935-10am
I just realized I've been nursing this Breakfast Blend practically since I came in. It was another late nite and I want to hit the gym during lunch. I'm actually readying my bag now so that I can just go. I just have to stay on top of people and their respective deadlines today and then that's all.
1230pm
Getting my Pike in now so that I'm amped enough for the gym and so that I can take the cup full of Marked powder. I'm extremely upset that a bunch of former co-workers got the axe today. Not an immediate one but still. 2 people I recruited are done by Summer's end.
In two separated dinings, I inhaled a bavarian creme and vanilla creme donut halves from 18. They will be burned off shortly. Fact is I have basically only fruit and nuts post-workout, so I'm getting the carbs in now. I'm seriously so sad and feel like the "good old days" of working 2005-8 are truly just memories now. I knew intellectually they were gone but now as far as sentiment is concerned it's the final nail.
A freelancing opportunity may now arise. I have to plug his # into my phone.
410pm
Awake now. Need the hydration. Am pretty bummed about the good people I know being let go. Had a pretty good workout and certainly sweated it up. Did that same superset of deadlifts, curls and press. 32 reps. Also did my abs, the pec fly and a final set of curls. I was Screaming For Vengeance.
Thursday, April 30, 2015
Wednesday, April 29, 2015
The Speech
1015am
I had to reverse the routine this morning b/c I've got 90 straight minutes of meetings and calls during the typical Pike time.
I'm a little roadworn and weary I think from the lackluster commutes and the bad sleep. Now that the wedding has been relocated, we may be able to leave after breakfast on Friday. We'll supposedly save an hour each way. That and saving an extra night's stay is good with me.
Just trying to get stuff out the door. I didn't plan on my meeting being right after our normally-long conference call but I'm using it to wrap it up faster.
I have to actually draft a speech today. The pieces are there I just need to arrange them.
312pm
Awake time. AKASW has a no-reaction-time policy, to which she pretends to be oblivious. I have not drafted the speech yet it will happen on the train for sure. An unsolicited but nevertheless welcome resume critique said I need to come off as more of an "achiever" as opposed to a "doer," and quantify my results. After my initial "fuck you" reaction, I realized it can't hurt. It's a little tough to quantify my results since I'm not in sales and currently do not work with revenues but if/when these windbags win something, I'll take my share of the credit for local/regional/national/global recognition.
340pm
China Green Tips.
Mostly just b/c I want the honey and hydration, not so much for the caffeine. Worth mentioning that I hit PF today and did 60 reps on my tris. That and the walk were good.
I had to reverse the routine this morning b/c I've got 90 straight minutes of meetings and calls during the typical Pike time.
I'm a little roadworn and weary I think from the lackluster commutes and the bad sleep. Now that the wedding has been relocated, we may be able to leave after breakfast on Friday. We'll supposedly save an hour each way. That and saving an extra night's stay is good with me.
Just trying to get stuff out the door. I didn't plan on my meeting being right after our normally-long conference call but I'm using it to wrap it up faster.
I have to actually draft a speech today. The pieces are there I just need to arrange them.
312pm
Awake time. AKASW has a no-reaction-time policy, to which she pretends to be oblivious. I have not drafted the speech yet it will happen on the train for sure. An unsolicited but nevertheless welcome resume critique said I need to come off as more of an "achiever" as opposed to a "doer," and quantify my results. After my initial "fuck you" reaction, I realized it can't hurt. It's a little tough to quantify my results since I'm not in sales and currently do not work with revenues but if/when these windbags win something, I'll take my share of the credit for local/regional/national/global recognition.
340pm
China Green Tips.
Mostly just b/c I want the honey and hydration, not so much for the caffeine. Worth mentioning that I hit PF today and did 60 reps on my tris. That and the walk were good.
Tuesday, April 28, 2015
Baltimore Woes
955am
Awake. I am wearing my wool pants which thankfully still had my LavAzza coupon in them. Maybe I'll use it.
I'm quite bummed b/c of what's transpiring in Baltimore. Jared's wedding is sched'd for Sat but I don't feel great about bringing my fam to that area, even if it is a mile away. We'll still likely have to go through parts of the city that were ravaged and I do not believe that a new car with an affluent young family stands much of a chance. We've all been looking forward to this for a long time and they had to book the museum well over a year ago and the nearby citizens are exhibiting what they really think of their environment.
AKASW hath returned and although she's run down, that voice booms through all the hollow offices and hallways.
I realized I made it through the whole day on just one Pike. I was even up pretty late and still didn't need it.
1125am
Pike. Took 20 minutes for this too cool to an imbibable temperature. Had an interesting chat with a co-worker about the riots and cops. His dad was a cop and corrections officer but and he's black so he's a bit torn about the whole thing but his perspective is weighty, in my opinion.
1150am
Still going on my Pike. Despite my best efforts to get awards in process early, I am bottlenecked by the person who keeps wanting "more" from me. I guess that person inadvertently wants us all to be here "more" and "later," too.
250pm
About 16 oz. of LightNote Blend from other side of the floor, b/c it's presumably fresher. I have a meeting in 5 minutes and I can't wait to watch AKASW show inability to digest information.
330ish
As I finish my LightNote, I'm asked to figure out a process for starting a nomination earlier (my top priority). I have to articulate a bureaucratic, politically correct, in-depth, sensitive, step-by-step process that can be summed up in 3 words: PRESS THE BUTTON!
Awake. I am wearing my wool pants which thankfully still had my LavAzza coupon in them. Maybe I'll use it.
I'm quite bummed b/c of what's transpiring in Baltimore. Jared's wedding is sched'd for Sat but I don't feel great about bringing my fam to that area, even if it is a mile away. We'll still likely have to go through parts of the city that were ravaged and I do not believe that a new car with an affluent young family stands much of a chance. We've all been looking forward to this for a long time and they had to book the museum well over a year ago and the nearby citizens are exhibiting what they really think of their environment.
AKASW hath returned and although she's run down, that voice booms through all the hollow offices and hallways.
I realized I made it through the whole day on just one Pike. I was even up pretty late and still didn't need it.
1125am
Pike. Took 20 minutes for this too cool to an imbibable temperature. Had an interesting chat with a co-worker about the riots and cops. His dad was a cop and corrections officer but and he's black so he's a bit torn about the whole thing but his perspective is weighty, in my opinion.
1150am
Still going on my Pike. Despite my best efforts to get awards in process early, I am bottlenecked by the person who keeps wanting "more" from me. I guess that person inadvertently wants us all to be here "more" and "later," too.
250pm
About 16 oz. of LightNote Blend from other side of the floor, b/c it's presumably fresher. I have a meeting in 5 minutes and I can't wait to watch AKASW show inability to digest information.
330ish
As I finish my LightNote, I'm asked to figure out a process for starting a nomination earlier (my top priority). I have to articulate a bureaucratic, politically correct, in-depth, sensitive, step-by-step process that can be summed up in 3 words: PRESS THE BUTTON!
Monday, April 27, 2015
Papers everywhere
943am
Awake. Time for me to tidy up.
I timed my ride -- once on the street it takes 10 minutes to ride to work. Probably and extra 3-5 to get above ground.
I'm going to hit the gym hard and early today. AKASW is out. I have to draft something for her. Normally I'd wait until day's end but it's not worth it. I'll just do it by four. I did leave something for myself to send first thing this morning. I don't remember if Men's Health suggested it or if I read it somewhere else or if I'm repeating myself but if there's something that I need to send but not terribly urgently, I draft it and send it first thing the next morning. I'm sure I'm not the only person to enact that process. I do it at day's end, too, most days. It shows that I am in and out on time but also puts things in the other person's court.
I'm listening to Incitare by Volto! This is the instrumental rock-jazz fusion from the Tool drummer. The music is intricate, energetic and fast but with a groove and it's even fun. I bought it for maybe a buck last year at J&R (b/c it looked cool) and it's gotten me through many a day here and at ALM.
Must also make time for Jared's toast, and "the hunt."
The Awake is gone and I'll need some Pike real soon again.
1035am
Pike time. Will have a samoa cookie with it.
1130am
It takes a while for 20 oz to cool. Pike is gone and I have to void my bowels. I've been working on this one email (that I cannot send myself) for an hour. One hour of Mozart under my belt.
242pm
Awake.
I just tore it up at PF. Abs, tris, bis, back, shoulders, hips. I also created(?) a superset with 50lb dumbbells that combined deadlift, curl and overhead press. Did 4 sets of 8 but I will admit that the last set needed to be broken in halves. Was able to take the time to do it all b/c I finished that letter and other work and there's not much waiting for me in email. I had a Marked shake at the gym and then came back and had a water and milk and now a tea just to keep from crashing. Work is tolerable when a stress magnet is not asking me to join meetings and watch her talk on the phone. It's also not so bad b/c I know it's just 3 more days of this and then I've got the wedding and an extra day for myself. Gnoshing on peanuts and will have an apple soon. I was going to mooch some food from 23 but it's not worth it.
Awake. Time for me to tidy up.
I timed my ride -- once on the street it takes 10 minutes to ride to work. Probably and extra 3-5 to get above ground.
I'm going to hit the gym hard and early today. AKASW is out. I have to draft something for her. Normally I'd wait until day's end but it's not worth it. I'll just do it by four. I did leave something for myself to send first thing this morning. I don't remember if Men's Health suggested it or if I read it somewhere else or if I'm repeating myself but if there's something that I need to send but not terribly urgently, I draft it and send it first thing the next morning. I'm sure I'm not the only person to enact that process. I do it at day's end, too, most days. It shows that I am in and out on time but also puts things in the other person's court.
I'm listening to Incitare by Volto! This is the instrumental rock-jazz fusion from the Tool drummer. The music is intricate, energetic and fast but with a groove and it's even fun. I bought it for maybe a buck last year at J&R (b/c it looked cool) and it's gotten me through many a day here and at ALM.
Must also make time for Jared's toast, and "the hunt."
The Awake is gone and I'll need some Pike real soon again.
1035am
Pike time. Will have a samoa cookie with it.
1130am
It takes a while for 20 oz to cool. Pike is gone and I have to void my bowels. I've been working on this one email (that I cannot send myself) for an hour. One hour of Mozart under my belt.
242pm
Awake.
I just tore it up at PF. Abs, tris, bis, back, shoulders, hips. I also created(?) a superset with 50lb dumbbells that combined deadlift, curl and overhead press. Did 4 sets of 8 but I will admit that the last set needed to be broken in halves. Was able to take the time to do it all b/c I finished that letter and other work and there's not much waiting for me in email. I had a Marked shake at the gym and then came back and had a water and milk and now a tea just to keep from crashing. Work is tolerable when a stress magnet is not asking me to join meetings and watch her talk on the phone. It's also not so bad b/c I know it's just 3 more days of this and then I've got the wedding and an extra day for myself. Gnoshing on peanuts and will have an apple soon. I was going to mooch some food from 23 but it's not worth it.
Friday, April 24, 2015
Exhausted Friday
945am
Awake: Let's just get through the day, here. Will get to the gym a little earlier today for lunch and just crank that out. AKA SW is out today and Monday so I'll get work done and maybe get home earlier.
I'm exhausted b/c last night I made Chick's coup but made a mistake toward the end and prematurely capped something so I have to remove it. It can be done, since all I did was hammer it down but it will take either a 2nd man or a machine to get it off. Once that happens I can have it finished and Chickie can play.
I couldn't bring myself to do su doku (too hard) nor read (I'm way too exhausted).
I captured a roach this morning with a cup. One of the marketing girls was a bit spooked. The cleaning lady came in and took it away.
I'll get a Pike shortly, as well.
1030-11am
Piking it up. It's a must. The su doku in the bathroom got the brain running. It's continued from last week's bus ride.
Just had a fun talk with co-worker DZ about all sorts of stuff. B/w that and the coffee, I am truly awake.
Noon
Caffeine has been ingested for a while now, which propelled me to send a personal submission to a fantastic group. I did not drop the name I was hoping to but I wrote the most sincere letter of my career.
325pm
Having a victory cup in a company mug. Light Note blend from the other side of the floor, b/c it's fresher. I did my abs, shoulders and tris at the gym and was spotted by co-workers on the bike, which is all good. Listened to Armored Saint, Gamma Ray and even squeezed in an Orange 9mm song. I'm not as tired as I'd anticipated. Work got done and now I'm just tidying up. My desk is a mess, too.
Awake: Let's just get through the day, here. Will get to the gym a little earlier today for lunch and just crank that out. AKA SW is out today and Monday so I'll get work done and maybe get home earlier.
I'm exhausted b/c last night I made Chick's coup but made a mistake toward the end and prematurely capped something so I have to remove it. It can be done, since all I did was hammer it down but it will take either a 2nd man or a machine to get it off. Once that happens I can have it finished and Chickie can play.
I couldn't bring myself to do su doku (too hard) nor read (I'm way too exhausted).
I captured a roach this morning with a cup. One of the marketing girls was a bit spooked. The cleaning lady came in and took it away.
I'll get a Pike shortly, as well.
1030-11am
Piking it up. It's a must. The su doku in the bathroom got the brain running. It's continued from last week's bus ride.
Just had a fun talk with co-worker DZ about all sorts of stuff. B/w that and the coffee, I am truly awake.
Noon
Caffeine has been ingested for a while now, which propelled me to send a personal submission to a fantastic group. I did not drop the name I was hoping to but I wrote the most sincere letter of my career.
325pm
Having a victory cup in a company mug. Light Note blend from the other side of the floor, b/c it's fresher. I did my abs, shoulders and tris at the gym and was spotted by co-workers on the bike, which is all good. Listened to Armored Saint, Gamma Ray and even squeezed in an Orange 9mm song. I'm not as tired as I'd anticipated. Work got done and now I'm just tidying up. My desk is a mess, too.
Thursday, April 23, 2015
Review Time!
959am
Finished my Awake, which I brewed in the presence of AKASW. I was a little apprehensive about my "review" -- it doesn't seem to be a formal one but w/e. I'm shaved, wearing a tie and feeling pretty good though there's a bit of a headache coming on I may need some Pike real quick. I got a surprising compliment from a co-worker about a nomination I slapped together. I always feel like I can do better but I do not have ample time. Of course this all could have been avoided if they'd committed to nominating this person a month ago when he was the sole contender.
Regardless, I will focus on being positive, pleasant and humorless. AKASW only really laughs as a by-product of stress or when work stuff is "funny." May as well just tell the truth and get it over with.
1050am/Noon
Review has come and gone. It was not the formal one. I downed the 2nd half of my coffee upon my return. Had I not had my "washout" night some weeks back, this would've been a nightmare but I just did exactly as I said I would. I did point out that there were some things I set out to do that I did but still need more time for, and I think I may have actually been convincing. Overall, there's no real rapport there, and no warmth whatsoever. AKASW tries to present that when I'm asked before/after meetings about home life and bicycling but it's all a time-passing act. Nice gesture, I suppose, but I'm not dealing with Susan anymore. I've reconciled that and now it's a fact to which I am numb. It's obvious that if my top priority is drafting an email for someone else to send is what pays the bills, then fine, but it's also a major affirmation of my after hours activities.
315pm
Needed a half-cup of Light Note Blend. I went to the other side of the floor to get it b/c I know it's fresher. I am a little melancholy. Not sure why. This bittersweet song came to mind. I realized I haven't heard it in some time. Ha Ha Tonka's "The Past Has Arms" will be the companion track. I think I'm a little down because I bought Chickie some books. It's like a beautiful sadness.
I keep eating these good cookies b/c they are available. I will hit the gym for lunch tomorrow and Monday. It will feel good. I will apply to a dream job by morning, too. My letter is already drafted.
This should be it for the java.
Thank you for reading.
1050am/Noon
Review has come and gone. It was not the formal one. I downed the 2nd half of my coffee upon my return. Had I not had my "washout" night some weeks back, this would've been a nightmare but I just did exactly as I said I would. I did point out that there were some things I set out to do that I did but still need more time for, and I think I may have actually been convincing. Overall, there's no real rapport there, and no warmth whatsoever. AKASW tries to present that when I'm asked before/after meetings about home life and bicycling but it's all a time-passing act. Nice gesture, I suppose, but I'm not dealing with Susan anymore. I've reconciled that and now it's a fact to which I am numb. It's obvious that if my top priority is drafting an email for someone else to send is what pays the bills, then fine, but it's also a major affirmation of my after hours activities.
315pm
Needed a half-cup of Light Note Blend. I went to the other side of the floor to get it b/c I know it's fresher. I am a little melancholy. Not sure why. This bittersweet song came to mind. I realized I haven't heard it in some time. Ha Ha Tonka's "The Past Has Arms" will be the companion track. I think I'm a little down because I bought Chickie some books. It's like a beautiful sadness.
I keep eating these good cookies b/c they are available. I will hit the gym for lunch tomorrow and Monday. It will feel good. I will apply to a dream job by morning, too. My letter is already drafted.
This should be it for the java.
Thank you for reading.
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
Su Doku-tastic
945am
Awake with honey. I actually have some work today so I'll have to buckle down immediately after this post. Vivaldi is playing.
I finished a difficult su doku this morning, so I know my brain is functioning and my problem-solving abilities are strengthening. Hoping to apply them to work and to life.
During my walk I imagine the dialogue of my exit interview. It's glorious. It's not an FU speech at all. It's more of a "I made up my mind maybe a week in to being here."
So the goal is to get to that stage, it's just like su doku, where I've got to figure out how to fill those spaces.
1045am
Breakfast Blend. Better than yesterday, so far. Certainly an echelon higher than the lukewarmness from yesterday. All my calories just had a mass evacuation. I heard from a new contact who seems to want to pass me off to her boss, which is fine, but I did want to hear her story. Informational interviewing and networking is hard work. My Metro horoscope (I see it during su doku) says to break routines today b/c it will pay off later. So I reckon I will draft a cover letter whilst on the train today instead of playing su doku.
1245pm
Soda counts. I had some tap Coke on 18. Something was up with my stomach. Getting the rumbles. They didn't have Ginger Ale, so that had to improvise, post-pizza.
2pm
Having Green Tips to chase my Ginger Ale. I wonder if the Breakfast Blend did this. I remember reading that darker roasts coat the stomach better. I can chance it with a Pike later if nec. I will hit the gym later so I may just immediately have an espresso once home.
335pm
Having a half of a Pike (probably about 10oz). I have a nomination I am sort of drafting but am fidgety.
Awake with honey. I actually have some work today so I'll have to buckle down immediately after this post. Vivaldi is playing.
I finished a difficult su doku this morning, so I know my brain is functioning and my problem-solving abilities are strengthening. Hoping to apply them to work and to life.
During my walk I imagine the dialogue of my exit interview. It's glorious. It's not an FU speech at all. It's more of a "I made up my mind maybe a week in to being here."
So the goal is to get to that stage, it's just like su doku, where I've got to figure out how to fill those spaces.
1045am
Breakfast Blend. Better than yesterday, so far. Certainly an echelon higher than the lukewarmness from yesterday. All my calories just had a mass evacuation. I heard from a new contact who seems to want to pass me off to her boss, which is fine, but I did want to hear her story. Informational interviewing and networking is hard work. My Metro horoscope (I see it during su doku) says to break routines today b/c it will pay off later. So I reckon I will draft a cover letter whilst on the train today instead of playing su doku.
1245pm
Soda counts. I had some tap Coke on 18. Something was up with my stomach. Getting the rumbles. They didn't have Ginger Ale, so that had to improvise, post-pizza.
2pm
Having Green Tips to chase my Ginger Ale. I wonder if the Breakfast Blend did this. I remember reading that darker roasts coat the stomach better. I can chance it with a Pike later if nec. I will hit the gym later so I may just immediately have an espresso once home.
335pm
Having a half of a Pike (probably about 10oz). I have a nomination I am sort of drafting but am fidgety.
Tuesday, April 21, 2015
Priorities
954am
Awake with honey. Just another day here but will try to keep it interesting as I have to list priorities for our group.
Here's an honest list: Let me get started on projects earlier and don't waste my time having me draft tedious emails.
The side of my neck is having tired throbs but I'll get over it.
Trying to keep the external/job-searching dialogues going with at least 3 people concurrently.
Will try to change the outlook from 'just another day' as much as possible.
Could use some su doku about now.
1235pm
I caved and have 2/3 cup of Breakfast Blend. It actually came out at the perfect temperature but I question its freshness. Not to say it's un-imbibable but normally that blend has changed to another by this time of day. I can do all the work I'm doing from home.
245pm
I have a full Pike that is now lukewarm even after reheating. I took a few sips and something's not sitting right in the belly, now. I had a chicken marsala dish and an apple for lunch with some tootsie rolls. I'll retry the coffee but if it's not still ill-received I'll dump it. I took a walk to PF during lunch and did some quick curls and press down sets. On the way there, though, I found a blank check. I reached out to the person via LinkedIn and hopefully he gets the message. A less honest individual would've ruined his day. I may just stick with tea.
320pm
Zen tea. Easing the hassle of all the BS emails I have to deal with.
That's all. Thank you for reading.
Awake with honey. Just another day here but will try to keep it interesting as I have to list priorities for our group.
Here's an honest list: Let me get started on projects earlier and don't waste my time having me draft tedious emails.
The side of my neck is having tired throbs but I'll get over it.
Trying to keep the external/job-searching dialogues going with at least 3 people concurrently.
Will try to change the outlook from 'just another day' as much as possible.
Could use some su doku about now.
1235pm
I caved and have 2/3 cup of Breakfast Blend. It actually came out at the perfect temperature but I question its freshness. Not to say it's un-imbibable but normally that blend has changed to another by this time of day. I can do all the work I'm doing from home.
245pm
I have a full Pike that is now lukewarm even after reheating. I took a few sips and something's not sitting right in the belly, now. I had a chicken marsala dish and an apple for lunch with some tootsie rolls. I'll retry the coffee but if it's not still ill-received I'll dump it. I took a walk to PF during lunch and did some quick curls and press down sets. On the way there, though, I found a blank check. I reached out to the person via LinkedIn and hopefully he gets the message. A less honest individual would've ruined his day. I may just stick with tea.
320pm
Zen tea. Easing the hassle of all the BS emails I have to deal with.
That's all. Thank you for reading.
Monday, April 20, 2015
Win Hands Down
1000am
Awake with honey.
I just heard the first (title) track from the new Armored Saint and I cannot believe it's always that good. ALWAYS. I often wonder: If I had been immersed in this and some other more positive metal, would I have done things differently because there is no doubt that music is an influence. When John Bush sings it's always done correctly. Like he's ironed out the kinks.
AKA SW wants to meet with us about God-knows-what in about 30 min. Just hit the ground running with that stress. It's always there for her. I promised myself to be the opposite of that and I'll keep it going.
140pm
Pike time. I don't think I'll need more than one, which is reaffirming. I don't need to be jacked up right now. I realized yesterday I had weak coffee from the hotel in the morning before the ride and loose tea after I got home. It's probably why I slept as well as I did (it was nice to be asleep before 1130pm). I'll shoot for that again tonight.
Drafting emails. Ugh.
Today is a staff appreciation event at 430-530. I've already left my jacket on the event's floor. I'm hanging out for a short bit -- there may be a raffle for PTO -- and bolting soon after.
That's all I think I need today. Coffee's still a bit too hot but it should do the trick.
300-330pm
Somewhere along the line I just needed another hit. I had a half a large cup of LightNote. I could feel that it was actual addiction forcing me to the coffee room and not actual fatigue. We'll see if CaffeinateDad happens tonight.
Thank you for reading.
Awake with honey.
I just heard the first (title) track from the new Armored Saint and I cannot believe it's always that good. ALWAYS. I often wonder: If I had been immersed in this and some other more positive metal, would I have done things differently because there is no doubt that music is an influence. When John Bush sings it's always done correctly. Like he's ironed out the kinks.
AKA SW wants to meet with us about God-knows-what in about 30 min. Just hit the ground running with that stress. It's always there for her. I promised myself to be the opposite of that and I'll keep it going.
140pm
Pike time. I don't think I'll need more than one, which is reaffirming. I don't need to be jacked up right now. I realized yesterday I had weak coffee from the hotel in the morning before the ride and loose tea after I got home. It's probably why I slept as well as I did (it was nice to be asleep before 1130pm). I'll shoot for that again tonight.
Drafting emails. Ugh.
Today is a staff appreciation event at 430-530. I've already left my jacket on the event's floor. I'm hanging out for a short bit -- there may be a raffle for PTO -- and bolting soon after.
That's all I think I need today. Coffee's still a bit too hot but it should do the trick.
300-330pm
Somewhere along the line I just needed another hit. I had a half a large cup of LightNote. I could feel that it was actual addiction forcing me to the coffee room and not actual fatigue. We'll see if CaffeinateDad happens tonight.
Thank you for reading.
Friday, April 17, 2015
Grapefruitastic
1023am
My post-grapefruit Awake is making its way in to my belly.
I'm a little bummed today, b/w the dreary weather and leaving my girls for the weekend. I'll get over it once I'm on the bus, but that's just how I am now. Had my citrus bright and early to help boost the mood (supposedly it helps) and get my C.
Let's just trudge on through the day. Will try to get over to PF during lunch, though, just to crank out some curls.
1051am
Just burnt my tongue on a Pike. 10 minutes is not enough cooling time.
Noon
Not exactly certain at what time I finished my Pike but it got me through my meeting with AKA SW. It's actually not so bad when we have work to focus on and not when she just wants to remind everyone that she's in charge and "in control." Emails to send now and whatnot.
210pm
I have my Pike and letting it cool off though I have had a couple of sips. I reckon I don't need to drink it all b/c I've got a bus ride that will help me doze. I've got some more assignments to disseminate and I'm hoping to organize myself a bit by day's end. I keep getting interrupted with things with which I had no involvement.
My post-grapefruit Awake is making its way in to my belly.
I'm a little bummed today, b/w the dreary weather and leaving my girls for the weekend. I'll get over it once I'm on the bus, but that's just how I am now. Had my citrus bright and early to help boost the mood (supposedly it helps) and get my C.
Let's just trudge on through the day. Will try to get over to PF during lunch, though, just to crank out some curls.
1051am
Just burnt my tongue on a Pike. 10 minutes is not enough cooling time.
Noon
Not exactly certain at what time I finished my Pike but it got me through my meeting with AKA SW. It's actually not so bad when we have work to focus on and not when she just wants to remind everyone that she's in charge and "in control." Emails to send now and whatnot.
210pm
I have my Pike and letting it cool off though I have had a couple of sips. I reckon I don't need to drink it all b/c I've got a bus ride that will help me doze. I've got some more assignments to disseminate and I'm hoping to organize myself a bit by day's end. I keep getting interrupted with things with which I had no involvement.
Thursday, April 16, 2015
Just another Thurs in a green shirt
1002am
Just finished my Awake.
Stayed alert on the train via su doku this morning. I cannot say whether it's directly responsible for enabling my problem-solving abilities. It could be that things are a little calmer, or that I have reconciled and am being proactive. Maybe all that plus the weather is better. All possibilities.
The walk this morning (normal route) had me pass through the Etsy "Etspo" -- har har har -- and the first person I saw was an old co-worker. I take that as a sign, too. Things will continue to happen if I gently push.
I'm wearing my greenshirt and tie combo b/c I'm meeting with AKA SW and our director about some awards and surveys. I'll bring my cup downstairs with me since we'll be going there anyway. I'll have a really stimulating conversation with AKA SW about coffee.
1030am
Found out my 18th floor meeting was pushed to the afternoon and I wanted my Pike fix immediately. On my way I realized I wanted some cookies or something to go with the coffee and to my absolute delight half a box of DD was waiting for me, along with what appeared to be sliced homemade poundcake. I had some cake, cut a slice of a choco-frosted donut and took a white-cream filled donut up with me. I actually dunked my donut. This will get me through the remainder of the morning and keep my mood up.
338pm
I had a Green Tips tea earlier. I just finished a Pike that I'd been nursing for about an hour. I will have more work to do and meetings to attend. Work's kind of a drag, now. Though it was fun to watch AKA SW get ready to explode.
That's all. Thank you for reading.
Just finished my Awake.
Stayed alert on the train via su doku this morning. I cannot say whether it's directly responsible for enabling my problem-solving abilities. It could be that things are a little calmer, or that I have reconciled and am being proactive. Maybe all that plus the weather is better. All possibilities.
The walk this morning (normal route) had me pass through the Etsy "Etspo" -- har har har -- and the first person I saw was an old co-worker. I take that as a sign, too. Things will continue to happen if I gently push.
I'm wearing my greenshirt and tie combo b/c I'm meeting with AKA SW and our director about some awards and surveys. I'll bring my cup downstairs with me since we'll be going there anyway. I'll have a really stimulating conversation with AKA SW about coffee.
1030am
Found out my 18th floor meeting was pushed to the afternoon and I wanted my Pike fix immediately. On my way I realized I wanted some cookies or something to go with the coffee and to my absolute delight half a box of DD was waiting for me, along with what appeared to be sliced homemade poundcake. I had some cake, cut a slice of a choco-frosted donut and took a white-cream filled donut up with me. I actually dunked my donut. This will get me through the remainder of the morning and keep my mood up.
338pm
I had a Green Tips tea earlier. I just finished a Pike that I'd been nursing for about an hour. I will have more work to do and meetings to attend. Work's kind of a drag, now. Though it was fun to watch AKA SW get ready to explode.
That's all. Thank you for reading.
Wednesday, April 15, 2015
and it begins...but I'm trying to stay positive
953am
As I take my first Awake sip, rather than dwell, I'll be thankful for a morning that was actually quite pleasant.
Miri awoke right after 7am and I took her out of the crib. She was pacified when I gave her the plastic orange slice on the floor (which she calls "peach") and we stood and hugged for a minute or so and then she let out little toots and we both laughed at each one.
She came down and hung out with me during breakfast (a 21-month-old who eats grapefruit) and was even amiable when I put her in the crib (so long as I played the Elmo CD).
Now I'm transported back to reality though, and AKA SW is in decent spirits, so I reckon that's good. I've got some tidying to do and such. Needed a coffee-free night so I should be in good form today.
1042am
I've got my Pike so that it cools down just enough in the next 10 min so that my conference call won't be so daunting. I've got a bit of a headache in my eyes but it's likely from erratic sleep. I can plow through this.
1135am
Phone call over. Coffee has been imbibed. I'm actually feeling the effects of the java. Or is it the freedom of the call's end?
250pm
Did my 60 curls of 35lb (each) and I think the blood rush took effect. Went down to 18 with GW to get ice (not exactly iced) coffee and chill out for a bit. He noticed that my 'tude is far more positive now than it was 8 days ago and we talked about the importance of networking and all that. AKA SW's absence also contributed to my mellowed demeanor. I am making it less about her, though, and more about enhancing my contacts and getting where I'd like to get. I saw a quote the other day that spoke to me: "Frustrated employees stay."
I don't want to be that guy anymore.
I think that might do it for me and caffeine for the day. I've got some su dokus I can do on the train but I'll actually try to nap. I have not missed the 555 at all but I only have to take it today and tomorrow this week.
Thank you for reading!
As I take my first Awake sip, rather than dwell, I'll be thankful for a morning that was actually quite pleasant.
Miri awoke right after 7am and I took her out of the crib. She was pacified when I gave her the plastic orange slice on the floor (which she calls "peach") and we stood and hugged for a minute or so and then she let out little toots and we both laughed at each one.
She came down and hung out with me during breakfast (a 21-month-old who eats grapefruit) and was even amiable when I put her in the crib (so long as I played the Elmo CD).
Now I'm transported back to reality though, and AKA SW is in decent spirits, so I reckon that's good. I've got some tidying to do and such. Needed a coffee-free night so I should be in good form today.
1042am
I've got my Pike so that it cools down just enough in the next 10 min so that my conference call won't be so daunting. I've got a bit of a headache in my eyes but it's likely from erratic sleep. I can plow through this.
1135am
Phone call over. Coffee has been imbibed. I'm actually feeling the effects of the java. Or is it the freedom of the call's end?
250pm
Did my 60 curls of 35lb (each) and I think the blood rush took effect. Went down to 18 with GW to get ice (not exactly iced) coffee and chill out for a bit. He noticed that my 'tude is far more positive now than it was 8 days ago and we talked about the importance of networking and all that. AKA SW's absence also contributed to my mellowed demeanor. I am making it less about her, though, and more about enhancing my contacts and getting where I'd like to get. I saw a quote the other day that spoke to me: "Frustrated employees stay."
I don't want to be that guy anymore.
I think that might do it for me and caffeine for the day. I've got some su dokus I can do on the train but I'll actually try to nap. I have not missed the 555 at all but I only have to take it today and tomorrow this week.
Thank you for reading!
Tuesday, April 14, 2015
Up On The Downside
10am
In a pretty good mood b/c I know no one will stress me out today. This is still in my head from my walk. Will hit the gym pretty early so I can do a webinar later.
I just downed an Awake tea post-blood orange so I should have my nutrients and caffeine in check for a bit. I'll see if I can hit PF sans Pike Roast.
There's not a lot to report yet but I will update my ladders.com profile tonight and maybe draft some letters today. I may reach out to the mging editor of SN pubs.
115
At the powerpoint seminar, I had a cup of some blend. My palate is not sophisticated enough to know which it was, but it was post-gym. Not sure if it had any effect.
330
I have Pike in a mug and my stomach has basically deemed itself unable to ingest any more coffee. Even with cream, it's just not making the cut. I'm tired but not so much so that I need it that badly.
Really wish AKA SW never returns b/c I'm actually getting work done but I know tomorrow will not be as easygoing. I have a feeling I'll crash by 11 tonight. I have to get some resume/after-work work done but that's all. Miri will go down by 830. I'll wrap everything up by 10 and get ready to lay my head down.
Thank you for reading this.
In a pretty good mood b/c I know no one will stress me out today. This is still in my head from my walk. Will hit the gym pretty early so I can do a webinar later.
I just downed an Awake tea post-blood orange so I should have my nutrients and caffeine in check for a bit. I'll see if I can hit PF sans Pike Roast.
There's not a lot to report yet but I will update my ladders.com profile tonight and maybe draft some letters today. I may reach out to the mging editor of SN pubs.
115
At the powerpoint seminar, I had a cup of some blend. My palate is not sophisticated enough to know which it was, but it was post-gym. Not sure if it had any effect.
330
I have Pike in a mug and my stomach has basically deemed itself unable to ingest any more coffee. Even with cream, it's just not making the cut. I'm tired but not so much so that I need it that badly.
Really wish AKA SW never returns b/c I'm actually getting work done but I know tomorrow will not be as easygoing. I have a feeling I'll crash by 11 tonight. I have to get some resume/after-work work done but that's all. Miri will go down by 830. I'll wrap everything up by 10 and get ready to lay my head down.
Thank you for reading this.
Monday, April 13, 2015
So Much Easier When....
When AKA SW is out, things are so much more tranquil.
I have had an Awake with honey and now am on to a 'Bucks Breakfast Blend. (1030) I notice that the bubbles are different from a dispenser as opposed to the Pike coffee maker on the 18th floor. Also, it's not nearly as hot from the dispenser and the bubbles almost make it look carbonated.
There's still a honey-tinged aftertaste in my mouth that is inhibiting my enjoyment.
This will be another week of setups and networking.
Thank you for reading. See you in the afternoon.
I had another half-cup of the Breakfast blend at around noon. Not a great brew. It's either b/c it comes out almost-hot or it's been sitting there too long or the dispensary itself. Either way it's doing a disservice to the brand.
At 2 I went down and got a Pike (after swiping a RB & Bacon ciabatta sandwich). That has the handle you press down and even though it bubbles up also (almost like a beer) the taste is far superior and is much darker.
We were catered with high-quality cookies today so I'm using it to "wash it down" -- snoogans.
I have a couple of cool co-workers who are now colleagues, I reckon. If we didn't have a common mgr, work would be tolerable and borderline-exciting.
I have had an Awake with honey and now am on to a 'Bucks Breakfast Blend. (1030) I notice that the bubbles are different from a dispenser as opposed to the Pike coffee maker on the 18th floor. Also, it's not nearly as hot from the dispenser and the bubbles almost make it look carbonated.
There's still a honey-tinged aftertaste in my mouth that is inhibiting my enjoyment.
This will be another week of setups and networking.
Thank you for reading. See you in the afternoon.
I had another half-cup of the Breakfast blend at around noon. Not a great brew. It's either b/c it comes out almost-hot or it's been sitting there too long or the dispensary itself. Either way it's doing a disservice to the brand.
At 2 I went down and got a Pike (after swiping a RB & Bacon ciabatta sandwich). That has the handle you press down and even though it bubbles up also (almost like a beer) the taste is far superior and is much darker.
We were catered with high-quality cookies today so I'm using it to "wash it down" -- snoogans.
I have a couple of cool co-workers who are now colleagues, I reckon. If we didn't have a common mgr, work would be tolerable and borderline-exciting.
Friday, April 10, 2015
Awake
It's easier for me to get things done with certain co-workers out of the office. That's just the way things are. I'm more motivated when I'm not micromanaged and all that stress isn't projected toward me.
I am drinking Awake and delving in to a grapefruit. I had a cup of Hazlenut Creme at home this morning.
This week had a lot of ups and downs. I'll likely remember Monday night for a long time. It was Liz's second nightshift and I had not had a great day at work. I'd returned from a lunch workout. Stephnie Weir Look-A-Like Manager ("AKA SW" from here on out) made it clear that I am not her golden boy, nor am I an individual, and that a go-getter who wants to take ownership of his role is not encouraged.
I am a cog in a very big, old wheel.
How I react to this is up to me.
I will admit it was a bit of a pity party at first. I had the bike with me and went straight to RVC to crank out benchpresses since i knew i couldn't later this week. I did my 200-lbs for about 26 reps. I just couldn't do the rest at that weight. I finished the next 6 at 180. After Miri went to sleep I made a LaVazza espresso (possibly double espresso) in my Bodum french press and drafted a letter and updated my resume to a nicely-styled format.
I then couldn't sleep to save my life. I paced a lot. I cleaned out my work bags and got rid of some crap. I watched tv. I stopped watching tv. I thought about Liz at work. I did more thinking. I went on to linkedin and did some networking and scoured the job posts. I finally knocked out around/after 4.
I woke up on time and was getting ready for my day when Liz walked in. I probably shouldn't have been so blunt with her but she needed to know that it wasn't about my disillusionment with the job, it was that it could be in jeopardy.
I was too exhausted to be spiteful by the time I got in to work Tuesday. I couldn't believe I didn't sleep on the train, though. Even "Us and Them" couldn't trigger it. Anyway, it wound up not being so bad and I promised myself that the pity party was over. I resolved that I'd make the next day work to my advantage. A better night's sleep was due, too. I made my way to the coffee dispensers often enough. I listened to a lot of Ha Ha Tonka's Lessons Mon and Tues. The album is great. Especially the first 3 tracks. The topics are tough and morbid but the music and voices are very uplifting. It's a fine balance but I started to get a little too sad and it made me pine for the "Inside Llewyn Davis" songs. (which I'm listening to right now).
I wore a suit weds. We had a big mkting meeting where we're all on camera and also I wanted to show that I take things seriously. Most importantly I had to project success and positivity. So I did. Smiles. Proactivity. Efficiency. It all happened. I had to convince myself I had a job interview during lunch and thought of it as an acting scene. Had to leave the office for the whole hour with briefcase in hand. I had a conversation with a contact about how to handle my predicament outside Planet Fitness. Then I went in to the gym, put my coat and bag in the locker and hit the floor. Amid cranking out some biceps curls, this jacked dude asked if he could take my picture b/c it would inspire him and his buddies in a chat group. I said sure. They were impressed. It was funny.
I was also contacting old co-workers for some help in the way of leads. They responded and seemed positive. I'll have to stay on them a bit, but it was a comfort nonetheless. I felt so good about one lead though that I wrote 90% of my cover letter on the train ride home.
Thurs: Funny little note. On the walk toward the 34th St exit in Penn, I passed the Starbucks and oddly, samples were available. I got the last Caramel Flan sample and the barista gave me a Kind bar. I was groggy and it perked me up a bit I even wrote to the corp office about the positive experience.
I used the same "interview" mentality when I donated blood at night. I very much want to work at South Nassau CH so that I can do good work (which I believe in) closer to home. The external affairs dept doesn't get many openings but when they do I wanted the HR Manager to remember me. I have met with her several times at the Blood Drives and figured she needed an 830 boost so I walked in with a Dunkaccino for her. She was grateful. She is a nice lady who works a long, lonely day on the day of the drives. She deserves acknowledgment. All people do. I didn't mention my desire for working there once. I wanted to, of course, but that's for another time (and I'd spoken with her about it in Jan). Projecting politeness and dressing well was more important. Doing a mitzvah, also, was more important. I was also feeling good that some of this stressed out blood was exiting my system. AKA SW would not be around for a few business days and my head would clear out. Perhaps I was correct. Upon my return home, my old Herald editor e-introduced me to someone at Galvanized whom I'd really like to get to know. I'd asked him to do that Monday PM/Tues AM amid my pacing.
The grapefruit is long gone. I have finished my tea. I'm listening to "Fare Thee Well" for the 3rd or 4th time. I checked out the soundtrack from the lib last night.
I have made some progress with my personal stuff. Dress well. Take care of the people around you. Get as much work done as possible without knocking yourself out. If you're miserable, purge it at the gym.
Yesterday I treated our Marketing Assistant (who basically trained me) to a nice lunch. This morning I hand-delivered my sister's birthday card to her with a small gift on my way to work and in an hour I'm taking one of our PR writers for a caffeinated beverage downstairs. Maybe I'll get a Caramel Flan.
130 - Had a Grande Caramel Flan Latte whilst my writer had a tea. Nice to speak with a colleague about something other than work. I threw some extra cinnamon on it b/c it always helps. The drink itself is certainly tasty and sweet. It's a meal unto itself.
330 - Sipped away at a LightNote Blend from office. I haven't eaten all that much today but I'm actually not that hungry probably thanks to the Flan.
Thank you for reading this.
I am drinking Awake and delving in to a grapefruit. I had a cup of Hazlenut Creme at home this morning.
This week had a lot of ups and downs. I'll likely remember Monday night for a long time. It was Liz's second nightshift and I had not had a great day at work. I'd returned from a lunch workout. Stephnie Weir Look-A-Like Manager ("AKA SW" from here on out) made it clear that I am not her golden boy, nor am I an individual, and that a go-getter who wants to take ownership of his role is not encouraged.
I am a cog in a very big, old wheel.
How I react to this is up to me.
I will admit it was a bit of a pity party at first. I had the bike with me and went straight to RVC to crank out benchpresses since i knew i couldn't later this week. I did my 200-lbs for about 26 reps. I just couldn't do the rest at that weight. I finished the next 6 at 180. After Miri went to sleep I made a LaVazza espresso (possibly double espresso) in my Bodum french press and drafted a letter and updated my resume to a nicely-styled format.
I then couldn't sleep to save my life. I paced a lot. I cleaned out my work bags and got rid of some crap. I watched tv. I stopped watching tv. I thought about Liz at work. I did more thinking. I went on to linkedin and did some networking and scoured the job posts. I finally knocked out around/after 4.
I woke up on time and was getting ready for my day when Liz walked in. I probably shouldn't have been so blunt with her but she needed to know that it wasn't about my disillusionment with the job, it was that it could be in jeopardy.
I was too exhausted to be spiteful by the time I got in to work Tuesday. I couldn't believe I didn't sleep on the train, though. Even "Us and Them" couldn't trigger it. Anyway, it wound up not being so bad and I promised myself that the pity party was over. I resolved that I'd make the next day work to my advantage. A better night's sleep was due, too. I made my way to the coffee dispensers often enough. I listened to a lot of Ha Ha Tonka's Lessons Mon and Tues. The album is great. Especially the first 3 tracks. The topics are tough and morbid but the music and voices are very uplifting. It's a fine balance but I started to get a little too sad and it made me pine for the "Inside Llewyn Davis" songs. (which I'm listening to right now).
I wore a suit weds. We had a big mkting meeting where we're all on camera and also I wanted to show that I take things seriously. Most importantly I had to project success and positivity. So I did. Smiles. Proactivity. Efficiency. It all happened. I had to convince myself I had a job interview during lunch and thought of it as an acting scene. Had to leave the office for the whole hour with briefcase in hand. I had a conversation with a contact about how to handle my predicament outside Planet Fitness. Then I went in to the gym, put my coat and bag in the locker and hit the floor. Amid cranking out some biceps curls, this jacked dude asked if he could take my picture b/c it would inspire him and his buddies in a chat group. I said sure. They were impressed. It was funny.
I was also contacting old co-workers for some help in the way of leads. They responded and seemed positive. I'll have to stay on them a bit, but it was a comfort nonetheless. I felt so good about one lead though that I wrote 90% of my cover letter on the train ride home.
Thurs: Funny little note. On the walk toward the 34th St exit in Penn, I passed the Starbucks and oddly, samples were available. I got the last Caramel Flan sample and the barista gave me a Kind bar. I was groggy and it perked me up a bit I even wrote to the corp office about the positive experience.
I used the same "interview" mentality when I donated blood at night. I very much want to work at South Nassau CH so that I can do good work (which I believe in) closer to home. The external affairs dept doesn't get many openings but when they do I wanted the HR Manager to remember me. I have met with her several times at the Blood Drives and figured she needed an 830 boost so I walked in with a Dunkaccino for her. She was grateful. She is a nice lady who works a long, lonely day on the day of the drives. She deserves acknowledgment. All people do. I didn't mention my desire for working there once. I wanted to, of course, but that's for another time (and I'd spoken with her about it in Jan). Projecting politeness and dressing well was more important. Doing a mitzvah, also, was more important. I was also feeling good that some of this stressed out blood was exiting my system. AKA SW would not be around for a few business days and my head would clear out. Perhaps I was correct. Upon my return home, my old Herald editor e-introduced me to someone at Galvanized whom I'd really like to get to know. I'd asked him to do that Monday PM/Tues AM amid my pacing.
The grapefruit is long gone. I have finished my tea. I'm listening to "Fare Thee Well" for the 3rd or 4th time. I checked out the soundtrack from the lib last night.
I have made some progress with my personal stuff. Dress well. Take care of the people around you. Get as much work done as possible without knocking yourself out. If you're miserable, purge it at the gym.
Yesterday I treated our Marketing Assistant (who basically trained me) to a nice lunch. This morning I hand-delivered my sister's birthday card to her with a small gift on my way to work and in an hour I'm taking one of our PR writers for a caffeinated beverage downstairs. Maybe I'll get a Caramel Flan.
130 - Had a Grande Caramel Flan Latte whilst my writer had a tea. Nice to speak with a colleague about something other than work. I threw some extra cinnamon on it b/c it always helps. The drink itself is certainly tasty and sweet. It's a meal unto itself.
330 - Sipped away at a LightNote Blend from office. I haven't eaten all that much today but I'm actually not that hungry probably thanks to the Flan.
Thank you for reading this.
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