Did not take the bike today on account of downpours. I could've made it to the office dry but the return would've been a pain.
I'm not as gung-ho as I'd been.
Regardless, I'm on coffee #4 today. 2nd of 2 Vanilla Hazlenuts (french press) that I bought at the Coffee Nut in Long Beach.
Smells great. It's nice to have FP again after a long hiatus. It always starts out nice and tasty and then due to air exposure it loses its flavor a little quicker than I'd like. That's why I only did a quarter pound.
If you blindfolded me and asked me to tell you the flavor, I'm not sure I could answer correctly.
However, I'm listening to Kenny Burrell's "Mellow Tone" and it's complementing my mood and the coffee. I think it's just him and a bassist. All coffeehouses should have songs like this.
I like being here. I like having a 'here.' I can do the work. It's not rocket science. Was complimented on my appearance today -- yellow with brown vest. Apparently a button down that is actually buttoned down looks good.
Ok. Cool. Hoping to hit the gym pretty hard tonight. I might lay off the squats in the interest of time.
Thank you for reading.
Wednesday, October 28, 2015
Friday, October 2, 2015
What's keeping me awake?
455pm
I have lost track of all the caffeine I've ingested today. On Weds I covered the EA event and had a fair amt of coffee. Yesterday I had some in the morning and afternoon and then a 6 Hour Power around 830.
Today I've had at least 4 cups since 10am and am now nursing a tea, since I can tell my stomach cannot handle the acidity any longer.
I've done so much today and I simultaneously feel like I've barely scratched the surface.
I don't exactly know how I'm still awake but I am looking forward to sleeping tonite as soon as Chickie goes down.
Thank you for reading.
I have lost track of all the caffeine I've ingested today. On Weds I covered the EA event and had a fair amt of coffee. Yesterday I had some in the morning and afternoon and then a 6 Hour Power around 830.
Today I've had at least 4 cups since 10am and am now nursing a tea, since I can tell my stomach cannot handle the acidity any longer.
I've done so much today and I simultaneously feel like I've barely scratched the surface.
I don't exactly know how I'm still awake but I am looking forward to sleeping tonite as soon as Chickie goes down.
Thank you for reading.
Tuesday, September 22, 2015
Time Travelling
930am
I am having Lipton tea at my old desk, back at ALM. I am not technically freelancing, but temping, and we'll call it a consultancy.
I can only have this one cup of caffeinated tea today, as tomorrow is the fasting holiday. It was weird enough being here on the 11th, but to be here today and knowing it'll happen again for at least a couple of months (or whenever I get a new job) is so unusual. My dear Ashlee is gone and that part stings because although I like a lot of the people here, aside from George I do not have the same rapport.
My heart races on and off -- like it's running sprints inside my ribcage. The more I think about how fast the last 9 months have gone it picks up the pace. The law firm feels like a dream/nightmare and the last two months of homebound work is like a haze. Everything and nothing changed and in the end I wound up right where I started. I have not had that much time with Chickie before and depending on what side of the coin you favor, it shouldn't happen again.
But Rich and Susan are here and Josh and Sam have been more than fair. I briefly renegotiated my rate and now it's certainly better.
It's like being in a slightly parallel universe. It's familiar and nearly identical, but some different people and arrangements. In some ways my professional heart was here all along -- it's a weird thing to admit. It makes a lot of sense, though. I feel very fortunate to be here and earning and I just want to do the job and go home. I'm waiting for some more direction.
Around noon I wanted to drink really badly. My heart was pounding and I would have dove headfirst in to a whiskey casket. I hated admitting that to George but I had to tell someone. I do not think booze would have quelled me but maybe. Part of me wants to cry a bit. Did I attract this (for better or worse)? Is it the end result of staying on the radar all this time? Or do they want someone they can trust and kick around?
I had lunch with Rich at the Vietnamese shop and we discussed what's going on and how that would apply to the bicycle show I always wanted to write. Now that we have this in-person second-chance I am going to do my best to crank it out.
There were a lot of good memories and some rough ones at this desk. It's more the feeling that I'm worried about. I do not want to fall back in to bad old habits. Now that the job is different, there will be different hurdles. I wanted the NY Mag thing to happen but it's not to be right now.
Last week started and I thought I'd be doing that web site. Two days later I was bombing on a press release. A day later I got a call about coming back in. Then I did the Hotel Editorial test (results pending). Now I'm here. What was old shall become new again.
We'll have to see what to do about the bike.
Thank you for reading this.
I am having Lipton tea at my old desk, back at ALM. I am not technically freelancing, but temping, and we'll call it a consultancy.
I can only have this one cup of caffeinated tea today, as tomorrow is the fasting holiday. It was weird enough being here on the 11th, but to be here today and knowing it'll happen again for at least a couple of months (or whenever I get a new job) is so unusual. My dear Ashlee is gone and that part stings because although I like a lot of the people here, aside from George I do not have the same rapport.
My heart races on and off -- like it's running sprints inside my ribcage. The more I think about how fast the last 9 months have gone it picks up the pace. The law firm feels like a dream/nightmare and the last two months of homebound work is like a haze. Everything and nothing changed and in the end I wound up right where I started. I have not had that much time with Chickie before and depending on what side of the coin you favor, it shouldn't happen again.
But Rich and Susan are here and Josh and Sam have been more than fair. I briefly renegotiated my rate and now it's certainly better.
It's like being in a slightly parallel universe. It's familiar and nearly identical, but some different people and arrangements. In some ways my professional heart was here all along -- it's a weird thing to admit. It makes a lot of sense, though. I feel very fortunate to be here and earning and I just want to do the job and go home. I'm waiting for some more direction.
Around noon I wanted to drink really badly. My heart was pounding and I would have dove headfirst in to a whiskey casket. I hated admitting that to George but I had to tell someone. I do not think booze would have quelled me but maybe. Part of me wants to cry a bit. Did I attract this (for better or worse)? Is it the end result of staying on the radar all this time? Or do they want someone they can trust and kick around?
I had lunch with Rich at the Vietnamese shop and we discussed what's going on and how that would apply to the bicycle show I always wanted to write. Now that we have this in-person second-chance I am going to do my best to crank it out.
There were a lot of good memories and some rough ones at this desk. It's more the feeling that I'm worried about. I do not want to fall back in to bad old habits. Now that the job is different, there will be different hurdles. I wanted the NY Mag thing to happen but it's not to be right now.
Last week started and I thought I'd be doing that web site. Two days later I was bombing on a press release. A day later I got a call about coming back in. Then I did the Hotel Editorial test (results pending). Now I'm here. What was old shall become new again.
We'll have to see what to do about the bike.
Thank you for reading this.
Monday, July 13, 2015
Zen, the two of us need look no more...
1030am
I'm already amped up. Between this morning's PB coffee and the pending performance review and other professional possibilities, I don't need the hard jolt I normally do. So I waited a bit and had some Zen tea. It's doing the job, I suppose. It's got 3 of 5 caffeine bullets on the label.
AKASW has bereavement later today and all tomorrow and that is unfortunate. It may also impact my perf review. Remains to be seen. I also may meet with someone today with a lead. Thankfully she can come here. Also remains to be seen.
I had a great weekend I should update in CaffeinateDad. Yesterday morning in particular with Miri was great.
1138am
Having a half of a Breakfast Blend with a full raw sugar packet. My review is apparently still on. My Lynbrook co-commuter asked for my resume. Things be happening today.
I'm already amped up. Between this morning's PB coffee and the pending performance review and other professional possibilities, I don't need the hard jolt I normally do. So I waited a bit and had some Zen tea. It's doing the job, I suppose. It's got 3 of 5 caffeine bullets on the label.
AKASW has bereavement later today and all tomorrow and that is unfortunate. It may also impact my perf review. Remains to be seen. I also may meet with someone today with a lead. Thankfully she can come here. Also remains to be seen.
I had a great weekend I should update in CaffeinateDad. Yesterday morning in particular with Miri was great.
1138am
Having a half of a Breakfast Blend with a full raw sugar packet. My review is apparently still on. My Lynbrook co-commuter asked for my resume. Things be happening today.
Friday, July 10, 2015
End of a good week
1000-1035am
Getting through the day should be relatively painless. Having a Breakfast Blend with a sugar. I did not see a bonus reflected in my paycheck. Co-worker got one. However I have not had my review so if it will happen, my guess is that it'd be in the next pay period. 2 weeks from today.
I also just found out that manager had a DITF, which is unfortunate, so Tuesday will be reminiscent of today. While not wanting to seem selfish, I'll be on extra good behavior on Monday for review. One can only guess how easily grief can seep in to seemingly-unrelated things. It also means I only have 2 days with AKASW next week, which means only 2 days in 3 weeks.
The temp is finishing helping me with the small assignment that we procrastinated on and that is off my plate. I have a small writing assignment to do today and maybe it's time to assign some other stuff and some positions worth investigating and that's it.
Physically, I feel fantastic. My palm feels mostly healed and my body is slowly achieving the look I've been aiming for. Now it's either a matter of maintaining or changing it up completely.
1250pm
Nursing half a cup of LightNote. Will have a couple of breaks. I have that paragraph that I've made some progress on but I'm not inspired but will manufacture inspirado. I got some feedback on draft 1 and now it's a matter of updating. I'm listening to Yo Yo Ma's Goat Rodeo Sessions. End of alphabet in my WMP library.
2pm
Had a half an iced coffee and hung out downstairs with 'karaoke co-worker,' who's one of the cool ones. Same boat, just one sea over.
Getting through the day should be relatively painless. Having a Breakfast Blend with a sugar. I did not see a bonus reflected in my paycheck. Co-worker got one. However I have not had my review so if it will happen, my guess is that it'd be in the next pay period. 2 weeks from today.
I also just found out that manager had a DITF, which is unfortunate, so Tuesday will be reminiscent of today. While not wanting to seem selfish, I'll be on extra good behavior on Monday for review. One can only guess how easily grief can seep in to seemingly-unrelated things. It also means I only have 2 days with AKASW next week, which means only 2 days in 3 weeks.
The temp is finishing helping me with the small assignment that we procrastinated on and that is off my plate. I have a small writing assignment to do today and maybe it's time to assign some other stuff and some positions worth investigating and that's it.
Physically, I feel fantastic. My palm feels mostly healed and my body is slowly achieving the look I've been aiming for. Now it's either a matter of maintaining or changing it up completely.
1250pm
Nursing half a cup of LightNote. Will have a couple of breaks. I have that paragraph that I've made some progress on but I'm not inspired but will manufacture inspirado. I got some feedback on draft 1 and now it's a matter of updating. I'm listening to Yo Yo Ma's Goat Rodeo Sessions. End of alphabet in my WMP library.
2pm
Had a half an iced coffee and hung out downstairs with 'karaoke co-worker,' who's one of the cool ones. Same boat, just one sea over.
Thursday, July 9, 2015
Battling ADT, one coffee at a time
1045am
I went downstairs with co-worker editor today to catch up and make it not totally about work or bitching. My House Blend was nice and piping. We did a little and then moved on to home-life topics. I have been reading On Managing Yourself and the chapter on ADT is resonating. Some of it for me directly but largely more b/c of my own mgr.
Being isolated certainly does create cynicism.
250pm
Upon return from the gym, I'm having skim milk and then LightNote Blend to round it out (about half a cup). I do not need to be "on" for the rest of the day. Last night's chest workout and today's abs/tris/shoulders workout have done me in. I will try for a run tomorrow morning. I did not receive one email in my extended lunch at PF. I opened the GNC Amplified Whey today and it's pretty tasty. The powders are always better with milk. I should have added some. Next time.
I want to add my workout details from today:
Shoulders:
Clean overhead press - 10 reps each / 60lb/ 55lb / 50lb
Rope pulldown (behind the neck) - 15 reps of 100lb (on my knees)
Pull up from floor - 15 reps each at 15lbs
Front lift (sort of like kettlebells) - 15 reps each of 12.5lbs
Abs:
Bicycle: 300 total reps
Leg Lifts: 40 reps x 3
Standing twist / reverse chop: 25lbs - 3 sets of 10
Side lifts - 25 reps x 2 (each side)
Tris:
Laying down on bench / 35lbs / 15 reps x 2
Rope Handle press down 15 reps
Single Handle press down 15 reps each arm
Playlist:
Wolf: Ravenous
Destruction: Riot Squad
Maylene & Sons of Disaster: Settling Scores By Burning Bridges
Armored Saint: In An Instant
Gamma Ray: Razorblade Sigh
Turbo: Smash the Wall
Ex Libris: The Day of Burning
Helloween: Living on the Edge
Overkill: Struck Down
Helloween: Escalation 666 (only for the final tris press down)
I went downstairs with co-worker editor today to catch up and make it not totally about work or bitching. My House Blend was nice and piping. We did a little and then moved on to home-life topics. I have been reading On Managing Yourself and the chapter on ADT is resonating. Some of it for me directly but largely more b/c of my own mgr.
Being isolated certainly does create cynicism.
250pm
Upon return from the gym, I'm having skim milk and then LightNote Blend to round it out (about half a cup). I do not need to be "on" for the rest of the day. Last night's chest workout and today's abs/tris/shoulders workout have done me in. I will try for a run tomorrow morning. I did not receive one email in my extended lunch at PF. I opened the GNC Amplified Whey today and it's pretty tasty. The powders are always better with milk. I should have added some. Next time.
I want to add my workout details from today:
Shoulders:
Clean overhead press - 10 reps each / 60lb/ 55lb / 50lb
Rope pulldown (behind the neck) - 15 reps of 100lb (on my knees)
Pull up from floor - 15 reps each at 15lbs
Front lift (sort of like kettlebells) - 15 reps each of 12.5lbs
Abs:
Bicycle: 300 total reps
Leg Lifts: 40 reps x 3
Standing twist / reverse chop: 25lbs - 3 sets of 10
Side lifts - 25 reps x 2 (each side)
Tris:
Laying down on bench / 35lbs / 15 reps x 2
Rope Handle press down 15 reps
Single Handle press down 15 reps each arm
Playlist:
Wolf: Ravenous
Destruction: Riot Squad
Maylene & Sons of Disaster: Settling Scores By Burning Bridges
Armored Saint: In An Instant
Gamma Ray: Razorblade Sigh
Turbo: Smash the Wall
Ex Libris: The Day of Burning
Helloween: Living on the Edge
Overkill: Struck Down
Helloween: Escalation 666 (only for the final tris press down)
Wednesday, July 8, 2015
Tidy the tediousness
1015am
Am letting the Breakfast Blend cool off. I've had some chocolate nuts and some samoa cookies already. Ran for 22 minutes this morning just to accomplish something. I could've hit the gym but between my inability to wake up in time and desire to have a healed palm, I'm passing today. Maybe tomorrow or mid-day Thurs or Fri.
I'm thrilled to not be wearing long-sleeve button-downs this week.
By 1030 it has reached optimal drinking temperature. I'm just preparing for a call and then will set some minor goals to be reached by day's end.
I've put feelers out there in to the ether and we're hoping for some feedback.
115pm
House Blend. I'm not denying myself anything in the way of caffeine today. It's worth noting I downed a full, cold Choc Peanut Butter Cup coffee this morning in my JPR mug. It's better cold. I'm sorta done now with flavored stuff unless I know it can be drank quickly. Except for maybe cinnamon flavored stuff. That's it. I'm glad we bought this but it loses flavor very quickly. I'm going to repurpose an old nomination in to a one-para nomination. Listening to Terrell's Angry Southern Gentleman today. Listened to Beautiful Side Of Madness this morning and wrote an Amazon review. Hoping to meet with Ken for lunch. Word up.
355pm
I've reheated my coffee. It had half left. My lunch was good and now I'm going to finally do this "achievements" thing I've been putting off. I think I'll try to lift tonight. I don't want to do it in the morning.
Am letting the Breakfast Blend cool off. I've had some chocolate nuts and some samoa cookies already. Ran for 22 minutes this morning just to accomplish something. I could've hit the gym but between my inability to wake up in time and desire to have a healed palm, I'm passing today. Maybe tomorrow or mid-day Thurs or Fri.
I'm thrilled to not be wearing long-sleeve button-downs this week.
By 1030 it has reached optimal drinking temperature. I'm just preparing for a call and then will set some minor goals to be reached by day's end.
I've put feelers out there in to the ether and we're hoping for some feedback.
115pm
House Blend. I'm not denying myself anything in the way of caffeine today. It's worth noting I downed a full, cold Choc Peanut Butter Cup coffee this morning in my JPR mug. It's better cold. I'm sorta done now with flavored stuff unless I know it can be drank quickly. Except for maybe cinnamon flavored stuff. That's it. I'm glad we bought this but it loses flavor very quickly. I'm going to repurpose an old nomination in to a one-para nomination. Listening to Terrell's Angry Southern Gentleman today. Listened to Beautiful Side Of Madness this morning and wrote an Amazon review. Hoping to meet with Ken for lunch. Word up.
355pm
I've reheated my coffee. It had half left. My lunch was good and now I'm going to finally do this "achievements" thing I've been putting off. I think I'll try to lift tonight. I don't want to do it in the morning.
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