not as gung-ho as I'd been.
Regardless, I'm on coffee #4 today. 2nd of 2 Vanilla Hazlenuts (french press) that I bought at the Coffee Nut in Long Beach.
Smells great. It's nice to have FP again after a long hiatus. It always starts out nice and tasty and then due to air exposure it loses its flavor a little quicker than I'd like. That's why I only did a quarter pound.
If you blindfolded me and asked me to tell you the flavor, I'm not sure I could answer correctly.
However, I'm listening to Kenny Burrell's "Mellow Tone" and it's complementing my mood and the coffee. I think it's just him and a bassist. All coffeehouses should have songs like this.
I like being here. I like having a 'here.' I can do the work. It's not rocket science. Was complimented on my appearance today -- yellow with brown vest. Apparently a button down that is actually buttoned down looks good.
Ok. Cool. Hoping to hit the gym pretty hard tonight. I might lay off the squats in the interest of time.
Thank you for reading.
Wednesday, October 28, 2015
Friday, October 2, 2015
What's keeping me awake?
455pm
I have lost track of all the caffeine I've ingested today. On Weds I covered the EA event and had a fair amt of coffee. Yesterday I had some in the morning and afternoon and then a 6 Hour Power around 830.
Today I've had at least 4 cups since 10am and am now nursing a tea, since I can tell my stomach cannot handle the acidity any longer.
I've done so much today and I simultaneously feel like I've barely scratched the surface.
I don't exactly know how I'm still awake but I am looking forward to sleeping tonite as soon as Chickie goes down.
Thank you for reading.
I have lost track of all the caffeine I've ingested today. On Weds I covered the EA event and had a fair amt of coffee. Yesterday I had some in the morning and afternoon and then a 6 Hour Power around 830.
Today I've had at least 4 cups since 10am and am now nursing a tea, since I can tell my stomach cannot handle the acidity any longer.
I've done so much today and I simultaneously feel like I've barely scratched the surface.
I don't exactly know how I'm still awake but I am looking forward to sleeping tonite as soon as Chickie goes down.
Thank you for reading.
Tuesday, September 22, 2015
Time Travelling
930am
I am having Lipton tea at my old desk, back at ALM. I am not technically freelancing, but temping, and we'll call it a consultancy.
I can only have this one cup of caffeinated tea today, as tomorrow is the fasting holiday. It was weird enough being here on the 11th, but to be here today and knowing it'll happen again for at least a couple of months (or whenever I get a new job) is so unusual. My dear Ashlee is gone and that part stings because although I like a lot of the people here, aside from George I do not have the same rapport.
My heart races on and off -- like it's running sprints inside my ribcage. The more I think about how fast the last 9 months have gone it picks up the pace. The law firm feels like a dream/nightmare and the last two months of homebound work is like a haze. Everything and nothing changed and in the end I wound up right where I started. I have not had that much time with Chickie before and depending on what side of the coin you favor, it shouldn't happen again.
But Rich and Susan are here and Josh and Sam have been more than fair. I briefly renegotiated my rate and now it's certainly better.
It's like being in a slightly parallel universe. It's familiar and nearly identical, but some different people and arrangements. In some ways my professional heart was here all along -- it's a weird thing to admit. It makes a lot of sense, though. I feel very fortunate to be here and earning and I just want to do the job and go home. I'm waiting for some more direction.
Around noon I wanted to drink really badly. My heart was pounding and I would have dove headfirst in to a whiskey casket. I hated admitting that to George but I had to tell someone. I do not think booze would have quelled me but maybe. Part of me wants to cry a bit. Did I attract this (for better or worse)? Is it the end result of staying on the radar all this time? Or do they want someone they can trust and kick around?
I had lunch with Rich at the Vietnamese shop and we discussed what's going on and how that would apply to the bicycle show I always wanted to write. Now that we have this in-person second-chance I am going to do my best to crank it out.
There were a lot of good memories and some rough ones at this desk. It's more the feeling that I'm worried about. I do not want to fall back in to bad old habits. Now that the job is different, there will be different hurdles. I wanted the NY Mag thing to happen but it's not to be right now.
Last week started and I thought I'd be doing that web site. Two days later I was bombing on a press release. A day later I got a call about coming back in. Then I did the Hotel Editorial test (results pending). Now I'm here. What was old shall become new again.
We'll have to see what to do about the bike.
Thank you for reading this.
I am having Lipton tea at my old desk, back at ALM. I am not technically freelancing, but temping, and we'll call it a consultancy.
I can only have this one cup of caffeinated tea today, as tomorrow is the fasting holiday. It was weird enough being here on the 11th, but to be here today and knowing it'll happen again for at least a couple of months (or whenever I get a new job) is so unusual. My dear Ashlee is gone and that part stings because although I like a lot of the people here, aside from George I do not have the same rapport.
My heart races on and off -- like it's running sprints inside my ribcage. The more I think about how fast the last 9 months have gone it picks up the pace. The law firm feels like a dream/nightmare and the last two months of homebound work is like a haze. Everything and nothing changed and in the end I wound up right where I started. I have not had that much time with Chickie before and depending on what side of the coin you favor, it shouldn't happen again.
But Rich and Susan are here and Josh and Sam have been more than fair. I briefly renegotiated my rate and now it's certainly better.
It's like being in a slightly parallel universe. It's familiar and nearly identical, but some different people and arrangements. In some ways my professional heart was here all along -- it's a weird thing to admit. It makes a lot of sense, though. I feel very fortunate to be here and earning and I just want to do the job and go home. I'm waiting for some more direction.
Around noon I wanted to drink really badly. My heart was pounding and I would have dove headfirst in to a whiskey casket. I hated admitting that to George but I had to tell someone. I do not think booze would have quelled me but maybe. Part of me wants to cry a bit. Did I attract this (for better or worse)? Is it the end result of staying on the radar all this time? Or do they want someone they can trust and kick around?
I had lunch with Rich at the Vietnamese shop and we discussed what's going on and how that would apply to the bicycle show I always wanted to write. Now that we have this in-person second-chance I am going to do my best to crank it out.
There were a lot of good memories and some rough ones at this desk. It's more the feeling that I'm worried about. I do not want to fall back in to bad old habits. Now that the job is different, there will be different hurdles. I wanted the NY Mag thing to happen but it's not to be right now.
Last week started and I thought I'd be doing that web site. Two days later I was bombing on a press release. A day later I got a call about coming back in. Then I did the Hotel Editorial test (results pending). Now I'm here. What was old shall become new again.
We'll have to see what to do about the bike.
Thank you for reading this.
Monday, July 13, 2015
Zen, the two of us need look no more...
1030am
I'm already amped up. Between this morning's PB coffee and the pending performance review and other professional possibilities, I don't need the hard jolt I normally do. So I waited a bit and had some Zen tea. It's doing the job, I suppose. It's got 3 of 5 caffeine bullets on the label.
AKASW has bereavement later today and all tomorrow and that is unfortunate. It may also impact my perf review. Remains to be seen. I also may meet with someone today with a lead. Thankfully she can come here. Also remains to be seen.
I had a great weekend I should update in CaffeinateDad. Yesterday morning in particular with Miri was great.
1138am
Having a half of a Breakfast Blend with a full raw sugar packet. My review is apparently still on. My Lynbrook co-commuter asked for my resume. Things be happening today.
I'm already amped up. Between this morning's PB coffee and the pending performance review and other professional possibilities, I don't need the hard jolt I normally do. So I waited a bit and had some Zen tea. It's doing the job, I suppose. It's got 3 of 5 caffeine bullets on the label.
AKASW has bereavement later today and all tomorrow and that is unfortunate. It may also impact my perf review. Remains to be seen. I also may meet with someone today with a lead. Thankfully she can come here. Also remains to be seen.
I had a great weekend I should update in CaffeinateDad. Yesterday morning in particular with Miri was great.
1138am
Having a half of a Breakfast Blend with a full raw sugar packet. My review is apparently still on. My Lynbrook co-commuter asked for my resume. Things be happening today.
Friday, July 10, 2015
End of a good week
1000-1035am
Getting through the day should be relatively painless. Having a Breakfast Blend with a sugar. I did not see a bonus reflected in my paycheck. Co-worker got one. However I have not had my review so if it will happen, my guess is that it'd be in the next pay period. 2 weeks from today.
I also just found out that manager had a DITF, which is unfortunate, so Tuesday will be reminiscent of today. While not wanting to seem selfish, I'll be on extra good behavior on Monday for review. One can only guess how easily grief can seep in to seemingly-unrelated things. It also means I only have 2 days with AKASW next week, which means only 2 days in 3 weeks.
The temp is finishing helping me with the small assignment that we procrastinated on and that is off my plate. I have a small writing assignment to do today and maybe it's time to assign some other stuff and some positions worth investigating and that's it.
Physically, I feel fantastic. My palm feels mostly healed and my body is slowly achieving the look I've been aiming for. Now it's either a matter of maintaining or changing it up completely.
1250pm
Nursing half a cup of LightNote. Will have a couple of breaks. I have that paragraph that I've made some progress on but I'm not inspired but will manufacture inspirado. I got some feedback on draft 1 and now it's a matter of updating. I'm listening to Yo Yo Ma's Goat Rodeo Sessions. End of alphabet in my WMP library.
2pm
Had a half an iced coffee and hung out downstairs with 'karaoke co-worker,' who's one of the cool ones. Same boat, just one sea over.
Getting through the day should be relatively painless. Having a Breakfast Blend with a sugar. I did not see a bonus reflected in my paycheck. Co-worker got one. However I have not had my review so if it will happen, my guess is that it'd be in the next pay period. 2 weeks from today.
I also just found out that manager had a DITF, which is unfortunate, so Tuesday will be reminiscent of today. While not wanting to seem selfish, I'll be on extra good behavior on Monday for review. One can only guess how easily grief can seep in to seemingly-unrelated things. It also means I only have 2 days with AKASW next week, which means only 2 days in 3 weeks.
The temp is finishing helping me with the small assignment that we procrastinated on and that is off my plate. I have a small writing assignment to do today and maybe it's time to assign some other stuff and some positions worth investigating and that's it.
Physically, I feel fantastic. My palm feels mostly healed and my body is slowly achieving the look I've been aiming for. Now it's either a matter of maintaining or changing it up completely.
1250pm
Nursing half a cup of LightNote. Will have a couple of breaks. I have that paragraph that I've made some progress on but I'm not inspired but will manufacture inspirado. I got some feedback on draft 1 and now it's a matter of updating. I'm listening to Yo Yo Ma's Goat Rodeo Sessions. End of alphabet in my WMP library.
2pm
Had a half an iced coffee and hung out downstairs with 'karaoke co-worker,' who's one of the cool ones. Same boat, just one sea over.
Thursday, July 9, 2015
Battling ADT, one coffee at a time
1045am
I went downstairs with co-worker editor today to catch up and make it not totally about work or bitching. My House Blend was nice and piping. We did a little and then moved on to home-life topics. I have been reading On Managing Yourself and the chapter on ADT is resonating. Some of it for me directly but largely more b/c of my own mgr.
Being isolated certainly does create cynicism.
250pm
Upon return from the gym, I'm having skim milk and then LightNote Blend to round it out (about half a cup). I do not need to be "on" for the rest of the day. Last night's chest workout and today's abs/tris/shoulders workout have done me in. I will try for a run tomorrow morning. I did not receive one email in my extended lunch at PF. I opened the GNC Amplified Whey today and it's pretty tasty. The powders are always better with milk. I should have added some. Next time.
I want to add my workout details from today:
Shoulders:
Clean overhead press - 10 reps each / 60lb/ 55lb / 50lb
Rope pulldown (behind the neck) - 15 reps of 100lb (on my knees)
Pull up from floor - 15 reps each at 15lbs
Front lift (sort of like kettlebells) - 15 reps each of 12.5lbs
Abs:
Bicycle: 300 total reps
Leg Lifts: 40 reps x 3
Standing twist / reverse chop: 25lbs - 3 sets of 10
Side lifts - 25 reps x 2 (each side)
Tris:
Laying down on bench / 35lbs / 15 reps x 2
Rope Handle press down 15 reps
Single Handle press down 15 reps each arm
Playlist:
Wolf: Ravenous
Destruction: Riot Squad
Maylene & Sons of Disaster: Settling Scores By Burning Bridges
Armored Saint: In An Instant
Gamma Ray: Razorblade Sigh
Turbo: Smash the Wall
Ex Libris: The Day of Burning
Helloween: Living on the Edge
Overkill: Struck Down
Helloween: Escalation 666 (only for the final tris press down)
I went downstairs with co-worker editor today to catch up and make it not totally about work or bitching. My House Blend was nice and piping. We did a little and then moved on to home-life topics. I have been reading On Managing Yourself and the chapter on ADT is resonating. Some of it for me directly but largely more b/c of my own mgr.
Being isolated certainly does create cynicism.
250pm
Upon return from the gym, I'm having skim milk and then LightNote Blend to round it out (about half a cup). I do not need to be "on" for the rest of the day. Last night's chest workout and today's abs/tris/shoulders workout have done me in. I will try for a run tomorrow morning. I did not receive one email in my extended lunch at PF. I opened the GNC Amplified Whey today and it's pretty tasty. The powders are always better with milk. I should have added some. Next time.
I want to add my workout details from today:
Shoulders:
Clean overhead press - 10 reps each / 60lb/ 55lb / 50lb
Rope pulldown (behind the neck) - 15 reps of 100lb (on my knees)
Pull up from floor - 15 reps each at 15lbs
Front lift (sort of like kettlebells) - 15 reps each of 12.5lbs
Abs:
Bicycle: 300 total reps
Leg Lifts: 40 reps x 3
Standing twist / reverse chop: 25lbs - 3 sets of 10
Side lifts - 25 reps x 2 (each side)
Tris:
Laying down on bench / 35lbs / 15 reps x 2
Rope Handle press down 15 reps
Single Handle press down 15 reps each arm
Playlist:
Wolf: Ravenous
Destruction: Riot Squad
Maylene & Sons of Disaster: Settling Scores By Burning Bridges
Armored Saint: In An Instant
Gamma Ray: Razorblade Sigh
Turbo: Smash the Wall
Ex Libris: The Day of Burning
Helloween: Living on the Edge
Overkill: Struck Down
Helloween: Escalation 666 (only for the final tris press down)
Wednesday, July 8, 2015
Tidy the tediousness
1015am
Am letting the Breakfast Blend cool off. I've had some chocolate nuts and some samoa cookies already. Ran for 22 minutes this morning just to accomplish something. I could've hit the gym but between my inability to wake up in time and desire to have a healed palm, I'm passing today. Maybe tomorrow or mid-day Thurs or Fri.
I'm thrilled to not be wearing long-sleeve button-downs this week.
By 1030 it has reached optimal drinking temperature. I'm just preparing for a call and then will set some minor goals to be reached by day's end.
I've put feelers out there in to the ether and we're hoping for some feedback.
115pm
House Blend. I'm not denying myself anything in the way of caffeine today. It's worth noting I downed a full, cold Choc Peanut Butter Cup coffee this morning in my JPR mug. It's better cold. I'm sorta done now with flavored stuff unless I know it can be drank quickly. Except for maybe cinnamon flavored stuff. That's it. I'm glad we bought this but it loses flavor very quickly. I'm going to repurpose an old nomination in to a one-para nomination. Listening to Terrell's Angry Southern Gentleman today. Listened to Beautiful Side Of Madness this morning and wrote an Amazon review. Hoping to meet with Ken for lunch. Word up.
355pm
I've reheated my coffee. It had half left. My lunch was good and now I'm going to finally do this "achievements" thing I've been putting off. I think I'll try to lift tonight. I don't want to do it in the morning.
Am letting the Breakfast Blend cool off. I've had some chocolate nuts and some samoa cookies already. Ran for 22 minutes this morning just to accomplish something. I could've hit the gym but between my inability to wake up in time and desire to have a healed palm, I'm passing today. Maybe tomorrow or mid-day Thurs or Fri.
I'm thrilled to not be wearing long-sleeve button-downs this week.
By 1030 it has reached optimal drinking temperature. I'm just preparing for a call and then will set some minor goals to be reached by day's end.
I've put feelers out there in to the ether and we're hoping for some feedback.
115pm
House Blend. I'm not denying myself anything in the way of caffeine today. It's worth noting I downed a full, cold Choc Peanut Butter Cup coffee this morning in my JPR mug. It's better cold. I'm sorta done now with flavored stuff unless I know it can be drank quickly. Except for maybe cinnamon flavored stuff. That's it. I'm glad we bought this but it loses flavor very quickly. I'm going to repurpose an old nomination in to a one-para nomination. Listening to Terrell's Angry Southern Gentleman today. Listened to Beautiful Side Of Madness this morning and wrote an Amazon review. Hoping to meet with Ken for lunch. Word up.
355pm
I've reheated my coffee. It had half left. My lunch was good and now I'm going to finally do this "achievements" thing I've been putting off. I think I'll try to lift tonight. I don't want to do it in the morning.
Tuesday, July 7, 2015
Neutral zone
1050am
I have a House Blend that is slowly cooling off here. I went a whole day w/o going to 18! I'm completely numb and neutral today. I just keep throwing it all at the wall and seeing what sticks. Peter's passing contributed to my passing out last night. I will think of him on a regular basis.
More menial work to do today. I'll just have to dive in, in a bit. I'm reading TS Eliot. We'll see what sets in.
I want to work out a bit but want to give my wrist another day to get a bit better. Today is the least achy it's been in a while. It's actually the bottom of my palm and not my actual wrist.
345pm
Having LightNote. I did 60 reps of 35lbs earlier. My palm feels ok I just had to be careful as to where I placed the weight. Taking care of more of a co-worker's project which is fine b/c he has my back all the time.
Peter will not have a service. That's kind of cool, I guess. Just being here one day, and not the next. It's too bad b/c it's someone worth remembering.
Wheels is the tune of the day.
I have a House Blend that is slowly cooling off here. I went a whole day w/o going to 18! I'm completely numb and neutral today. I just keep throwing it all at the wall and seeing what sticks. Peter's passing contributed to my passing out last night. I will think of him on a regular basis.
More menial work to do today. I'll just have to dive in, in a bit. I'm reading TS Eliot. We'll see what sets in.
I want to work out a bit but want to give my wrist another day to get a bit better. Today is the least achy it's been in a while. It's actually the bottom of my palm and not my actual wrist.
345pm
Having LightNote. I did 60 reps of 35lbs earlier. My palm feels ok I just had to be careful as to where I placed the weight. Taking care of more of a co-worker's project which is fine b/c he has my back all the time.
Peter will not have a service. That's kind of cool, I guess. Just being here one day, and not the next. It's too bad b/c it's someone worth remembering.
Wheels is the tune of the day.
Monday, July 6, 2015
How to overcome the return-to-work blues
1000am
I'm nursing a Breakfast Blend with a sugar and having nuts and a few leftover animal crackers.
I have returned to work and it was a pretty dismal walk. I want this coffee to clear my head and outlook a bit. I made it a point to listen to something positive (Brad) whilst walking here. The silver lining is that AKASW is out this week. I can get mostly all my work done today and prepare for condensed days for the rest of the week. I made the 813 today and this will be the only day for the rest of the week. I'm really going to try to focus and get it all done today so that I can get the work for end-of-week done and then pivot back to house stuff.
My wrist still has some aches but we'll see how that goes. I may not hit PF this week and just run in the mornings. I'll improvise. I'm hoping to hear from/meet with professional contacts this week so I'll have to improvise. I did a decent job running and lifting last week and want to maintain some semblance of it.
I have a lot of emails to catch up on but it's mostly just stuff on which I was copied. I'm sure I can get through it all today.
Music helps. Chad Smith's first album helps just get back in the mode. I do miss sunlight, though.
1140am
Half BB, half whole milk to have my pumpkin bread. I just received news of Peter Hano's passing. I'm sure if I were still in that office, I'd be crying my eyes out. I'm very glad we spoke recently. I will miss him dearly.
300pm
Had lunch with old co-worker and just got off the phone with a possible new co-worker. Had half of a LightNote while I discussed it with the referring individual. Let's see what happens. I do not want to overthink anything but the fact is I could do this job better if I did not need to babysit AKASW and that's what this will come down to. I will not get a raise this year and Monday we'll find out if there's any chance of a bonus.
I'm nursing a Breakfast Blend with a sugar and having nuts and a few leftover animal crackers.
I have returned to work and it was a pretty dismal walk. I want this coffee to clear my head and outlook a bit. I made it a point to listen to something positive (Brad) whilst walking here. The silver lining is that AKASW is out this week. I can get mostly all my work done today and prepare for condensed days for the rest of the week. I made the 813 today and this will be the only day for the rest of the week. I'm really going to try to focus and get it all done today so that I can get the work for end-of-week done and then pivot back to house stuff.
My wrist still has some aches but we'll see how that goes. I may not hit PF this week and just run in the mornings. I'll improvise. I'm hoping to hear from/meet with professional contacts this week so I'll have to improvise. I did a decent job running and lifting last week and want to maintain some semblance of it.
I have a lot of emails to catch up on but it's mostly just stuff on which I was copied. I'm sure I can get through it all today.
Music helps. Chad Smith's first album helps just get back in the mode. I do miss sunlight, though.
1140am
Half BB, half whole milk to have my pumpkin bread. I just received news of Peter Hano's passing. I'm sure if I were still in that office, I'd be crying my eyes out. I'm very glad we spoke recently. I will miss him dearly.
300pm
Had lunch with old co-worker and just got off the phone with a possible new co-worker. Had half of a LightNote while I discussed it with the referring individual. Let's see what happens. I do not want to overthink anything but the fact is I could do this job better if I did not need to babysit AKASW and that's what this will come down to. I will not get a raise this year and Monday we'll find out if there's any chance of a bonus.
Friday, June 26, 2015
Last day before a break - Listening to Rollinscast
1030am
Listening to Rollins' podcast about working out that dials back in to his middle school days. Breakfast Blend is perfect for a day where I don't need to be as "on" as others. I am doing some menial digital filing crap. I have some calls to make and take and some cover letters to draft.
It worked out so that I have physically missed AKASW and I'll just say my train was a bit late. W/e.
245pm
I feel a little bad I sort of had to be firm with my parents -- they're on vacation but they text me about library books and shit and I just don't want to be distracted by that sort of crap when I've got all this other stuff. I called them and in 5 minutes stopped the dialogue. They want to Skype, I've got no patience for that. It takes forever, everybody talks loudly and they just want to see the baby. She's fine. Having HouseBlend from 18 after scoring free sandwiches. I'm shameless and do not care.
The coffee is doing its job right now. (318pm) I've got a bunch of TX shite to do. Let's just do it. No more posts or BS. Just a pee break and an apple and that's it.
Listening to Rollins' podcast about working out that dials back in to his middle school days. Breakfast Blend is perfect for a day where I don't need to be as "on" as others. I am doing some menial digital filing crap. I have some calls to make and take and some cover letters to draft.
It worked out so that I have physically missed AKASW and I'll just say my train was a bit late. W/e.
245pm
I feel a little bad I sort of had to be firm with my parents -- they're on vacation but they text me about library books and shit and I just don't want to be distracted by that sort of crap when I've got all this other stuff. I called them and in 5 minutes stopped the dialogue. They want to Skype, I've got no patience for that. It takes forever, everybody talks loudly and they just want to see the baby. She's fine. Having HouseBlend from 18 after scoring free sandwiches. I'm shameless and do not care.
The coffee is doing its job right now. (318pm) I've got a bunch of TX shite to do. Let's just do it. No more posts or BS. Just a pee break and an apple and that's it.
Thursday, June 25, 2015
Fourth Letter of Alphabet Submissions
930-11am
I've been nursing a House Blend since my arrival. Had some leftover donut popems, too. I've been making the submissions for these client awards and AKASW, while grateful (or as grateful as AKASW can be), is too lazy to just file the confirmation emails into our system. So it's yet another thing I have to do afterward. Whatever.
I've now got 2 of these left and have to juggle our phone call.
315pm
After downing my pop'ems I am having a cooling-off House Blend again. Not as tasty as this morning.
I'll admit I was pretty steamed at one point. Much of this work is beneath me and can easily be handled (a) quickly; (b) remotely; and (c) more efficiently if I didn't have so many buffers. I was pretty PO'd when I went to lunch b/c the ball gets dropped the second I hand it off to other people. I got this weird talk before lunch about how we need to do more and wasn't exactly told I did a good job or that I did right by everyone and covered our bases (which I did). I was told that I did perform a function and that I need to babysit adults and make them do their jobs. Fine. Until my next job when I won't have to do that. I don't like doing work that others get credit for. I don't like the person who gets the credit either. I'm already mentally preparing exit interview dialogue and a cover letter for another establishment. I ave no desire to do this for another law firm.
I'm not so pissed off anymore and I'm glad I walked it off but these are all just facts at this point.
I did run for 21 minutes this morning.
I've been nursing a House Blend since my arrival. Had some leftover donut popems, too. I've been making the submissions for these client awards and AKASW, while grateful (or as grateful as AKASW can be), is too lazy to just file the confirmation emails into our system. So it's yet another thing I have to do afterward. Whatever.
I've now got 2 of these left and have to juggle our phone call.
315pm
After downing my pop'ems I am having a cooling-off House Blend again. Not as tasty as this morning.
I'll admit I was pretty steamed at one point. Much of this work is beneath me and can easily be handled (a) quickly; (b) remotely; and (c) more efficiently if I didn't have so many buffers. I was pretty PO'd when I went to lunch b/c the ball gets dropped the second I hand it off to other people. I got this weird talk before lunch about how we need to do more and wasn't exactly told I did a good job or that I did right by everyone and covered our bases (which I did). I was told that I did perform a function and that I need to babysit adults and make them do their jobs. Fine. Until my next job when I won't have to do that. I don't like doing work that others get credit for. I don't like the person who gets the credit either. I'm already mentally preparing exit interview dialogue and a cover letter for another establishment. I ave no desire to do this for another law firm.
I'm not so pissed off anymore and I'm glad I walked it off but these are all just facts at this point.
I did run for 21 minutes this morning.
Wednesday, June 24, 2015
In my heart was an aching pain...
951am
Breakfast Blend and also my first cup of the day. It's pretty smooth and not burnt this morning. I have some sugar in it as well.
I'm not as sad as the title suggests. It's just what played as I started typing. I've not yet looked @ my work emails. I'm sure it's a mess I'll straighten out later. I actually feel bad for AKASW, who needs to stand to work re: neck issues.
I had a solid 50-minute, 6.5(?) mile run on the boardwalk yesterday and I curled last night so today will be a chill-out day, esp since Liz will not be home tonight. I may be missing out on a karaoke job unless it falls through entirely. Not the end of the world but I would have liked some more money. Lunch plans are also a consideration today. I might try to reconnect with Gomez. We'll see. Fact is, I'm not that hungry. Once I'm in this lean mode, I suppose my body wants to maintain.
120pm
Had a lunch break with Marketing Assistant man, DZ. Cool dude. We appreciate some of the same things and once we get some of the work-bitching out of the way we can delve in to funner stuff. I nursed a House Blend with him and we discussed, beer, coffee, food, standards of living and other stuff.
230pm
I refilled my coffee on the way up and found some donut pop'ems so they go well with the House Blend. I do not think I can drink this all, though, I might spill some out and replace with milk. I just exchanged my white CT shirt from last week for the same one, only non-iron and slim fit. All the criteria has been met. I feel great about my new wardrobe. After today (I'm wearing the yellow shirt). I'll start wearing some other newer things. I only need one new button down for tomorrow and then a polo for Friday and then it'll be a polo week for the week AKASW is gone.
Breakfast Blend and also my first cup of the day. It's pretty smooth and not burnt this morning. I have some sugar in it as well.
I'm not as sad as the title suggests. It's just what played as I started typing. I've not yet looked @ my work emails. I'm sure it's a mess I'll straighten out later. I actually feel bad for AKASW, who needs to stand to work re: neck issues.
I had a solid 50-minute, 6.5(?) mile run on the boardwalk yesterday and I curled last night so today will be a chill-out day, esp since Liz will not be home tonight. I may be missing out on a karaoke job unless it falls through entirely. Not the end of the world but I would have liked some more money. Lunch plans are also a consideration today. I might try to reconnect with Gomez. We'll see. Fact is, I'm not that hungry. Once I'm in this lean mode, I suppose my body wants to maintain.
120pm
Had a lunch break with Marketing Assistant man, DZ. Cool dude. We appreciate some of the same things and once we get some of the work-bitching out of the way we can delve in to funner stuff. I nursed a House Blend with him and we discussed, beer, coffee, food, standards of living and other stuff.
230pm
I refilled my coffee on the way up and found some donut pop'ems so they go well with the House Blend. I do not think I can drink this all, though, I might spill some out and replace with milk. I just exchanged my white CT shirt from last week for the same one, only non-iron and slim fit. All the criteria has been met. I feel great about my new wardrobe. After today (I'm wearing the yellow shirt). I'll start wearing some other newer things. I only need one new button down for tomorrow and then a polo for Friday and then it'll be a polo week for the week AKASW is gone.
Monday, June 22, 2015
Nowhere Freeway
1025am
Was listening to Raise a Little Hell this morning and like it a lot. I actually listened to the last 4 songs and they are reminiscent of "Nowhere Freeway" and "Dead of the Night." I will have a good day today -- we're AKASW-free and I already pulled my "early morning email" routine. I actually did work last night for a couple of hours just to be fully prepared.
Drinking a pretty hot Breakfast Blend with a raw sugar. It tastes a little burnt but it'll do the job. I did not have any coffee this morning.
I will hit the gym and do my abs today. I have no lock nor bike so I'll do my stuff quickly and get out and try to listen to some of my "Break Me In" playlist. I'll throw in the new Helloween, too.
Uriy from the mailroom just delivered 2 new discs -- Wolf and Terrell. Wow totally different stuff going on there. I've got two more coming and then that's it -- I know I've said it before but really that should be it.
Off tomorrow so I'll hit the gym in the morning and try to squeeze in a run.
Some marketing women are speaking loudly. One is a friend of mine on the receiving end of a "tone." Her face has been flushed ever since.
Was listening to Raise a Little Hell this morning and like it a lot. I actually listened to the last 4 songs and they are reminiscent of "Nowhere Freeway" and "Dead of the Night." I will have a good day today -- we're AKASW-free and I already pulled my "early morning email" routine. I actually did work last night for a couple of hours just to be fully prepared.
Drinking a pretty hot Breakfast Blend with a raw sugar. It tastes a little burnt but it'll do the job. I did not have any coffee this morning.
I will hit the gym and do my abs today. I have no lock nor bike so I'll do my stuff quickly and get out and try to listen to some of my "Break Me In" playlist. I'll throw in the new Helloween, too.
Uriy from the mailroom just delivered 2 new discs -- Wolf and Terrell. Wow totally different stuff going on there. I've got two more coming and then that's it -- I know I've said it before but really that should be it.
Off tomorrow so I'll hit the gym in the morning and try to squeeze in a run.
Some marketing women are speaking loudly. One is a friend of mine on the receiving end of a "tone." Her face has been flushed ever since.
Friday, June 19, 2015
Ending a week
1030-1050am
Having a dark-looking Breakfast Blend. I favor this mild one over Light Note -- I think it just looks darker and smoother. It's not very hot but that's fine it's at optimal drinking temperature.
I'm blessed with a lot of good music that I will add and circulate and rotate. I'm trying to chill out here as I've made peace with how petty this stuff is. Let's see if a summer bonus happens -- it's rumored.
I've still got some phlegm but I'm functioning pretty well. I will hit the gym today for sure. I'm down to 154.5lbs. I can't believe I've actually shed the weight. I'm back down to 2010 weight. Light lunches and hard(er) exercise pay off. I've got maybe 2 scoops left of the Marked, which is the best-tasting stuff in a long time. My home stuff is sandy. The next at-work batch is 3lbs of GNC's AMP. I just realized it has a 2:1 ratio of protein to carbs, but it's fine. I need calories of some form.
I was able to catch the ATL train this morn. It was nice to have extra time with Lizard and Chick this morning. Liz chilled out and had some cereal with us. It's a nice, normal scene for about 30 minutes, and then one of us goes to work and the other goes to sleep. I will somehow rectify this.
AKASW has been holed up all morning. Probably freaking out b/c she actually started something early and cannot handle the stress of doing actual work.
This may be the final CT day.
Having a dark-looking Breakfast Blend. I favor this mild one over Light Note -- I think it just looks darker and smoother. It's not very hot but that's fine it's at optimal drinking temperature.
I'm blessed with a lot of good music that I will add and circulate and rotate. I'm trying to chill out here as I've made peace with how petty this stuff is. Let's see if a summer bonus happens -- it's rumored.
I've still got some phlegm but I'm functioning pretty well. I will hit the gym today for sure. I'm down to 154.5lbs. I can't believe I've actually shed the weight. I'm back down to 2010 weight. Light lunches and hard(er) exercise pay off. I've got maybe 2 scoops left of the Marked, which is the best-tasting stuff in a long time. My home stuff is sandy. The next at-work batch is 3lbs of GNC's AMP. I just realized it has a 2:1 ratio of protein to carbs, but it's fine. I need calories of some form.
I was able to catch the ATL train this morn. It was nice to have extra time with Lizard and Chick this morning. Liz chilled out and had some cereal with us. It's a nice, normal scene for about 30 minutes, and then one of us goes to work and the other goes to sleep. I will somehow rectify this.
AKASW has been holed up all morning. Probably freaking out b/c she actually started something early and cannot handle the stress of doing actual work.
This may be the final CT day.
Thursday, June 18, 2015
Tell me how deep that river is...
955am
About 1/3 of the way through my House Blend. There was a disgusting shooting in Charleston last nite and 9 people are dead in their church.
I came across some gourmet cake in the fridge. There's plenty of it. I'm eating some. No shame.
I ran for 25 minutes this morning and broke in the new Helloween. It's good -- it's all good -- but 4-5 songs in I'm thinking, "Straight Out Of Hell is far superior." There's not enough variation between songs and I think Deris' voice is not as strong.
I am kicking myself now b/c I should have been able to get to the gym but realized the lock and gloves were still @ work. I could have done it but didn't have a lock and didn't want to leave my stuff there in a locker. It would have all been just clothes anyway. F'ing lesson learned. I could've taken the 833 from there. This was the day to enact that. But at least I did the run. It's more than I had previously done and it's contributing to my weight loss. I saw I'm down to 154.9 this morning. This is unprecedented. If I can maintain this weight but keep the lifting to this intensity I will have basically achieved my goal and then it's just a matter of maintaining and shedding skin.
Work is work. I do not feel one way or the other about it. I want more CT shirts.
1140am ish
Had a Breakfast Blend that was 20% whole milk. This was to wash down the 2 slices of velvet cake. AKASW has been OOO for a chunk of the morning, which is great. I am skipping this meeting for which I put on a tie. I don't care. No one cares. I will do some more menial editing work and get it all done.
250pm
Having a Zen tea. Time to chill with the coffee. I've got a bit of a headache probably due to minor dehydration, the run and slight lack of sleep. Will rectify that tonight. I got another CT shirt today. Penrose Lilac Non-Iron Slim Fit. My girl @ the 6th Ave shop got me the last 15 1/2 and took the coupon. I kinda want the white one from the 7th ave shop I may exchange tomorrow. Was able to grab a small sandwich, too. I'm not terribly hungry but I keep breathing back mucous. All the work I do can be accomplished from home.
About 1/3 of the way through my House Blend. There was a disgusting shooting in Charleston last nite and 9 people are dead in their church.
I came across some gourmet cake in the fridge. There's plenty of it. I'm eating some. No shame.
I ran for 25 minutes this morning and broke in the new Helloween. It's good -- it's all good -- but 4-5 songs in I'm thinking, "Straight Out Of Hell is far superior." There's not enough variation between songs and I think Deris' voice is not as strong.
I am kicking myself now b/c I should have been able to get to the gym but realized the lock and gloves were still @ work. I could have done it but didn't have a lock and didn't want to leave my stuff there in a locker. It would have all been just clothes anyway. F'ing lesson learned. I could've taken the 833 from there. This was the day to enact that. But at least I did the run. It's more than I had previously done and it's contributing to my weight loss. I saw I'm down to 154.9 this morning. This is unprecedented. If I can maintain this weight but keep the lifting to this intensity I will have basically achieved my goal and then it's just a matter of maintaining and shedding skin.
Work is work. I do not feel one way or the other about it. I want more CT shirts.
1140am ish
Had a Breakfast Blend that was 20% whole milk. This was to wash down the 2 slices of velvet cake. AKASW has been OOO for a chunk of the morning, which is great. I am skipping this meeting for which I put on a tie. I don't care. No one cares. I will do some more menial editing work and get it all done.
250pm
Having a Zen tea. Time to chill with the coffee. I've got a bit of a headache probably due to minor dehydration, the run and slight lack of sleep. Will rectify that tonight. I got another CT shirt today. Penrose Lilac Non-Iron Slim Fit. My girl @ the 6th Ave shop got me the last 15 1/2 and took the coupon. I kinda want the white one from the 7th ave shop I may exchange tomorrow. Was able to grab a small sandwich, too. I'm not terribly hungry but I keep breathing back mucous. All the work I do can be accomplished from home.
Wednesday, June 17, 2015
Black shirt, bright outlook
930-11am
It was a good morning. I had a quick 15-minute run and made the 818 afterward. I briefly deliberated when I got to the shed about which bike to take and ultimately went with the folding one. Drank coffee on the train ride in. I was a little tired but why trick my body in to slumber?
I also was able to stop at Charles Tyrwhitt's 6th ave location and used the voucher AGAIN for a new shirt! $4.50!
Had a Breakfast Blend in my travel mug which I got on my way up after seeing Harris downstairs outside. Had my donut already. I'm hungry today. I need milk.
It was a good morning. I had a quick 15-minute run and made the 818 afterward. I briefly deliberated when I got to the shed about which bike to take and ultimately went with the folding one. Drank coffee on the train ride in. I was a little tired but why trick my body in to slumber?
I also was able to stop at Charles Tyrwhitt's 6th ave location and used the voucher AGAIN for a new shirt! $4.50!
Had a Breakfast Blend in my travel mug which I got on my way up after seeing Harris downstairs outside. Had my donut already. I'm hungry today. I need milk.
Made it through our 11am phone call and let's just plow through the work today and get it over with. If AKASW leaves by 515 I have a winning chance at making the 532. Yesterday she left at 430 and I made the 520 (at 516 it started pouring -- I think I was at 40th Street).
I feel good about things today and just want to get it all done.
315pm
I'm not sure if the iced tea I've had today has caffeine. If so I've had a couple of cups at least. I went with the sweetened. I just finished a travel mug's worth of LightNote from opp side of this floor (b/c it's fresher). It washed down some homemade brownie bites. I have not eaten much today. That's ok I am willing to go without for music and another great deal at CT. Got another shirt for $4.50.
I hit PF after that to do my 75 curls of 35lb ea.
I think that's all I need. Let's hope for the unofficial early dismissal and bounce out of here. I have gotten some compliments about my conduct and leadership today which is nice.
315pm
I'm not sure if the iced tea I've had today has caffeine. If so I've had a couple of cups at least. I went with the sweetened. I just finished a travel mug's worth of LightNote from opp side of this floor (b/c it's fresher). It washed down some homemade brownie bites. I have not eaten much today. That's ok I am willing to go without for music and another great deal at CT. Got another shirt for $4.50.
I hit PF after that to do my 75 curls of 35lb ea.
I think that's all I need. Let's hope for the unofficial early dismissal and bounce out of here. I have gotten some compliments about my conduct and leadership today which is nice.
Tuesday, June 16, 2015
Self-aggrandizement, but not mine
943am
Been nursing a tall Breakfast Blend. I arrived pretty early and I must admit, b/c I expect AKASW to have fits, I had some moments of doubt this morning re: some client nominations but thus far she's been holed up and via email has been pretty decent. I was smart last night and waited before I sent the last nomination, which was smart b/c it was LA time and I was able to accommodate everyone and show that I was handling things from home.
I had a good morning with Chick she was up basically from 7ish on. She is so good and fun and polite and it's very difficult to leave in the morning.
Just have some stuff to ready now and that's it. Will hit the gym during lunch today and use my "break me in" playlist. It will be abs, shoulders, tris and bis. Hoping to hit intoxx either tonite or tomorrow (more likely).
1109am
After a nearly one-hour meeting in person with the team, I picked up another half of a Breakfast Blend.
When work that I did was completed, then "we" did them. When emails get missed -- "I" miss them.
The deadline I sweated last night was fine but it wound up getting pushed another month so nothing to worry about there.
If you don't change where you're going, you're gonna end up right where you're headed.
320pm
Pike. Kind of a celebratory one, now that I got to the bottom of the Brent Award situation. Had a good workout and did all but the bis. Overkill, Artillery, Anthrax, Cellador and Blind Guardian.
Been nursing a tall Breakfast Blend. I arrived pretty early and I must admit, b/c I expect AKASW to have fits, I had some moments of doubt this morning re: some client nominations but thus far she's been holed up and via email has been pretty decent. I was smart last night and waited before I sent the last nomination, which was smart b/c it was LA time and I was able to accommodate everyone and show that I was handling things from home.
I had a good morning with Chick she was up basically from 7ish on. She is so good and fun and polite and it's very difficult to leave in the morning.
Just have some stuff to ready now and that's it. Will hit the gym during lunch today and use my "break me in" playlist. It will be abs, shoulders, tris and bis. Hoping to hit intoxx either tonite or tomorrow (more likely).
1109am
After a nearly one-hour meeting in person with the team, I picked up another half of a Breakfast Blend.
When work that I did was completed, then "we" did them. When emails get missed -- "I" miss them.
The deadline I sweated last night was fine but it wound up getting pushed another month so nothing to worry about there.
If you don't change where you're going, you're gonna end up right where you're headed.
320pm
Pike. Kind of a celebratory one, now that I got to the bottom of the Brent Award situation. Had a good workout and did all but the bis. Overkill, Artillery, Anthrax, Cellador and Blind Guardian.
Monday, June 15, 2015
Weekend catches up.
1152am
Had a Breakfast Blend earlier (small cup) and it follows a small 730 Maxwell House. I've got some submissions today and am in a really good mood, for no reason other than I had a good weekend. Hitting the gym really early on Sat and being outdoors most of the weekend works for me.
I'll do the work and then the "home" work and then get ready to bounce out of here. Today's commute was really slow due to a crew member getting sick but I hung out with Marshall. Lots of new music to break in this week.
Noon
Had another Breakfast Blend (same size) and just sat through the meeting. No idea how long it lasted. Not terribly bad, though. But less than 1 sentence in to our co-worker's quick details, AKASW cut him off. Just rude.
240pm
I have to meet with AKASW at 3 to discuss all the emails she hasn't looked at. So I have to listen to "Doo-do-do-do-doo" more times than I'd like. Although I've gotten us ahead of the curve on several fronts, I'm not trusted and it's unfortunate. I hope someone relays to her how good I looked on Friday. She should sweat more than she does. I'm having about half of a tall cup of House Blend.
457pm
Am just hungry so I'm having lots of milk with a little bit of the LightNote. I got through my meeting via phone with the nutbar. It has taken me a few months to get the rhythm down while she continues to know next-to-nothing.
503pm
Drafting emails and making lists for someone else is not stimulating and beneath my abilities. The recipient is fully capable but merely delegates responsibility.
Noon
Had another Breakfast Blend (same size) and just sat through the meeting. No idea how long it lasted. Not terribly bad, though. But less than 1 sentence in to our co-worker's quick details, AKASW cut him off. Just rude.
240pm
I have to meet with AKASW at 3 to discuss all the emails she hasn't looked at. So I have to listen to "Doo-do-do-do-doo" more times than I'd like. Although I've gotten us ahead of the curve on several fronts, I'm not trusted and it's unfortunate. I hope someone relays to her how good I looked on Friday. She should sweat more than she does. I'm having about half of a tall cup of House Blend.
457pm
Am just hungry so I'm having lots of milk with a little bit of the LightNote. I got through my meeting via phone with the nutbar. It has taken me a few months to get the rhythm down while she continues to know next-to-nothing.
503pm
Drafting emails and making lists for someone else is not stimulating and beneath my abilities. The recipient is fully capable but merely delegates responsibility.
Friday, June 12, 2015
Brand New Start With A Synthetic Heart
1117am
Awake. Just downed the rest with the lemon juice. It's not very tasty when you do that. I cried behind my sunglasses this morning as I commuted on train and foot whilst listening to Ha Ha Tonka, particularly to "The Humorist" and "Rewrite Our Lives." For the former, it's new to me but and I love the chorus but the line about:
I’m gonna catch a comet
I know the people on it
A wave to my wife and my beautiful daughters
Yeah, that touches a nerve. I heard it as "daughter" but w/e.
Awake. Just downed the rest with the lemon juice. It's not very tasty when you do that. I cried behind my sunglasses this morning as I commuted on train and foot whilst listening to Ha Ha Tonka, particularly to "The Humorist" and "Rewrite Our Lives." For the former, it's new to me but and I love the chorus but the line about:
I’m gonna catch a comet
I know the people on it
A wave to my wife and my beautiful daughters
I have a freelance meeting near the old location on PAS at 1 and that will be good. I'm largely over this head cold. Still traces of it, though. But I finally slept through the night. I've got some leads to follow up on and emails to send. I'll have some coffee soon, too. While I'm not Tywhitted up today, I'm looking as dapper as possible.
Noon - Noon30
I know I had a small cup of Breakfast Blend. Was very excited for my meeting and it went pretty well from what I can tell. The timing is right and hopefully there will be more off-hours writing starting in July. I was genuinely excited to be in that office. A total 180 from what I've ever been accustomed to, and it would not be hard to acclimate to that lively and accommodating environment.
"The Humorist" was still in my head the whole time.
Noon - Noon30
I know I had a small cup of Breakfast Blend. Was very excited for my meeting and it went pretty well from what I can tell. The timing is right and hopefully there will be more off-hours writing starting in July. I was genuinely excited to be in that office. A total 180 from what I've ever been accustomed to, and it would not be hard to acclimate to that lively and accommodating environment.
"The Humorist" was still in my head the whole time.
Thursday, June 11, 2015
Events Rule!
4pm
I'll do my best to recount my caffeine today.
Morning at home: Maxwell House; 11am small Breakfast Blend; 4pm undetermined coffee @ the ILO event. 'Twas black.
I know I had a Green Tips and Awake at work and then a high-quality Chai at the event around 230.
Events rule. I got work done and will leave here @ 5. Met the legal advisor to the office of the president of Malta. That rules.
I'm still sniffling and handling this drip as best I can. I was dry yesterday and today it's the opposite.
Made some contacts. One never knows to where it might lead.
Oh right...and AKASW will be out tomorrow. Fridays in the summer are great. The goal is to take Mondays off.
I'll do my best to recount my caffeine today.
Morning at home: Maxwell House; 11am small Breakfast Blend; 4pm undetermined coffee @ the ILO event. 'Twas black.
I know I had a Green Tips and Awake at work and then a high-quality Chai at the event around 230.
Events rule. I got work done and will leave here @ 5. Met the legal advisor to the office of the president of Malta. That rules.
I'm still sniffling and handling this drip as best I can. I was dry yesterday and today it's the opposite.
Made some contacts. One never knows to where it might lead.
Oh right...and AKASW will be out tomorrow. Fridays in the summer are great. The goal is to take Mondays off.
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