Finished my Awake, which I brewed in the presence of AKASW. I was a little apprehensive about my "review" -- it doesn't seem to be a formal one but w/e. I'm shaved, wearing a tie and feeling pretty good though there's a bit of a headache coming on I may need some Pike real quick. I got a surprising compliment from a co-worker about a nomination I slapped together. I always feel like I can do better but I do not have ample time. Of course this all could have been avoided if they'd committed to nominating this person a month ago when he was the sole contender.
Regardless, I will focus on being positive, pleasant and humorless. AKASW only really laughs as a by-product of stress or when work stuff is "funny." May as well just tell the truth and get it over with.
1050am/Noon
Review has come and gone. It was not the formal one. I downed the 2nd half of my coffee upon my return. Had I not had my "washout" night some weeks back, this would've been a nightmare but I just did exactly as I said I would. I did point out that there were some things I set out to do that I did but still need more time for, and I think I may have actually been convincing. Overall, there's no real rapport there, and no warmth whatsoever. AKASW tries to present that when I'm asked before/after meetings about home life and bicycling but it's all a time-passing act. Nice gesture, I suppose, but I'm not dealing with Susan anymore. I've reconciled that and now it's a fact to which I am numb. It's obvious that if my top priority is drafting an email for someone else to send is what pays the bills, then fine, but it's also a major affirmation of my after hours activities.
315pm
Needed a half-cup of Light Note Blend. I went to the other side of the floor to get it b/c I know it's fresher. I am a little melancholy. Not sure why. This bittersweet song came to mind. I realized I haven't heard it in some time. Ha Ha Tonka's "The Past Has Arms" will be the companion track. I think I'm a little down because I bought Chickie some books. It's like a beautiful sadness.
I keep eating these good cookies b/c they are available. I will hit the gym for lunch tomorrow and Monday. It will feel good. I will apply to a dream job by morning, too. My letter is already drafted.
This should be it for the java.
Thank you for reading.
1050am/Noon
Review has come and gone. It was not the formal one. I downed the 2nd half of my coffee upon my return. Had I not had my "washout" night some weeks back, this would've been a nightmare but I just did exactly as I said I would. I did point out that there were some things I set out to do that I did but still need more time for, and I think I may have actually been convincing. Overall, there's no real rapport there, and no warmth whatsoever. AKASW tries to present that when I'm asked before/after meetings about home life and bicycling but it's all a time-passing act. Nice gesture, I suppose, but I'm not dealing with Susan anymore. I've reconciled that and now it's a fact to which I am numb. It's obvious that if my top priority is drafting an email for someone else to send is what pays the bills, then fine, but it's also a major affirmation of my after hours activities.
315pm
Needed a half-cup of Light Note Blend. I went to the other side of the floor to get it b/c I know it's fresher. I am a little melancholy. Not sure why. This bittersweet song came to mind. I realized I haven't heard it in some time. Ha Ha Tonka's "The Past Has Arms" will be the companion track. I think I'm a little down because I bought Chickie some books. It's like a beautiful sadness.
I keep eating these good cookies b/c they are available. I will hit the gym for lunch tomorrow and Monday. It will feel good. I will apply to a dream job by morning, too. My letter is already drafted.
This should be it for the java.
Thank you for reading.
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