Did not take the bike today on account of downpours. I could've made it to the office dry but the return would've been a pain.
I'm not as gung-ho as I'd been.
Regardless, I'm on coffee #4 today. 2nd of 2 Vanilla Hazlenuts (french press) that I bought at the Coffee Nut in Long Beach.
Smells great. It's nice to have FP again after a long hiatus. It always starts out nice and tasty and then due to air exposure it loses its flavor a little quicker than I'd like. That's why I only did a quarter pound.
If you blindfolded me and asked me to tell you the flavor, I'm not sure I could answer correctly.
However, I'm listening to Kenny Burrell's "Mellow Tone" and it's complementing my mood and the coffee. I think it's just him and a bassist. All coffeehouses should have songs like this.
I like being here. I like having a 'here.' I can do the work. It's not rocket science. Was complimented on my appearance today -- yellow with brown vest. Apparently a button down that is actually buttoned down looks good.
Ok. Cool. Hoping to hit the gym pretty hard tonight. I might lay off the squats in the interest of time.
Thank you for reading.
Wednesday, October 28, 2015
Friday, October 2, 2015
What's keeping me awake?
455pm
I have lost track of all the caffeine I've ingested today. On Weds I covered the EA event and had a fair amt of coffee. Yesterday I had some in the morning and afternoon and then a 6 Hour Power around 830.
Today I've had at least 4 cups since 10am and am now nursing a tea, since I can tell my stomach cannot handle the acidity any longer.
I've done so much today and I simultaneously feel like I've barely scratched the surface.
I don't exactly know how I'm still awake but I am looking forward to sleeping tonite as soon as Chickie goes down.
Thank you for reading.
I have lost track of all the caffeine I've ingested today. On Weds I covered the EA event and had a fair amt of coffee. Yesterday I had some in the morning and afternoon and then a 6 Hour Power around 830.
Today I've had at least 4 cups since 10am and am now nursing a tea, since I can tell my stomach cannot handle the acidity any longer.
I've done so much today and I simultaneously feel like I've barely scratched the surface.
I don't exactly know how I'm still awake but I am looking forward to sleeping tonite as soon as Chickie goes down.
Thank you for reading.
Tuesday, September 22, 2015
Time Travelling
930am
I am having Lipton tea at my old desk, back at ALM. I am not technically freelancing, but temping, and we'll call it a consultancy.
I can only have this one cup of caffeinated tea today, as tomorrow is the fasting holiday. It was weird enough being here on the 11th, but to be here today and knowing it'll happen again for at least a couple of months (or whenever I get a new job) is so unusual. My dear Ashlee is gone and that part stings because although I like a lot of the people here, aside from George I do not have the same rapport.
My heart races on and off -- like it's running sprints inside my ribcage. The more I think about how fast the last 9 months have gone it picks up the pace. The law firm feels like a dream/nightmare and the last two months of homebound work is like a haze. Everything and nothing changed and in the end I wound up right where I started. I have not had that much time with Chickie before and depending on what side of the coin you favor, it shouldn't happen again.
But Rich and Susan are here and Josh and Sam have been more than fair. I briefly renegotiated my rate and now it's certainly better.
It's like being in a slightly parallel universe. It's familiar and nearly identical, but some different people and arrangements. In some ways my professional heart was here all along -- it's a weird thing to admit. It makes a lot of sense, though. I feel very fortunate to be here and earning and I just want to do the job and go home. I'm waiting for some more direction.
Around noon I wanted to drink really badly. My heart was pounding and I would have dove headfirst in to a whiskey casket. I hated admitting that to George but I had to tell someone. I do not think booze would have quelled me but maybe. Part of me wants to cry a bit. Did I attract this (for better or worse)? Is it the end result of staying on the radar all this time? Or do they want someone they can trust and kick around?
I had lunch with Rich at the Vietnamese shop and we discussed what's going on and how that would apply to the bicycle show I always wanted to write. Now that we have this in-person second-chance I am going to do my best to crank it out.
There were a lot of good memories and some rough ones at this desk. It's more the feeling that I'm worried about. I do not want to fall back in to bad old habits. Now that the job is different, there will be different hurdles. I wanted the NY Mag thing to happen but it's not to be right now.
Last week started and I thought I'd be doing that web site. Two days later I was bombing on a press release. A day later I got a call about coming back in. Then I did the Hotel Editorial test (results pending). Now I'm here. What was old shall become new again.
We'll have to see what to do about the bike.
Thank you for reading this.
I am having Lipton tea at my old desk, back at ALM. I am not technically freelancing, but temping, and we'll call it a consultancy.
I can only have this one cup of caffeinated tea today, as tomorrow is the fasting holiday. It was weird enough being here on the 11th, but to be here today and knowing it'll happen again for at least a couple of months (or whenever I get a new job) is so unusual. My dear Ashlee is gone and that part stings because although I like a lot of the people here, aside from George I do not have the same rapport.
My heart races on and off -- like it's running sprints inside my ribcage. The more I think about how fast the last 9 months have gone it picks up the pace. The law firm feels like a dream/nightmare and the last two months of homebound work is like a haze. Everything and nothing changed and in the end I wound up right where I started. I have not had that much time with Chickie before and depending on what side of the coin you favor, it shouldn't happen again.
But Rich and Susan are here and Josh and Sam have been more than fair. I briefly renegotiated my rate and now it's certainly better.
It's like being in a slightly parallel universe. It's familiar and nearly identical, but some different people and arrangements. In some ways my professional heart was here all along -- it's a weird thing to admit. It makes a lot of sense, though. I feel very fortunate to be here and earning and I just want to do the job and go home. I'm waiting for some more direction.
Around noon I wanted to drink really badly. My heart was pounding and I would have dove headfirst in to a whiskey casket. I hated admitting that to George but I had to tell someone. I do not think booze would have quelled me but maybe. Part of me wants to cry a bit. Did I attract this (for better or worse)? Is it the end result of staying on the radar all this time? Or do they want someone they can trust and kick around?
I had lunch with Rich at the Vietnamese shop and we discussed what's going on and how that would apply to the bicycle show I always wanted to write. Now that we have this in-person second-chance I am going to do my best to crank it out.
There were a lot of good memories and some rough ones at this desk. It's more the feeling that I'm worried about. I do not want to fall back in to bad old habits. Now that the job is different, there will be different hurdles. I wanted the NY Mag thing to happen but it's not to be right now.
Last week started and I thought I'd be doing that web site. Two days later I was bombing on a press release. A day later I got a call about coming back in. Then I did the Hotel Editorial test (results pending). Now I'm here. What was old shall become new again.
We'll have to see what to do about the bike.
Thank you for reading this.
Monday, July 13, 2015
Zen, the two of us need look no more...
1030am
I'm already amped up. Between this morning's PB coffee and the pending performance review and other professional possibilities, I don't need the hard jolt I normally do. So I waited a bit and had some Zen tea. It's doing the job, I suppose. It's got 3 of 5 caffeine bullets on the label.
AKASW has bereavement later today and all tomorrow and that is unfortunate. It may also impact my perf review. Remains to be seen. I also may meet with someone today with a lead. Thankfully she can come here. Also remains to be seen.
I had a great weekend I should update in CaffeinateDad. Yesterday morning in particular with Miri was great.
1138am
Having a half of a Breakfast Blend with a full raw sugar packet. My review is apparently still on. My Lynbrook co-commuter asked for my resume. Things be happening today.
I'm already amped up. Between this morning's PB coffee and the pending performance review and other professional possibilities, I don't need the hard jolt I normally do. So I waited a bit and had some Zen tea. It's doing the job, I suppose. It's got 3 of 5 caffeine bullets on the label.
AKASW has bereavement later today and all tomorrow and that is unfortunate. It may also impact my perf review. Remains to be seen. I also may meet with someone today with a lead. Thankfully she can come here. Also remains to be seen.
I had a great weekend I should update in CaffeinateDad. Yesterday morning in particular with Miri was great.
1138am
Having a half of a Breakfast Blend with a full raw sugar packet. My review is apparently still on. My Lynbrook co-commuter asked for my resume. Things be happening today.
Friday, July 10, 2015
End of a good week
1000-1035am
Getting through the day should be relatively painless. Having a Breakfast Blend with a sugar. I did not see a bonus reflected in my paycheck. Co-worker got one. However I have not had my review so if it will happen, my guess is that it'd be in the next pay period. 2 weeks from today.
I also just found out that manager had a DITF, which is unfortunate, so Tuesday will be reminiscent of today. While not wanting to seem selfish, I'll be on extra good behavior on Monday for review. One can only guess how easily grief can seep in to seemingly-unrelated things. It also means I only have 2 days with AKASW next week, which means only 2 days in 3 weeks.
The temp is finishing helping me with the small assignment that we procrastinated on and that is off my plate. I have a small writing assignment to do today and maybe it's time to assign some other stuff and some positions worth investigating and that's it.
Physically, I feel fantastic. My palm feels mostly healed and my body is slowly achieving the look I've been aiming for. Now it's either a matter of maintaining or changing it up completely.
1250pm
Nursing half a cup of LightNote. Will have a couple of breaks. I have that paragraph that I've made some progress on but I'm not inspired but will manufacture inspirado. I got some feedback on draft 1 and now it's a matter of updating. I'm listening to Yo Yo Ma's Goat Rodeo Sessions. End of alphabet in my WMP library.
2pm
Had a half an iced coffee and hung out downstairs with 'karaoke co-worker,' who's one of the cool ones. Same boat, just one sea over.
Getting through the day should be relatively painless. Having a Breakfast Blend with a sugar. I did not see a bonus reflected in my paycheck. Co-worker got one. However I have not had my review so if it will happen, my guess is that it'd be in the next pay period. 2 weeks from today.
I also just found out that manager had a DITF, which is unfortunate, so Tuesday will be reminiscent of today. While not wanting to seem selfish, I'll be on extra good behavior on Monday for review. One can only guess how easily grief can seep in to seemingly-unrelated things. It also means I only have 2 days with AKASW next week, which means only 2 days in 3 weeks.
The temp is finishing helping me with the small assignment that we procrastinated on and that is off my plate. I have a small writing assignment to do today and maybe it's time to assign some other stuff and some positions worth investigating and that's it.
Physically, I feel fantastic. My palm feels mostly healed and my body is slowly achieving the look I've been aiming for. Now it's either a matter of maintaining or changing it up completely.
1250pm
Nursing half a cup of LightNote. Will have a couple of breaks. I have that paragraph that I've made some progress on but I'm not inspired but will manufacture inspirado. I got some feedback on draft 1 and now it's a matter of updating. I'm listening to Yo Yo Ma's Goat Rodeo Sessions. End of alphabet in my WMP library.
2pm
Had a half an iced coffee and hung out downstairs with 'karaoke co-worker,' who's one of the cool ones. Same boat, just one sea over.
Thursday, July 9, 2015
Battling ADT, one coffee at a time
1045am
I went downstairs with co-worker editor today to catch up and make it not totally about work or bitching. My House Blend was nice and piping. We did a little and then moved on to home-life topics. I have been reading On Managing Yourself and the chapter on ADT is resonating. Some of it for me directly but largely more b/c of my own mgr.
Being isolated certainly does create cynicism.
250pm
Upon return from the gym, I'm having skim milk and then LightNote Blend to round it out (about half a cup). I do not need to be "on" for the rest of the day. Last night's chest workout and today's abs/tris/shoulders workout have done me in. I will try for a run tomorrow morning. I did not receive one email in my extended lunch at PF. I opened the GNC Amplified Whey today and it's pretty tasty. The powders are always better with milk. I should have added some. Next time.
I want to add my workout details from today:
Shoulders:
Clean overhead press - 10 reps each / 60lb/ 55lb / 50lb
Rope pulldown (behind the neck) - 15 reps of 100lb (on my knees)
Pull up from floor - 15 reps each at 15lbs
Front lift (sort of like kettlebells) - 15 reps each of 12.5lbs
Abs:
Bicycle: 300 total reps
Leg Lifts: 40 reps x 3
Standing twist / reverse chop: 25lbs - 3 sets of 10
Side lifts - 25 reps x 2 (each side)
Tris:
Laying down on bench / 35lbs / 15 reps x 2
Rope Handle press down 15 reps
Single Handle press down 15 reps each arm
Playlist:
Wolf: Ravenous
Destruction: Riot Squad
Maylene & Sons of Disaster: Settling Scores By Burning Bridges
Armored Saint: In An Instant
Gamma Ray: Razorblade Sigh
Turbo: Smash the Wall
Ex Libris: The Day of Burning
Helloween: Living on the Edge
Overkill: Struck Down
Helloween: Escalation 666 (only for the final tris press down)
I went downstairs with co-worker editor today to catch up and make it not totally about work or bitching. My House Blend was nice and piping. We did a little and then moved on to home-life topics. I have been reading On Managing Yourself and the chapter on ADT is resonating. Some of it for me directly but largely more b/c of my own mgr.
Being isolated certainly does create cynicism.
250pm
Upon return from the gym, I'm having skim milk and then LightNote Blend to round it out (about half a cup). I do not need to be "on" for the rest of the day. Last night's chest workout and today's abs/tris/shoulders workout have done me in. I will try for a run tomorrow morning. I did not receive one email in my extended lunch at PF. I opened the GNC Amplified Whey today and it's pretty tasty. The powders are always better with milk. I should have added some. Next time.
I want to add my workout details from today:
Shoulders:
Clean overhead press - 10 reps each / 60lb/ 55lb / 50lb
Rope pulldown (behind the neck) - 15 reps of 100lb (on my knees)
Pull up from floor - 15 reps each at 15lbs
Front lift (sort of like kettlebells) - 15 reps each of 12.5lbs
Abs:
Bicycle: 300 total reps
Leg Lifts: 40 reps x 3
Standing twist / reverse chop: 25lbs - 3 sets of 10
Side lifts - 25 reps x 2 (each side)
Tris:
Laying down on bench / 35lbs / 15 reps x 2
Rope Handle press down 15 reps
Single Handle press down 15 reps each arm
Playlist:
Wolf: Ravenous
Destruction: Riot Squad
Maylene & Sons of Disaster: Settling Scores By Burning Bridges
Armored Saint: In An Instant
Gamma Ray: Razorblade Sigh
Turbo: Smash the Wall
Ex Libris: The Day of Burning
Helloween: Living on the Edge
Overkill: Struck Down
Helloween: Escalation 666 (only for the final tris press down)
Wednesday, July 8, 2015
Tidy the tediousness
1015am
Am letting the Breakfast Blend cool off. I've had some chocolate nuts and some samoa cookies already. Ran for 22 minutes this morning just to accomplish something. I could've hit the gym but between my inability to wake up in time and desire to have a healed palm, I'm passing today. Maybe tomorrow or mid-day Thurs or Fri.
I'm thrilled to not be wearing long-sleeve button-downs this week.
By 1030 it has reached optimal drinking temperature. I'm just preparing for a call and then will set some minor goals to be reached by day's end.
I've put feelers out there in to the ether and we're hoping for some feedback.
115pm
House Blend. I'm not denying myself anything in the way of caffeine today. It's worth noting I downed a full, cold Choc Peanut Butter Cup coffee this morning in my JPR mug. It's better cold. I'm sorta done now with flavored stuff unless I know it can be drank quickly. Except for maybe cinnamon flavored stuff. That's it. I'm glad we bought this but it loses flavor very quickly. I'm going to repurpose an old nomination in to a one-para nomination. Listening to Terrell's Angry Southern Gentleman today. Listened to Beautiful Side Of Madness this morning and wrote an Amazon review. Hoping to meet with Ken for lunch. Word up.
355pm
I've reheated my coffee. It had half left. My lunch was good and now I'm going to finally do this "achievements" thing I've been putting off. I think I'll try to lift tonight. I don't want to do it in the morning.
Am letting the Breakfast Blend cool off. I've had some chocolate nuts and some samoa cookies already. Ran for 22 minutes this morning just to accomplish something. I could've hit the gym but between my inability to wake up in time and desire to have a healed palm, I'm passing today. Maybe tomorrow or mid-day Thurs or Fri.
I'm thrilled to not be wearing long-sleeve button-downs this week.
By 1030 it has reached optimal drinking temperature. I'm just preparing for a call and then will set some minor goals to be reached by day's end.
I've put feelers out there in to the ether and we're hoping for some feedback.
115pm
House Blend. I'm not denying myself anything in the way of caffeine today. It's worth noting I downed a full, cold Choc Peanut Butter Cup coffee this morning in my JPR mug. It's better cold. I'm sorta done now with flavored stuff unless I know it can be drank quickly. Except for maybe cinnamon flavored stuff. That's it. I'm glad we bought this but it loses flavor very quickly. I'm going to repurpose an old nomination in to a one-para nomination. Listening to Terrell's Angry Southern Gentleman today. Listened to Beautiful Side Of Madness this morning and wrote an Amazon review. Hoping to meet with Ken for lunch. Word up.
355pm
I've reheated my coffee. It had half left. My lunch was good and now I'm going to finally do this "achievements" thing I've been putting off. I think I'll try to lift tonight. I don't want to do it in the morning.
Tuesday, July 7, 2015
Neutral zone
1050am
I have a House Blend that is slowly cooling off here. I went a whole day w/o going to 18! I'm completely numb and neutral today. I just keep throwing it all at the wall and seeing what sticks. Peter's passing contributed to my passing out last night. I will think of him on a regular basis.
More menial work to do today. I'll just have to dive in, in a bit. I'm reading TS Eliot. We'll see what sets in.
I want to work out a bit but want to give my wrist another day to get a bit better. Today is the least achy it's been in a while. It's actually the bottom of my palm and not my actual wrist.
345pm
Having LightNote. I did 60 reps of 35lbs earlier. My palm feels ok I just had to be careful as to where I placed the weight. Taking care of more of a co-worker's project which is fine b/c he has my back all the time.
Peter will not have a service. That's kind of cool, I guess. Just being here one day, and not the next. It's too bad b/c it's someone worth remembering.
Wheels is the tune of the day.
I have a House Blend that is slowly cooling off here. I went a whole day w/o going to 18! I'm completely numb and neutral today. I just keep throwing it all at the wall and seeing what sticks. Peter's passing contributed to my passing out last night. I will think of him on a regular basis.
More menial work to do today. I'll just have to dive in, in a bit. I'm reading TS Eliot. We'll see what sets in.
I want to work out a bit but want to give my wrist another day to get a bit better. Today is the least achy it's been in a while. It's actually the bottom of my palm and not my actual wrist.
345pm
Having LightNote. I did 60 reps of 35lbs earlier. My palm feels ok I just had to be careful as to where I placed the weight. Taking care of more of a co-worker's project which is fine b/c he has my back all the time.
Peter will not have a service. That's kind of cool, I guess. Just being here one day, and not the next. It's too bad b/c it's someone worth remembering.
Wheels is the tune of the day.
Monday, July 6, 2015
How to overcome the return-to-work blues
1000am
I'm nursing a Breakfast Blend with a sugar and having nuts and a few leftover animal crackers.
I have returned to work and it was a pretty dismal walk. I want this coffee to clear my head and outlook a bit. I made it a point to listen to something positive (Brad) whilst walking here. The silver lining is that AKASW is out this week. I can get mostly all my work done today and prepare for condensed days for the rest of the week. I made the 813 today and this will be the only day for the rest of the week. I'm really going to try to focus and get it all done today so that I can get the work for end-of-week done and then pivot back to house stuff.
My wrist still has some aches but we'll see how that goes. I may not hit PF this week and just run in the mornings. I'll improvise. I'm hoping to hear from/meet with professional contacts this week so I'll have to improvise. I did a decent job running and lifting last week and want to maintain some semblance of it.
I have a lot of emails to catch up on but it's mostly just stuff on which I was copied. I'm sure I can get through it all today.
Music helps. Chad Smith's first album helps just get back in the mode. I do miss sunlight, though.
1140am
Half BB, half whole milk to have my pumpkin bread. I just received news of Peter Hano's passing. I'm sure if I were still in that office, I'd be crying my eyes out. I'm very glad we spoke recently. I will miss him dearly.
300pm
Had lunch with old co-worker and just got off the phone with a possible new co-worker. Had half of a LightNote while I discussed it with the referring individual. Let's see what happens. I do not want to overthink anything but the fact is I could do this job better if I did not need to babysit AKASW and that's what this will come down to. I will not get a raise this year and Monday we'll find out if there's any chance of a bonus.
I'm nursing a Breakfast Blend with a sugar and having nuts and a few leftover animal crackers.
I have returned to work and it was a pretty dismal walk. I want this coffee to clear my head and outlook a bit. I made it a point to listen to something positive (Brad) whilst walking here. The silver lining is that AKASW is out this week. I can get mostly all my work done today and prepare for condensed days for the rest of the week. I made the 813 today and this will be the only day for the rest of the week. I'm really going to try to focus and get it all done today so that I can get the work for end-of-week done and then pivot back to house stuff.
My wrist still has some aches but we'll see how that goes. I may not hit PF this week and just run in the mornings. I'll improvise. I'm hoping to hear from/meet with professional contacts this week so I'll have to improvise. I did a decent job running and lifting last week and want to maintain some semblance of it.
I have a lot of emails to catch up on but it's mostly just stuff on which I was copied. I'm sure I can get through it all today.
Music helps. Chad Smith's first album helps just get back in the mode. I do miss sunlight, though.
1140am
Half BB, half whole milk to have my pumpkin bread. I just received news of Peter Hano's passing. I'm sure if I were still in that office, I'd be crying my eyes out. I'm very glad we spoke recently. I will miss him dearly.
300pm
Had lunch with old co-worker and just got off the phone with a possible new co-worker. Had half of a LightNote while I discussed it with the referring individual. Let's see what happens. I do not want to overthink anything but the fact is I could do this job better if I did not need to babysit AKASW and that's what this will come down to. I will not get a raise this year and Monday we'll find out if there's any chance of a bonus.
Friday, June 26, 2015
Last day before a break - Listening to Rollinscast
1030am
Listening to Rollins' podcast about working out that dials back in to his middle school days. Breakfast Blend is perfect for a day where I don't need to be as "on" as others. I am doing some menial digital filing crap. I have some calls to make and take and some cover letters to draft.
It worked out so that I have physically missed AKASW and I'll just say my train was a bit late. W/e.
245pm
I feel a little bad I sort of had to be firm with my parents -- they're on vacation but they text me about library books and shit and I just don't want to be distracted by that sort of crap when I've got all this other stuff. I called them and in 5 minutes stopped the dialogue. They want to Skype, I've got no patience for that. It takes forever, everybody talks loudly and they just want to see the baby. She's fine. Having HouseBlend from 18 after scoring free sandwiches. I'm shameless and do not care.
The coffee is doing its job right now. (318pm) I've got a bunch of TX shite to do. Let's just do it. No more posts or BS. Just a pee break and an apple and that's it.
Listening to Rollins' podcast about working out that dials back in to his middle school days. Breakfast Blend is perfect for a day where I don't need to be as "on" as others. I am doing some menial digital filing crap. I have some calls to make and take and some cover letters to draft.
It worked out so that I have physically missed AKASW and I'll just say my train was a bit late. W/e.
245pm
I feel a little bad I sort of had to be firm with my parents -- they're on vacation but they text me about library books and shit and I just don't want to be distracted by that sort of crap when I've got all this other stuff. I called them and in 5 minutes stopped the dialogue. They want to Skype, I've got no patience for that. It takes forever, everybody talks loudly and they just want to see the baby. She's fine. Having HouseBlend from 18 after scoring free sandwiches. I'm shameless and do not care.
The coffee is doing its job right now. (318pm) I've got a bunch of TX shite to do. Let's just do it. No more posts or BS. Just a pee break and an apple and that's it.
Thursday, June 25, 2015
Fourth Letter of Alphabet Submissions
930-11am
I've been nursing a House Blend since my arrival. Had some leftover donut popems, too. I've been making the submissions for these client awards and AKASW, while grateful (or as grateful as AKASW can be), is too lazy to just file the confirmation emails into our system. So it's yet another thing I have to do afterward. Whatever.
I've now got 2 of these left and have to juggle our phone call.
315pm
After downing my pop'ems I am having a cooling-off House Blend again. Not as tasty as this morning.
I'll admit I was pretty steamed at one point. Much of this work is beneath me and can easily be handled (a) quickly; (b) remotely; and (c) more efficiently if I didn't have so many buffers. I was pretty PO'd when I went to lunch b/c the ball gets dropped the second I hand it off to other people. I got this weird talk before lunch about how we need to do more and wasn't exactly told I did a good job or that I did right by everyone and covered our bases (which I did). I was told that I did perform a function and that I need to babysit adults and make them do their jobs. Fine. Until my next job when I won't have to do that. I don't like doing work that others get credit for. I don't like the person who gets the credit either. I'm already mentally preparing exit interview dialogue and a cover letter for another establishment. I ave no desire to do this for another law firm.
I'm not so pissed off anymore and I'm glad I walked it off but these are all just facts at this point.
I did run for 21 minutes this morning.
I've been nursing a House Blend since my arrival. Had some leftover donut popems, too. I've been making the submissions for these client awards and AKASW, while grateful (or as grateful as AKASW can be), is too lazy to just file the confirmation emails into our system. So it's yet another thing I have to do afterward. Whatever.
I've now got 2 of these left and have to juggle our phone call.
315pm
After downing my pop'ems I am having a cooling-off House Blend again. Not as tasty as this morning.
I'll admit I was pretty steamed at one point. Much of this work is beneath me and can easily be handled (a) quickly; (b) remotely; and (c) more efficiently if I didn't have so many buffers. I was pretty PO'd when I went to lunch b/c the ball gets dropped the second I hand it off to other people. I got this weird talk before lunch about how we need to do more and wasn't exactly told I did a good job or that I did right by everyone and covered our bases (which I did). I was told that I did perform a function and that I need to babysit adults and make them do their jobs. Fine. Until my next job when I won't have to do that. I don't like doing work that others get credit for. I don't like the person who gets the credit either. I'm already mentally preparing exit interview dialogue and a cover letter for another establishment. I ave no desire to do this for another law firm.
I'm not so pissed off anymore and I'm glad I walked it off but these are all just facts at this point.
I did run for 21 minutes this morning.
Wednesday, June 24, 2015
In my heart was an aching pain...
951am
Breakfast Blend and also my first cup of the day. It's pretty smooth and not burnt this morning. I have some sugar in it as well.
I'm not as sad as the title suggests. It's just what played as I started typing. I've not yet looked @ my work emails. I'm sure it's a mess I'll straighten out later. I actually feel bad for AKASW, who needs to stand to work re: neck issues.
I had a solid 50-minute, 6.5(?) mile run on the boardwalk yesterday and I curled last night so today will be a chill-out day, esp since Liz will not be home tonight. I may be missing out on a karaoke job unless it falls through entirely. Not the end of the world but I would have liked some more money. Lunch plans are also a consideration today. I might try to reconnect with Gomez. We'll see. Fact is, I'm not that hungry. Once I'm in this lean mode, I suppose my body wants to maintain.
120pm
Had a lunch break with Marketing Assistant man, DZ. Cool dude. We appreciate some of the same things and once we get some of the work-bitching out of the way we can delve in to funner stuff. I nursed a House Blend with him and we discussed, beer, coffee, food, standards of living and other stuff.
230pm
I refilled my coffee on the way up and found some donut pop'ems so they go well with the House Blend. I do not think I can drink this all, though, I might spill some out and replace with milk. I just exchanged my white CT shirt from last week for the same one, only non-iron and slim fit. All the criteria has been met. I feel great about my new wardrobe. After today (I'm wearing the yellow shirt). I'll start wearing some other newer things. I only need one new button down for tomorrow and then a polo for Friday and then it'll be a polo week for the week AKASW is gone.
Breakfast Blend and also my first cup of the day. It's pretty smooth and not burnt this morning. I have some sugar in it as well.
I'm not as sad as the title suggests. It's just what played as I started typing. I've not yet looked @ my work emails. I'm sure it's a mess I'll straighten out later. I actually feel bad for AKASW, who needs to stand to work re: neck issues.
I had a solid 50-minute, 6.5(?) mile run on the boardwalk yesterday and I curled last night so today will be a chill-out day, esp since Liz will not be home tonight. I may be missing out on a karaoke job unless it falls through entirely. Not the end of the world but I would have liked some more money. Lunch plans are also a consideration today. I might try to reconnect with Gomez. We'll see. Fact is, I'm not that hungry. Once I'm in this lean mode, I suppose my body wants to maintain.
120pm
Had a lunch break with Marketing Assistant man, DZ. Cool dude. We appreciate some of the same things and once we get some of the work-bitching out of the way we can delve in to funner stuff. I nursed a House Blend with him and we discussed, beer, coffee, food, standards of living and other stuff.
230pm
I refilled my coffee on the way up and found some donut pop'ems so they go well with the House Blend. I do not think I can drink this all, though, I might spill some out and replace with milk. I just exchanged my white CT shirt from last week for the same one, only non-iron and slim fit. All the criteria has been met. I feel great about my new wardrobe. After today (I'm wearing the yellow shirt). I'll start wearing some other newer things. I only need one new button down for tomorrow and then a polo for Friday and then it'll be a polo week for the week AKASW is gone.
Monday, June 22, 2015
Nowhere Freeway
1025am
Was listening to Raise a Little Hell this morning and like it a lot. I actually listened to the last 4 songs and they are reminiscent of "Nowhere Freeway" and "Dead of the Night." I will have a good day today -- we're AKASW-free and I already pulled my "early morning email" routine. I actually did work last night for a couple of hours just to be fully prepared.
Drinking a pretty hot Breakfast Blend with a raw sugar. It tastes a little burnt but it'll do the job. I did not have any coffee this morning.
I will hit the gym and do my abs today. I have no lock nor bike so I'll do my stuff quickly and get out and try to listen to some of my "Break Me In" playlist. I'll throw in the new Helloween, too.
Uriy from the mailroom just delivered 2 new discs -- Wolf and Terrell. Wow totally different stuff going on there. I've got two more coming and then that's it -- I know I've said it before but really that should be it.
Off tomorrow so I'll hit the gym in the morning and try to squeeze in a run.
Some marketing women are speaking loudly. One is a friend of mine on the receiving end of a "tone." Her face has been flushed ever since.
Was listening to Raise a Little Hell this morning and like it a lot. I actually listened to the last 4 songs and they are reminiscent of "Nowhere Freeway" and "Dead of the Night." I will have a good day today -- we're AKASW-free and I already pulled my "early morning email" routine. I actually did work last night for a couple of hours just to be fully prepared.
Drinking a pretty hot Breakfast Blend with a raw sugar. It tastes a little burnt but it'll do the job. I did not have any coffee this morning.
I will hit the gym and do my abs today. I have no lock nor bike so I'll do my stuff quickly and get out and try to listen to some of my "Break Me In" playlist. I'll throw in the new Helloween, too.
Uriy from the mailroom just delivered 2 new discs -- Wolf and Terrell. Wow totally different stuff going on there. I've got two more coming and then that's it -- I know I've said it before but really that should be it.
Off tomorrow so I'll hit the gym in the morning and try to squeeze in a run.
Some marketing women are speaking loudly. One is a friend of mine on the receiving end of a "tone." Her face has been flushed ever since.
Friday, June 19, 2015
Ending a week
1030-1050am
Having a dark-looking Breakfast Blend. I favor this mild one over Light Note -- I think it just looks darker and smoother. It's not very hot but that's fine it's at optimal drinking temperature.
I'm blessed with a lot of good music that I will add and circulate and rotate. I'm trying to chill out here as I've made peace with how petty this stuff is. Let's see if a summer bonus happens -- it's rumored.
I've still got some phlegm but I'm functioning pretty well. I will hit the gym today for sure. I'm down to 154.5lbs. I can't believe I've actually shed the weight. I'm back down to 2010 weight. Light lunches and hard(er) exercise pay off. I've got maybe 2 scoops left of the Marked, which is the best-tasting stuff in a long time. My home stuff is sandy. The next at-work batch is 3lbs of GNC's AMP. I just realized it has a 2:1 ratio of protein to carbs, but it's fine. I need calories of some form.
I was able to catch the ATL train this morn. It was nice to have extra time with Lizard and Chick this morning. Liz chilled out and had some cereal with us. It's a nice, normal scene for about 30 minutes, and then one of us goes to work and the other goes to sleep. I will somehow rectify this.
AKASW has been holed up all morning. Probably freaking out b/c she actually started something early and cannot handle the stress of doing actual work.
This may be the final CT day.
Having a dark-looking Breakfast Blend. I favor this mild one over Light Note -- I think it just looks darker and smoother. It's not very hot but that's fine it's at optimal drinking temperature.
I'm blessed with a lot of good music that I will add and circulate and rotate. I'm trying to chill out here as I've made peace with how petty this stuff is. Let's see if a summer bonus happens -- it's rumored.
I've still got some phlegm but I'm functioning pretty well. I will hit the gym today for sure. I'm down to 154.5lbs. I can't believe I've actually shed the weight. I'm back down to 2010 weight. Light lunches and hard(er) exercise pay off. I've got maybe 2 scoops left of the Marked, which is the best-tasting stuff in a long time. My home stuff is sandy. The next at-work batch is 3lbs of GNC's AMP. I just realized it has a 2:1 ratio of protein to carbs, but it's fine. I need calories of some form.
I was able to catch the ATL train this morn. It was nice to have extra time with Lizard and Chick this morning. Liz chilled out and had some cereal with us. It's a nice, normal scene for about 30 minutes, and then one of us goes to work and the other goes to sleep. I will somehow rectify this.
AKASW has been holed up all morning. Probably freaking out b/c she actually started something early and cannot handle the stress of doing actual work.
This may be the final CT day.
Thursday, June 18, 2015
Tell me how deep that river is...
955am
About 1/3 of the way through my House Blend. There was a disgusting shooting in Charleston last nite and 9 people are dead in their church.
I came across some gourmet cake in the fridge. There's plenty of it. I'm eating some. No shame.
I ran for 25 minutes this morning and broke in the new Helloween. It's good -- it's all good -- but 4-5 songs in I'm thinking, "Straight Out Of Hell is far superior." There's not enough variation between songs and I think Deris' voice is not as strong.
I am kicking myself now b/c I should have been able to get to the gym but realized the lock and gloves were still @ work. I could have done it but didn't have a lock and didn't want to leave my stuff there in a locker. It would have all been just clothes anyway. F'ing lesson learned. I could've taken the 833 from there. This was the day to enact that. But at least I did the run. It's more than I had previously done and it's contributing to my weight loss. I saw I'm down to 154.9 this morning. This is unprecedented. If I can maintain this weight but keep the lifting to this intensity I will have basically achieved my goal and then it's just a matter of maintaining and shedding skin.
Work is work. I do not feel one way or the other about it. I want more CT shirts.
1140am ish
Had a Breakfast Blend that was 20% whole milk. This was to wash down the 2 slices of velvet cake. AKASW has been OOO for a chunk of the morning, which is great. I am skipping this meeting for which I put on a tie. I don't care. No one cares. I will do some more menial editing work and get it all done.
250pm
Having a Zen tea. Time to chill with the coffee. I've got a bit of a headache probably due to minor dehydration, the run and slight lack of sleep. Will rectify that tonight. I got another CT shirt today. Penrose Lilac Non-Iron Slim Fit. My girl @ the 6th Ave shop got me the last 15 1/2 and took the coupon. I kinda want the white one from the 7th ave shop I may exchange tomorrow. Was able to grab a small sandwich, too. I'm not terribly hungry but I keep breathing back mucous. All the work I do can be accomplished from home.
About 1/3 of the way through my House Blend. There was a disgusting shooting in Charleston last nite and 9 people are dead in their church.
I came across some gourmet cake in the fridge. There's plenty of it. I'm eating some. No shame.
I ran for 25 minutes this morning and broke in the new Helloween. It's good -- it's all good -- but 4-5 songs in I'm thinking, "Straight Out Of Hell is far superior." There's not enough variation between songs and I think Deris' voice is not as strong.
I am kicking myself now b/c I should have been able to get to the gym but realized the lock and gloves were still @ work. I could have done it but didn't have a lock and didn't want to leave my stuff there in a locker. It would have all been just clothes anyway. F'ing lesson learned. I could've taken the 833 from there. This was the day to enact that. But at least I did the run. It's more than I had previously done and it's contributing to my weight loss. I saw I'm down to 154.9 this morning. This is unprecedented. If I can maintain this weight but keep the lifting to this intensity I will have basically achieved my goal and then it's just a matter of maintaining and shedding skin.
Work is work. I do not feel one way or the other about it. I want more CT shirts.
1140am ish
Had a Breakfast Blend that was 20% whole milk. This was to wash down the 2 slices of velvet cake. AKASW has been OOO for a chunk of the morning, which is great. I am skipping this meeting for which I put on a tie. I don't care. No one cares. I will do some more menial editing work and get it all done.
250pm
Having a Zen tea. Time to chill with the coffee. I've got a bit of a headache probably due to minor dehydration, the run and slight lack of sleep. Will rectify that tonight. I got another CT shirt today. Penrose Lilac Non-Iron Slim Fit. My girl @ the 6th Ave shop got me the last 15 1/2 and took the coupon. I kinda want the white one from the 7th ave shop I may exchange tomorrow. Was able to grab a small sandwich, too. I'm not terribly hungry but I keep breathing back mucous. All the work I do can be accomplished from home.
Wednesday, June 17, 2015
Black shirt, bright outlook
930-11am
It was a good morning. I had a quick 15-minute run and made the 818 afterward. I briefly deliberated when I got to the shed about which bike to take and ultimately went with the folding one. Drank coffee on the train ride in. I was a little tired but why trick my body in to slumber?
I also was able to stop at Charles Tyrwhitt's 6th ave location and used the voucher AGAIN for a new shirt! $4.50!
Had a Breakfast Blend in my travel mug which I got on my way up after seeing Harris downstairs outside. Had my donut already. I'm hungry today. I need milk.
It was a good morning. I had a quick 15-minute run and made the 818 afterward. I briefly deliberated when I got to the shed about which bike to take and ultimately went with the folding one. Drank coffee on the train ride in. I was a little tired but why trick my body in to slumber?
I also was able to stop at Charles Tyrwhitt's 6th ave location and used the voucher AGAIN for a new shirt! $4.50!
Had a Breakfast Blend in my travel mug which I got on my way up after seeing Harris downstairs outside. Had my donut already. I'm hungry today. I need milk.
Made it through our 11am phone call and let's just plow through the work today and get it over with. If AKASW leaves by 515 I have a winning chance at making the 532. Yesterday she left at 430 and I made the 520 (at 516 it started pouring -- I think I was at 40th Street).
I feel good about things today and just want to get it all done.
315pm
I'm not sure if the iced tea I've had today has caffeine. If so I've had a couple of cups at least. I went with the sweetened. I just finished a travel mug's worth of LightNote from opp side of this floor (b/c it's fresher). It washed down some homemade brownie bites. I have not eaten much today. That's ok I am willing to go without for music and another great deal at CT. Got another shirt for $4.50.
I hit PF after that to do my 75 curls of 35lb ea.
I think that's all I need. Let's hope for the unofficial early dismissal and bounce out of here. I have gotten some compliments about my conduct and leadership today which is nice.
315pm
I'm not sure if the iced tea I've had today has caffeine. If so I've had a couple of cups at least. I went with the sweetened. I just finished a travel mug's worth of LightNote from opp side of this floor (b/c it's fresher). It washed down some homemade brownie bites. I have not eaten much today. That's ok I am willing to go without for music and another great deal at CT. Got another shirt for $4.50.
I hit PF after that to do my 75 curls of 35lb ea.
I think that's all I need. Let's hope for the unofficial early dismissal and bounce out of here. I have gotten some compliments about my conduct and leadership today which is nice.
Tuesday, June 16, 2015
Self-aggrandizement, but not mine
943am
Been nursing a tall Breakfast Blend. I arrived pretty early and I must admit, b/c I expect AKASW to have fits, I had some moments of doubt this morning re: some client nominations but thus far she's been holed up and via email has been pretty decent. I was smart last night and waited before I sent the last nomination, which was smart b/c it was LA time and I was able to accommodate everyone and show that I was handling things from home.
I had a good morning with Chick she was up basically from 7ish on. She is so good and fun and polite and it's very difficult to leave in the morning.
Just have some stuff to ready now and that's it. Will hit the gym during lunch today and use my "break me in" playlist. It will be abs, shoulders, tris and bis. Hoping to hit intoxx either tonite or tomorrow (more likely).
1109am
After a nearly one-hour meeting in person with the team, I picked up another half of a Breakfast Blend.
When work that I did was completed, then "we" did them. When emails get missed -- "I" miss them.
The deadline I sweated last night was fine but it wound up getting pushed another month so nothing to worry about there.
If you don't change where you're going, you're gonna end up right where you're headed.
320pm
Pike. Kind of a celebratory one, now that I got to the bottom of the Brent Award situation. Had a good workout and did all but the bis. Overkill, Artillery, Anthrax, Cellador and Blind Guardian.
Been nursing a tall Breakfast Blend. I arrived pretty early and I must admit, b/c I expect AKASW to have fits, I had some moments of doubt this morning re: some client nominations but thus far she's been holed up and via email has been pretty decent. I was smart last night and waited before I sent the last nomination, which was smart b/c it was LA time and I was able to accommodate everyone and show that I was handling things from home.
I had a good morning with Chick she was up basically from 7ish on. She is so good and fun and polite and it's very difficult to leave in the morning.
Just have some stuff to ready now and that's it. Will hit the gym during lunch today and use my "break me in" playlist. It will be abs, shoulders, tris and bis. Hoping to hit intoxx either tonite or tomorrow (more likely).
1109am
After a nearly one-hour meeting in person with the team, I picked up another half of a Breakfast Blend.
When work that I did was completed, then "we" did them. When emails get missed -- "I" miss them.
The deadline I sweated last night was fine but it wound up getting pushed another month so nothing to worry about there.
If you don't change where you're going, you're gonna end up right where you're headed.
320pm
Pike. Kind of a celebratory one, now that I got to the bottom of the Brent Award situation. Had a good workout and did all but the bis. Overkill, Artillery, Anthrax, Cellador and Blind Guardian.
Monday, June 15, 2015
Weekend catches up.
1152am
Had a Breakfast Blend earlier (small cup) and it follows a small 730 Maxwell House. I've got some submissions today and am in a really good mood, for no reason other than I had a good weekend. Hitting the gym really early on Sat and being outdoors most of the weekend works for me.
I'll do the work and then the "home" work and then get ready to bounce out of here. Today's commute was really slow due to a crew member getting sick but I hung out with Marshall. Lots of new music to break in this week.
Noon
Had another Breakfast Blend (same size) and just sat through the meeting. No idea how long it lasted. Not terribly bad, though. But less than 1 sentence in to our co-worker's quick details, AKASW cut him off. Just rude.
240pm
I have to meet with AKASW at 3 to discuss all the emails she hasn't looked at. So I have to listen to "Doo-do-do-do-doo" more times than I'd like. Although I've gotten us ahead of the curve on several fronts, I'm not trusted and it's unfortunate. I hope someone relays to her how good I looked on Friday. She should sweat more than she does. I'm having about half of a tall cup of House Blend.
457pm
Am just hungry so I'm having lots of milk with a little bit of the LightNote. I got through my meeting via phone with the nutbar. It has taken me a few months to get the rhythm down while she continues to know next-to-nothing.
503pm
Drafting emails and making lists for someone else is not stimulating and beneath my abilities. The recipient is fully capable but merely delegates responsibility.
Noon
Had another Breakfast Blend (same size) and just sat through the meeting. No idea how long it lasted. Not terribly bad, though. But less than 1 sentence in to our co-worker's quick details, AKASW cut him off. Just rude.
240pm
I have to meet with AKASW at 3 to discuss all the emails she hasn't looked at. So I have to listen to "Doo-do-do-do-doo" more times than I'd like. Although I've gotten us ahead of the curve on several fronts, I'm not trusted and it's unfortunate. I hope someone relays to her how good I looked on Friday. She should sweat more than she does. I'm having about half of a tall cup of House Blend.
457pm
Am just hungry so I'm having lots of milk with a little bit of the LightNote. I got through my meeting via phone with the nutbar. It has taken me a few months to get the rhythm down while she continues to know next-to-nothing.
503pm
Drafting emails and making lists for someone else is not stimulating and beneath my abilities. The recipient is fully capable but merely delegates responsibility.
Friday, June 12, 2015
Brand New Start With A Synthetic Heart
1117am
Awake. Just downed the rest with the lemon juice. It's not very tasty when you do that. I cried behind my sunglasses this morning as I commuted on train and foot whilst listening to Ha Ha Tonka, particularly to "The Humorist" and "Rewrite Our Lives." For the former, it's new to me but and I love the chorus but the line about:
I’m gonna catch a comet
I know the people on it
A wave to my wife and my beautiful daughters
Yeah, that touches a nerve. I heard it as "daughter" but w/e.
Awake. Just downed the rest with the lemon juice. It's not very tasty when you do that. I cried behind my sunglasses this morning as I commuted on train and foot whilst listening to Ha Ha Tonka, particularly to "The Humorist" and "Rewrite Our Lives." For the former, it's new to me but and I love the chorus but the line about:
I’m gonna catch a comet
I know the people on it
A wave to my wife and my beautiful daughters
I have a freelance meeting near the old location on PAS at 1 and that will be good. I'm largely over this head cold. Still traces of it, though. But I finally slept through the night. I've got some leads to follow up on and emails to send. I'll have some coffee soon, too. While I'm not Tywhitted up today, I'm looking as dapper as possible.
Noon - Noon30
I know I had a small cup of Breakfast Blend. Was very excited for my meeting and it went pretty well from what I can tell. The timing is right and hopefully there will be more off-hours writing starting in July. I was genuinely excited to be in that office. A total 180 from what I've ever been accustomed to, and it would not be hard to acclimate to that lively and accommodating environment.
"The Humorist" was still in my head the whole time.
Noon - Noon30
I know I had a small cup of Breakfast Blend. Was very excited for my meeting and it went pretty well from what I can tell. The timing is right and hopefully there will be more off-hours writing starting in July. I was genuinely excited to be in that office. A total 180 from what I've ever been accustomed to, and it would not be hard to acclimate to that lively and accommodating environment.
"The Humorist" was still in my head the whole time.
Thursday, June 11, 2015
Events Rule!
4pm
I'll do my best to recount my caffeine today.
Morning at home: Maxwell House; 11am small Breakfast Blend; 4pm undetermined coffee @ the ILO event. 'Twas black.
I know I had a Green Tips and Awake at work and then a high-quality Chai at the event around 230.
Events rule. I got work done and will leave here @ 5. Met the legal advisor to the office of the president of Malta. That rules.
I'm still sniffling and handling this drip as best I can. I was dry yesterday and today it's the opposite.
Made some contacts. One never knows to where it might lead.
Oh right...and AKASW will be out tomorrow. Fridays in the summer are great. The goal is to take Mondays off.
I'll do my best to recount my caffeine today.
Morning at home: Maxwell House; 11am small Breakfast Blend; 4pm undetermined coffee @ the ILO event. 'Twas black.
I know I had a Green Tips and Awake at work and then a high-quality Chai at the event around 230.
Events rule. I got work done and will leave here @ 5. Met the legal advisor to the office of the president of Malta. That rules.
I'm still sniffling and handling this drip as best I can. I was dry yesterday and today it's the opposite.
Made some contacts. One never knows to where it might lead.
Oh right...and AKASW will be out tomorrow. Fridays in the summer are great. The goal is to take Mondays off.
Wednesday, June 10, 2015
De-Cloud myself
1030am
I've already had an Awake with my oatmeal and now am nursing a Breakfast Blend. It has a hint of lemon in it b/c it's the same cup I used for iced tea. We got slammed with an assignment this morning but it was quickly pushed to a few days later but I'm already in the mode of doing it so let's get it done. Listening to the Cadillac Records sdtk. They were hoping for "Ray" part 2 and didn't quite get it. Too bad, there was a lot of good stuff in that movie.
I'm still not 100% and am having trouble getting out of bed. I took the bike today in the hopes that AKASW will leave @ 515. This morning I helped a British lady find other Citibike docks but they were all taken.
1155am
Having Early Grey now. Internal communications take up too much of my time.
3pm
Had a Chai with honey and milk. Not bad. Powdered stuff is better. I just taste awful now (430).
I've already had an Awake with my oatmeal and now am nursing a Breakfast Blend. It has a hint of lemon in it b/c it's the same cup I used for iced tea. We got slammed with an assignment this morning but it was quickly pushed to a few days later but I'm already in the mode of doing it so let's get it done. Listening to the Cadillac Records sdtk. They were hoping for "Ray" part 2 and didn't quite get it. Too bad, there was a lot of good stuff in that movie.
I'm still not 100% and am having trouble getting out of bed. I took the bike today in the hopes that AKASW will leave @ 515. This morning I helped a British lady find other Citibike docks but they were all taken.
1155am
Having Early Grey now. Internal communications take up too much of my time.
3pm
Had a Chai with honey and milk. Not bad. Powdered stuff is better. I just taste awful now (430).
Tuesday, June 9, 2015
Make it through.
950am
I've got a scratchy throat this morning. It started last night on the train. The second I removed my button down shirt and sat in a wife-beater, I started to feel it. Coincidence? It's certainly seasonal. Unless being around my grandmother on Sunday did it. I'm nursing a Pike and I've got a feeling it'll be the one coffee I'll have today and then pivot over to tea (with lemon drops and honey). I had to stop off @ 18 to get it and some cafeteria egg & turkey sausage breakfast. AKASW is not yet in. I wish I'd have known last night b/c the switch would've been easier this morning but that's ok. Sort of slept on the train to Dark Side. Only kind of glad I didn't know AKASW would be out, b/c I could have conceivably passed out on the 848.
I'm run down enough that the music I rec'd yesterday didn't lift me. Let's just get through all this stuff and go home. No 'tude. No excuses.
11am
I've had 2 Awakes at this point. My scratchy throat is not the world's end -- I will use it to focus and turn out the brief nominations I needed to draft. I will not be deterred by much else other than a seminar and a brief team meeting. AKASW arrived and I'm just going to present myself as someone who's a little under the weather who is, for once, happy to be holed up and left to his own devices. Ha Ha Tonka's Death of a Decade is fantastic. Almost (so far) as much as Lessons.
Since 1130am....
I have lost count as to how much tea I've had today. I had a boring seminar today and had at least one cup there. I also wolfed down 3 sandwiches so I'm feeling good and full. I also had 2 iced teas on 18 and now am nursing a HouseBlend.
I've got a scratchy throat this morning. It started last night on the train. The second I removed my button down shirt and sat in a wife-beater, I started to feel it. Coincidence? It's certainly seasonal. Unless being around my grandmother on Sunday did it. I'm nursing a Pike and I've got a feeling it'll be the one coffee I'll have today and then pivot over to tea (with lemon drops and honey). I had to stop off @ 18 to get it and some cafeteria egg & turkey sausage breakfast. AKASW is not yet in. I wish I'd have known last night b/c the switch would've been easier this morning but that's ok. Sort of slept on the train to Dark Side. Only kind of glad I didn't know AKASW would be out, b/c I could have conceivably passed out on the 848.
I'm run down enough that the music I rec'd yesterday didn't lift me. Let's just get through all this stuff and go home. No 'tude. No excuses.
11am
I've had 2 Awakes at this point. My scratchy throat is not the world's end -- I will use it to focus and turn out the brief nominations I needed to draft. I will not be deterred by much else other than a seminar and a brief team meeting. AKASW arrived and I'm just going to present myself as someone who's a little under the weather who is, for once, happy to be holed up and left to his own devices. Ha Ha Tonka's Death of a Decade is fantastic. Almost (so far) as much as Lessons.
Since 1130am....
I have lost count as to how much tea I've had today. I had a boring seminar today and had at least one cup there. I also wolfed down 3 sandwiches so I'm feeling good and full. I also had 2 iced teas on 18 and now am nursing a HouseBlend.
Monday, June 8, 2015
My "ugly" tie
1000am
At some point earlier I had a Breakfast Blend that I finished in the 10s. I had to make my "good morning" rounds and get acclimated so I lost track of some stuff.
When "we" need to look in to things, that means "I" need to do it. I'm meeting with KR recruiter in a bit to chew the fat and hopefully get connected. It's more that I need honest feedback about things.
AKASW complimented my tie, which was bought at that LI fair a while back, which Liz hates. So that's a direct compliment on my tie, and an indirect one about how "we are now on schedule" which she had nothing to do with.
245-320pm
Listening to Cordovan's Highway 10 Blues for the second time today. This may have been the first album I ripped here to just chill to. I rec'd Helloween, Elegy and the Answer today, which is great, but I cannot devote the attention to them that I'd like. That's truly a workout or commute thing and will be gotten to this week, along with the other discs I acquired. I had a Pike and at halfway, I filled it with whole and half/half b/c I'm sorely lacking carbs and calories. I had a nice lunch with Lauren, who will hopefully be able to help me, but it was pretty light (for nearly 10bucks!) as it was comprised of a poached salmon, broccoli, coconut chicken and beets. Just doing some menial stuff now and getting my 531 email ready to go.
At some point earlier I had a Breakfast Blend that I finished in the 10s. I had to make my "good morning" rounds and get acclimated so I lost track of some stuff.
When "we" need to look in to things, that means "I" need to do it. I'm meeting with KR recruiter in a bit to chew the fat and hopefully get connected. It's more that I need honest feedback about things.
AKASW complimented my tie, which was bought at that LI fair a while back, which Liz hates. So that's a direct compliment on my tie, and an indirect one about how "we are now on schedule" which she had nothing to do with.
245-320pm
Listening to Cordovan's Highway 10 Blues for the second time today. This may have been the first album I ripped here to just chill to. I rec'd Helloween, Elegy and the Answer today, which is great, but I cannot devote the attention to them that I'd like. That's truly a workout or commute thing and will be gotten to this week, along with the other discs I acquired. I had a Pike and at halfway, I filled it with whole and half/half b/c I'm sorely lacking carbs and calories. I had a nice lunch with Lauren, who will hopefully be able to help me, but it was pretty light (for nearly 10bucks!) as it was comprised of a poached salmon, broccoli, coconut chicken and beets. Just doing some menial stuff now and getting my 531 email ready to go.
Friday, June 5, 2015
Green polo Friday - AKASW FREE TOO!
1125am
On my 2nd cup of Breakfast Blend. The nutbar is 'remote' today and I am helping my co-workers with some tedious stuff. The caffeine hit me about 30 minutes ago. I can get this all done. I got my hands on power and thrash metal yesterday, but am listening to Chad Smith while I do this stuff.
My co-worker had to let off some steam, which was fine with me. It actually bonds us. I also got confirmation that my mail (401k) was sent yesterday, which is huge b/c I was worried that mailroom person was not competent in certified mail but w/e it's good.
4pm
Had Green Tips. Just kind of getting through the day. Saw Binder for lunch, which was good. Poor dude is all alone over there. I think he's taking on a bit much and drowning for it.
It's 427pm and I have a LightNote sitting here. Half-full. I may have it. I like the smell.
445pm
Drinking the LN. Why not?
On my 2nd cup of Breakfast Blend. The nutbar is 'remote' today and I am helping my co-workers with some tedious stuff. The caffeine hit me about 30 minutes ago. I can get this all done. I got my hands on power and thrash metal yesterday, but am listening to Chad Smith while I do this stuff.
My co-worker had to let off some steam, which was fine with me. It actually bonds us. I also got confirmation that my mail (401k) was sent yesterday, which is huge b/c I was worried that mailroom person was not competent in certified mail but w/e it's good.
4pm
Had Green Tips. Just kind of getting through the day. Saw Binder for lunch, which was good. Poor dude is all alone over there. I think he's taking on a bit much and drowning for it.
It's 427pm and I have a LightNote sitting here. Half-full. I may have it. I like the smell.
445pm
Drinking the LN. Why not?
Thursday, June 4, 2015
Taking a punch
930 - 1000am
I arrived at work early and went to 18 for 2/3 cup of House Blend in the cafeteria and to reflect on getting hit by the taxi door. I wasn't hurt much -- my hands sting a bit. The bike seemed ok. The woman was apologetic but I was a little too shaken by it. My helmet was on. Headphones were not in. It was just one of those unavoidable circumstances. That is why it's bad to let your guard down when travelling. I wasn't even that upset, to tell the truth.
1030am
2/3 cup of Breakfast Blend. Finished editing a nomination. On to a list so that I'm prepared for later. AKASW will be out tomorrow so and has a noon meeting until 1 so I can hit the gym today at 1245 and ride that out for a bit, and maybe if she leaves as she has at 515, I can hop back on bike and make that 532. Tomorrow will be a condensed day for sure.
Despite everything, I am not feeling any of the java. I did not have any at home.
245pm
Green Tips. Had a solid and short workout. Shoulders and 15 minutes on hill setting at 6.5-7 mph, level 3. All Overkill on the playlist. Doing some proofreading now. I'm getting closer to the look/physique I've wanted, which is that of an UFC fighter. I already feel really good and practically indestructible and now I just need to stay consistent and amp it up so that I get a little leaner on the gut. After the triathlon I might chill for a bit. I'll worry about that in 3.5 months.
I arrived at work early and went to 18 for 2/3 cup of House Blend in the cafeteria and to reflect on getting hit by the taxi door. I wasn't hurt much -- my hands sting a bit. The bike seemed ok. The woman was apologetic but I was a little too shaken by it. My helmet was on. Headphones were not in. It was just one of those unavoidable circumstances. That is why it's bad to let your guard down when travelling. I wasn't even that upset, to tell the truth.
1030am
2/3 cup of Breakfast Blend. Finished editing a nomination. On to a list so that I'm prepared for later. AKASW will be out tomorrow so and has a noon meeting until 1 so I can hit the gym today at 1245 and ride that out for a bit, and maybe if she leaves as she has at 515, I can hop back on bike and make that 532. Tomorrow will be a condensed day for sure.
Despite everything, I am not feeling any of the java. I did not have any at home.
245pm
Green Tips. Had a solid and short workout. Shoulders and 15 minutes on hill setting at 6.5-7 mph, level 3. All Overkill on the playlist. Doing some proofreading now. I'm getting closer to the look/physique I've wanted, which is that of an UFC fighter. I already feel really good and practically indestructible and now I just need to stay consistent and amp it up so that I get a little leaner on the gut. After the triathlon I might chill for a bit. I'll worry about that in 3.5 months.
Wednesday, June 3, 2015
Dreadsnesday -- sorta
10am
I'm sipping on an Awake, after having half of a flavored bagel. It was like an 'everything' but not exactly. This is my 2nd Awake of the day, the first being @ home. I'm reluctant to drink any coffee just yet. I want to crash first b/c I think I'm still a little wired from that blue amped stuff I had with my workout last nite. I did a solid job last nite. 82 minutes. Bunch of new/unplayed metal along with it. Earned that Punisher shirt. But now that it's all out of my system I cannot let anything get me worked up.
Listening to Ha Ha Tonka's Novel Sounds now, thanks to the library. It's good but not as catchy as Lessons. Then again, I'm only a few songs in.
Conf call and then a meeting so maybe I'll grab coffee in a mug downstairs.
Today I will redirect my attention to the client nomination project.
1130am
Had a mug of ? blend in the one-hour meeting, which was 1/3 cream. I needed calories. I still had the shakes a bit from that blue stuff.
300pm
LightNote from other side of 25. It chilled me out a bit. I was able to have a grapefruit and small RB&Bacon sandwich on ciabatta on the way out to lunch and on my way back in, grabbed another before catering could take them all and dump them. I also bought a nice tie from Charles Tyrwhitt on 6th. The nice saleslady took my $20 coupon off 75 and just applied it to the 29dollar tie, so I got it for 9 bucks. Marshall and I discussed at length (no pun intended) the value of buying a good tie specifically from them so I feel great about it and it will go with at least 2 of the 3 shirts I've thus far bought. It will help me nail my interviews, when I get them.
1130am
Had a mug of ? blend in the one-hour meeting, which was 1/3 cream. I needed calories. I still had the shakes a bit from that blue stuff.
300pm
LightNote from other side of 25. It chilled me out a bit. I was able to have a grapefruit and small RB&Bacon sandwich on ciabatta on the way out to lunch and on my way back in, grabbed another before catering could take them all and dump them. I also bought a nice tie from Charles Tyrwhitt on 6th. The nice saleslady took my $20 coupon off 75 and just applied it to the 29dollar tie, so I got it for 9 bucks. Marshall and I discussed at length (no pun intended) the value of buying a good tie specifically from them so I feel great about it and it will go with at least 2 of the 3 shirts I've thus far bought. It will help me nail my interviews, when I get them.
Tuesday, June 2, 2015
Post-Run
930-1007am
I grabbed 2/3 of a House Blend on 18 and spaced out for 10 minutes before coming to my office. I found an unlimited card (through next tues) yesterday so I got here with enough time to relax before going up. It takes less than 5 minutes for the 1 to get from Penn to 50th. But it only feels fast if it arrives as you get to the platform. I was listening to Mumford and Sons and then Inside Llewyn Davis and got a yearning for my girls. Last night Miri sat on my back and clutched my shirt while I did some pushups and I realized it was one of the best moments of my life.
How excited would you be to go and draft emails for someone else after that realization?
I ran for a solid 20 minutes this morning at 7am and felt really good about it and even afterward. It was a little chilly but it felt fine after 10 minutes. I don't know what the day will bring later (gym or whiskey, but not both) so I reckon I covered my health nicely.
My mini-muffin and triangular danish were waiting for me and the coffee went down nicely. I know I'll crash harder than this but I cannot let my mood be affected.
RB and me applied for different positions at a famous institution. IMAGINE if we got it. I'd look forward to going to work again.
I'll try to go metal-less for a bit.
12ish?
I know I downed a Breakfast Blend while tackling some event stuff.
"Don't spend too much time or effort on this" and then when it's been shown that I have results "well, let's get more of these and question-question-question."
Whatevs.
3pm
Have another half of a Pike. Friends had to vacate the plans for whiskey and wine, which is ok I can hit the gym and crank up the Overkill. I do feel a bit dejected but I'll get over that and at least I do not have to hit the gym in the morning, now. I can actually do my whole body tonite. I'm not that tired just a bit disillusioned.
I grabbed 2/3 of a House Blend on 18 and spaced out for 10 minutes before coming to my office. I found an unlimited card (through next tues) yesterday so I got here with enough time to relax before going up. It takes less than 5 minutes for the 1 to get from Penn to 50th. But it only feels fast if it arrives as you get to the platform. I was listening to Mumford and Sons and then Inside Llewyn Davis and got a yearning for my girls. Last night Miri sat on my back and clutched my shirt while I did some pushups and I realized it was one of the best moments of my life.
How excited would you be to go and draft emails for someone else after that realization?
I ran for a solid 20 minutes this morning at 7am and felt really good about it and even afterward. It was a little chilly but it felt fine after 10 minutes. I don't know what the day will bring later (gym or whiskey, but not both) so I reckon I covered my health nicely.
My mini-muffin and triangular danish were waiting for me and the coffee went down nicely. I know I'll crash harder than this but I cannot let my mood be affected.
RB and me applied for different positions at a famous institution. IMAGINE if we got it. I'd look forward to going to work again.
I'll try to go metal-less for a bit.
12ish?
I know I downed a Breakfast Blend while tackling some event stuff.
"Don't spend too much time or effort on this" and then when it's been shown that I have results "well, let's get more of these and question-question-question."
Whatevs.
3pm
Have another half of a Pike. Friends had to vacate the plans for whiskey and wine, which is ok I can hit the gym and crank up the Overkill. I do feel a bit dejected but I'll get over that and at least I do not have to hit the gym in the morning, now. I can actually do my whole body tonite. I'm not that tired just a bit disillusioned.
Monday, June 1, 2015
Scones, Glorious Scones
1030am
Had an Awake. There was a summer associates breakfast on our floor and I got hooked up with fresh fruit, scones, muffins, ginger ale and water.
I had to have the tea pre-meeting. Co-worker has returned from vacation in Big Sur and if it were me I'd just stay there. Either way he's back so we had to catch ourselves up. Try to do right by everyone and it seems appreciated.
I'm supposed to get hooked up with free good lunch today at 1230pm.
I'm going to try for more fruit.
1204pm
Breakfast Blend time. I rec'd my Overkill 2cd set. Door is shut and I'm going for it with Killbox 13. Just gonna send some emails and go down for lunch. Worth mentioning that I had a cupajoe at home.
300pm
Had half of a Pike and went downstairs. It is still misty outside but I wanted some fresh air. I had a lot of good food today and nothing I'm doing needs me wired so I'm ok. Trying to figure out if I can hit the real gym on Weds morning. If I shower there, I can pick up Alexa on the way back to oside or I can just leave her the car.
Had an Awake. There was a summer associates breakfast on our floor and I got hooked up with fresh fruit, scones, muffins, ginger ale and water.
I had to have the tea pre-meeting. Co-worker has returned from vacation in Big Sur and if it were me I'd just stay there. Either way he's back so we had to catch ourselves up. Try to do right by everyone and it seems appreciated.
I'm supposed to get hooked up with free good lunch today at 1230pm.
I'm going to try for more fruit.
1204pm
Breakfast Blend time. I rec'd my Overkill 2cd set. Door is shut and I'm going for it with Killbox 13. Just gonna send some emails and go down for lunch. Worth mentioning that I had a cupajoe at home.
300pm
Had half of a Pike and went downstairs. It is still misty outside but I wanted some fresh air. I had a lot of good food today and nothing I'm doing needs me wired so I'm ok. Trying to figure out if I can hit the real gym on Weds morning. If I shower there, I can pick up Alexa on the way back to oside or I can just leave her the car.
Friday, May 29, 2015
Bagels for 2nd breakfast
1050am
Having a Breakfast Blend and two halves of bagels with a great walnut cinnamon raisin cream cheese. One half was a blueberry bagel and the other was raspberry, I think.
Now I've had the equivalent of 1.5 bagels. I'm full, now.
I hit the gym last night as Liz passed out before Miri. Mostly stuck to my chest and back but also cranked out a 15-minute 7mph run on random training just to mix it up and not have to get to PF today. I'm pretty chilled out actually.
Just have some menial stuff to do today. One or two deadlines b/w today and Mon. I just oversee it and I don't do much else.
AKASW is sleeveless today so I doubt she'll be such an outward hypocrite since I'm wearing a turquoise polo.
Listening to "Clocks" -- it goes well with the coffee. Helps clear my head.
There's been a lot of metal lately but I don't need it now.
Let's see how the rest of the day goes.
Hoping to make that 532 or earlier.
150pm
Pike now in 8oz cup. The large cup got used to transport free turkey sandwiches on whole wheat/multigrain bread. Will bring meatballs home.
Got slammed with some extra work but I can turn it out. I won Accept and am just waiting on the Terrell win on an auction site.
B/w 3-320pm
LightNote went down the hatch (8oz). Juggling a bunch of stuff concurrently, including my 401k details. Of course it's the last hour or so on a Friday and it has to be styled or else nobody can read it.
Having a Breakfast Blend and two halves of bagels with a great walnut cinnamon raisin cream cheese. One half was a blueberry bagel and the other was raspberry, I think.
Now I've had the equivalent of 1.5 bagels. I'm full, now.
I hit the gym last night as Liz passed out before Miri. Mostly stuck to my chest and back but also cranked out a 15-minute 7mph run on random training just to mix it up and not have to get to PF today. I'm pretty chilled out actually.
Just have some menial stuff to do today. One or two deadlines b/w today and Mon. I just oversee it and I don't do much else.
AKASW is sleeveless today so I doubt she'll be such an outward hypocrite since I'm wearing a turquoise polo.
Listening to "Clocks" -- it goes well with the coffee. Helps clear my head.
There's been a lot of metal lately but I don't need it now.
Let's see how the rest of the day goes.
Hoping to make that 532 or earlier.
150pm
Pike now in 8oz cup. The large cup got used to transport free turkey sandwiches on whole wheat/multigrain bread. Will bring meatballs home.
Got slammed with some extra work but I can turn it out. I won Accept and am just waiting on the Terrell win on an auction site.
B/w 3-320pm
LightNote went down the hatch (8oz). Juggling a bunch of stuff concurrently, including my 401k details. Of course it's the last hour or so on a Friday and it has to be styled or else nobody can read it.
Thursday, May 28, 2015
Post-Vietnamese Sandwich
215pm
Having a HouseBlend from 18.
Returned from a Vietnamese sandwich shop on 62nd with David and it was hot out but we got a good walk and some sun in. Good sandwich, too (chicken bagouette). I've had at least 2 waters now but I'm pretty sweaty so the caffeine should hit me nice and smoothly.
Menial office stuff happening today and of course the roundabout from the old 401k folks.
I'll have to meet with AKASW at some point today but at least I've put some things in motion. Just trying to chill out a bit.
Wearing my orange get-up today. Bringing some colour in to this office.
Having a HouseBlend from 18.
Returned from a Vietnamese sandwich shop on 62nd with David and it was hot out but we got a good walk and some sun in. Good sandwich, too (chicken bagouette). I've had at least 2 waters now but I'm pretty sweaty so the caffeine should hit me nice and smoothly.
Menial office stuff happening today and of course the roundabout from the old 401k folks.
I'll have to meet with AKASW at some point today but at least I've put some things in motion. Just trying to chill out a bit.
Wearing my orange get-up today. Bringing some colour in to this office.
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
Just Preppin'
1100am
I have half a cup of Breakfast Blend just to prep myself for the weekly call. I threw some raw sugar in there, too. AKASW is in a "good" mood but w/e, it's just another day closer to my departure. I'll still try to turn out good work, though.
Tyrwhitt apparently never used my code, so I guess I can try again.
I am hitting the gym for lunch and I already have my playlist set to go. I will hydrate though, as I feel pretty good since I had a couple of waters in the last 100 minutes.
That's pretty much it. I just want to get moving. Hoping to also hit it on Friday, with possible Intoxx tomorrow night.
337pm
I'll nurse 2/3 cup of Pike. I need it somewhat just so I don't feel so drained. I had a solid near-40 min workout of abs, tris, shoulders, back. I had a protein shake immediately after and a banana, tootsie rolls and almonds when I returned. I'm not terribly hungry but will bring a water on the train. Just doing menial internal office correspondence. None of this is terribly inspiring. But I'm pretty chilled so let's just hope AKASW leaves at 510 so I can get the 532.
I have half a cup of Breakfast Blend just to prep myself for the weekly call. I threw some raw sugar in there, too. AKASW is in a "good" mood but w/e, it's just another day closer to my departure. I'll still try to turn out good work, though.
Tyrwhitt apparently never used my code, so I guess I can try again.
I am hitting the gym for lunch and I already have my playlist set to go. I will hydrate though, as I feel pretty good since I had a couple of waters in the last 100 minutes.
That's pretty much it. I just want to get moving. Hoping to also hit it on Friday, with possible Intoxx tomorrow night.
337pm
I'll nurse 2/3 cup of Pike. I need it somewhat just so I don't feel so drained. I had a solid near-40 min workout of abs, tris, shoulders, back. I had a protein shake immediately after and a banana, tootsie rolls and almonds when I returned. I'm not terribly hungry but will bring a water on the train. Just doing menial internal office correspondence. None of this is terribly inspiring. But I'm pretty chilled so let's just hope AKASW leaves at 510 so I can get the 532.
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Is it really that critical?
308pm
No. It's not. Even with email there are very simple ways to miscommunicate. Could be that recipients aren't fully reading their messages or that they are interpreted the wrong way. Either way, I can see how AKASW gets frustrated with this but also is blameshifting. I'm confident I can settle this ridiculous miscommuniques.
I'm having a LightNote Blend -- it was half-full in my travel mug. I had an iced coffee outside. I did not need any java this morning, here, b/c I had 2 cups of the home Hawaiian Hazlenut. I had it with a Milky Way "French Vanilla and Caramel" so I will be awake.
I just sort of meandered. Clothing shops, bookstore, music store. No purchases yet.
I have to cover for a co-worker. Just a few emails I need to send by day's end. Will do my best to just get it done and distance myself from the stress magnets.
355pm
And did the sky fall?
Did the Earth shake? Is it still turning on its axis?
Well, I'm not writing from hell (at least I haven't been physically removed).
Mountains out of molehills...
I went downstairs to explain the simple miscommunication and AKASW still somehow managed to cut me off before I could get a word out. I am a little pissed off but not that much. All it does is reinforce that idea that I have to get out. She needs to be removed from the equation. Or neutralized. But the fact is there is no neutralizing this. Either she needs to be removed from the equation, or we need a new equation. Either way, it takes someone this stressed to make you reevaluate yourself. I have to explain explanations and endure a bunch of "here's where you went wrong and you should have thought of that before you did anything." Her boss doesn't seem to care too much.
I had a half of a Pike after our meeting with cooler boss (who's older). I do not want to expend any more energy on this sort of person/behavior. There are more important things to do.
No. It's not. Even with email there are very simple ways to miscommunicate. Could be that recipients aren't fully reading their messages or that they are interpreted the wrong way. Either way, I can see how AKASW gets frustrated with this but also is blameshifting. I'm confident I can settle this ridiculous miscommuniques.
I'm having a LightNote Blend -- it was half-full in my travel mug. I had an iced coffee outside. I did not need any java this morning, here, b/c I had 2 cups of the home Hawaiian Hazlenut. I had it with a Milky Way "French Vanilla and Caramel" so I will be awake.
I just sort of meandered. Clothing shops, bookstore, music store. No purchases yet.
I have to cover for a co-worker. Just a few emails I need to send by day's end. Will do my best to just get it done and distance myself from the stress magnets.
355pm
And did the sky fall?
Did the Earth shake? Is it still turning on its axis?
Well, I'm not writing from hell (at least I haven't been physically removed).
Mountains out of molehills...
I went downstairs to explain the simple miscommunication and AKASW still somehow managed to cut me off before I could get a word out. I am a little pissed off but not that much. All it does is reinforce that idea that I have to get out. She needs to be removed from the equation. Or neutralized. But the fact is there is no neutralizing this. Either she needs to be removed from the equation, or we need a new equation. Either way, it takes someone this stressed to make you reevaluate yourself. I have to explain explanations and endure a bunch of "here's where you went wrong and you should have thought of that before you did anything." Her boss doesn't seem to care too much.
I had a half of a Pike after our meeting with cooler boss (who's older). I do not want to expend any more energy on this sort of person/behavior. There are more important things to do.
Friday, May 22, 2015
Marco.............
1035am
Today is the day before a holiday weekend and I'm hoping that the rumors are true and that we'll be able to punch out at 3 (330 for good measure). If that's the case I can be home by/in the 5s. I'm having Breakfast Blend in my travel mug, b/c I had some coffee on the train this morning. I did not need to bike it to the station b/c there were a plethora of spots but it was too close to call when I left and didn't want to chance it. We've got a couple of deadlines to meet today and that should do it. AKASW will be chilled out today b/c an offspring is here so I used today to take the Polo for a spin. It covers the guns and I'm staying off the radar. Let's just get today over with (not in a negative way) and get home.
Noon-1245pm
Piking it up now. We amazingly made that noon deadline so I'm rewarding myself. I finished DD last nite so I'm listening in on what might be in season 2.
Today is the day before a holiday weekend and I'm hoping that the rumors are true and that we'll be able to punch out at 3 (330 for good measure). If that's the case I can be home by/in the 5s. I'm having Breakfast Blend in my travel mug, b/c I had some coffee on the train this morning. I did not need to bike it to the station b/c there were a plethora of spots but it was too close to call when I left and didn't want to chance it. We've got a couple of deadlines to meet today and that should do it. AKASW will be chilled out today b/c an offspring is here so I used today to take the Polo for a spin. It covers the guns and I'm staying off the radar. Let's just get today over with (not in a negative way) and get home.
Noon-1245pm
Piking it up now. We amazingly made that noon deadline so I'm rewarding myself. I finished DD last nite so I'm listening in on what might be in season 2.
Thursday, May 21, 2015
Delivering the goods
1000am
Even though I've actually been listening to "You've Got Another Thing Coming," I did deliver the goods by breezing through our itinerary with our PR team. I'm unconcerned about anything after June 5, and most of that is in progress.
In order to succeed and gain the trust of my colleagues, I need to eliminate AKASW and all like her from the equation that is my career. I just need to be autonomous. There is little to learn from her in the way of conduct. Institutional knowledge is another story but I'll never get to know anyone if I have to go through her all the time. I'm no longer bitter about it (maybe a little) but it's more a matter of fact, now. I polished off a Pike that has me flying right now. I wanted to hit the gym but a new temp is starting today and we're taking her to lunch. I'm of two minds about it. I'll have other opportunities, I guess. But I don't want to be rude and I would've liked it if someone did that for me. We'll see. I wolfed down a chocolate creme donut.
1131am
2nd Pike. I have more internal work I need to do and then I guess I could do lunch with co-workers. But I'm really really amped up to hit the gym, but maybe if I do that tomorrow instead the time will fly by since it's supposed to be early dismissal.
300pm
Had some Green Tips. Hit the gym to do the MH workout, which was 20 minutes 12 supersets of: 5 pullups (overhand grip); 10 pushups; 15 full body squats. Supposedly it is the same as a 30-minute weight workout and hits about 260 calories. Pretty decent. Supposedly if I'm "MH Fit" I should be doing 22 supersets. Something to strive for. My knees started to feel it a bit. I think it's b/c of all the braking I do on the bike. Or not. Maybe my posture needs improvement.
60 pullups (unaided)
100 pushups
180 squats
Marketing asst came in to vent. I'm glad he does. We should be doing better, more important work than worrying about internal documents and corporate/office politics. All it does is reaffirm my recent actions -- a reaction to inaction.
Even though I've actually been listening to "You've Got Another Thing Coming," I did deliver the goods by breezing through our itinerary with our PR team. I'm unconcerned about anything after June 5, and most of that is in progress.
In order to succeed and gain the trust of my colleagues, I need to eliminate AKASW and all like her from the equation that is my career. I just need to be autonomous. There is little to learn from her in the way of conduct. Institutional knowledge is another story but I'll never get to know anyone if I have to go through her all the time. I'm no longer bitter about it (maybe a little) but it's more a matter of fact, now. I polished off a Pike that has me flying right now. I wanted to hit the gym but a new temp is starting today and we're taking her to lunch. I'm of two minds about it. I'll have other opportunities, I guess. But I don't want to be rude and I would've liked it if someone did that for me. We'll see. I wolfed down a chocolate creme donut.
1131am
2nd Pike. I have more internal work I need to do and then I guess I could do lunch with co-workers. But I'm really really amped up to hit the gym, but maybe if I do that tomorrow instead the time will fly by since it's supposed to be early dismissal.
300pm
Had some Green Tips. Hit the gym to do the MH workout, which was 20 minutes 12 supersets of: 5 pullups (overhand grip); 10 pushups; 15 full body squats. Supposedly it is the same as a 30-minute weight workout and hits about 260 calories. Pretty decent. Supposedly if I'm "MH Fit" I should be doing 22 supersets. Something to strive for. My knees started to feel it a bit. I think it's b/c of all the braking I do on the bike. Or not. Maybe my posture needs improvement.
60 pullups (unaided)
100 pushups
180 squats
Marketing asst came in to vent. I'm glad he does. We should be doing better, more important work than worrying about internal documents and corporate/office politics. All it does is reaffirm my recent actions -- a reaction to inaction.
Wednesday, May 20, 2015
The Post-Avengers Wake Up
1021am
Finished my Awake. The tail-end made me shudder a bit. Having overslept, I did not have breakfast at home I just had oatmeal and tea. Took train with Lex. Doing some menial internal docs work and then on to meet recruiter. I will absolutely need coffee in the next hour.
1045am
Nursing a Breakfast Blend. Talking to Jared. Doing some of this work. Listened to some of Jamestown Revival's Utah and now to Union, John Corabi's band. I will next listen to his unplugged songs on youtube.
330-45pm
Meeting ended at 225 and I made it back by 240. Thankfully other people were preoccupied by some interviews so I was off the radar all day. This worked out perfectly. I have some emails to draft and I had to run out and get a slice of pizza just to get some actual food in my belly. I had a lot of fruit today and I had perhaps deluded myself in to thinking I'd be eating at the recruiter meeting. I've got a LightNote Blend with some cream in there. I have a headache and it's from a severe lack of calories. Grandma's got a burger with my name on it when I get home so it's all good. Let's wrap this up and listen to Armored Saint and Union and whatever else strikes my fancy and get the heck out of there. I think tomorrow and Friday are bike days.
421pm
Had another half-cup of the same with a sugar chaser. Just needed it.
Finished my Awake. The tail-end made me shudder a bit. Having overslept, I did not have breakfast at home I just had oatmeal and tea. Took train with Lex. Doing some menial internal docs work and then on to meet recruiter. I will absolutely need coffee in the next hour.
1045am
Nursing a Breakfast Blend. Talking to Jared. Doing some of this work. Listened to some of Jamestown Revival's Utah and now to Union, John Corabi's band. I will next listen to his unplugged songs on youtube.
330-45pm
Meeting ended at 225 and I made it back by 240. Thankfully other people were preoccupied by some interviews so I was off the radar all day. This worked out perfectly. I have some emails to draft and I had to run out and get a slice of pizza just to get some actual food in my belly. I had a lot of fruit today and I had perhaps deluded myself in to thinking I'd be eating at the recruiter meeting. I've got a LightNote Blend with some cream in there. I have a headache and it's from a severe lack of calories. Grandma's got a burger with my name on it when I get home so it's all good. Let's wrap this up and listen to Armored Saint and Union and whatever else strikes my fancy and get the heck out of there. I think tomorrow and Friday are bike days.
421pm
Had another half-cup of the same with a sugar chaser. Just needed it.
Tuesday, May 19, 2015
Chambers. Yes I feel as though I'm trapped in one.
1030am
I actually started drinking this cup of regular at the Cipriani for the Chambers (continental) breakfast. I took a yogurt b/c I didn't want anyone to watch me eat a yogurt. This book is mammoth and I want to sell it. I can't yet, though.
I think I have to go through this thing today. Whatever.
330pm
I'm still using the Chambers cup, which may be a 10oz cup. It's 1/3 whole milk, 2/3 Pike with a little extra cream. I almost added sugar but realized it's not necessary.
I got to see my old buddy, Ken, today, which was great. It's been a while and it's nice to have one of those larger-than-life dudes around.
Bought Overkill's Killbox 13/Wrecking Everything today. I'm sure it will arrive on Tues. I justified the cost by foregoing lunch & finding a dollar on the floor.
I keep internally rehearsing my exit interview answers.
Helping some people with some little research things but otherwise nothing much to report. It was a nice day today and I'm glad I got out for a bit. Tomorrow I meet with Alanna, from RT.
I actually started drinking this cup of regular at the Cipriani for the Chambers (continental) breakfast. I took a yogurt b/c I didn't want anyone to watch me eat a yogurt. This book is mammoth and I want to sell it. I can't yet, though.
I think I have to go through this thing today. Whatever.
330pm
I'm still using the Chambers cup, which may be a 10oz cup. It's 1/3 whole milk, 2/3 Pike with a little extra cream. I almost added sugar but realized it's not necessary.
I got to see my old buddy, Ken, today, which was great. It's been a while and it's nice to have one of those larger-than-life dudes around.
Bought Overkill's Killbox 13/Wrecking Everything today. I'm sure it will arrive on Tues. I justified the cost by foregoing lunch & finding a dollar on the floor.
I keep internally rehearsing my exit interview answers.
Helping some people with some little research things but otherwise nothing much to report. It was a nice day today and I'm glad I got out for a bit. Tomorrow I meet with Alanna, from RT.
Monday, May 18, 2015
Sidewinder
940am
Awake with honey.
Am burning all 3 discs of Lee Morgan's Lighthouse live album and listening to its very last track. We're starting on familiar ground today and then we'll work our way back.
I'm about to press the button now that I've spell-checked a pretty significant submission. May as well confirm with AKASW.
Otherwise, my deadline day is Friday. I'm not going to stress about anything this week. The work will either get done or it won't. I'm just a pusher this week.
My bike is parked in the TimeWarner building's rack. Even though I hit the gym and ran for 25 min yesterday, I want to hit my abs and shoulders and maybe tris today during lunch, since I'm positive it will not happen tomorrow. With the holiday on Monday, I'm hoping mgr will be out on Friday and that I can have a little more time for myself and possibly hit the gym mid-day. If they close early, maybe I'll just get home early and that will be that.
The dress code thing has not yet come up and I reckon I'll let that go another week. It's not set to be that warm this week so I don't see much of a problem.
This extended live version of "Sidewinder" is quite good. It's a little faster and room in the middle for some extra parts and more solos.
I actually sent my first email today at 914am. Was able to make that 532 on Fri. Maybe I can do it again today.
Ok. Let's go press the button and get this week started.
Noon - 1240pm
Drank a Breakfast Blend during our bi-weekly meeting. Had some of the raspberry walnut bread with it so I'd have something in my stomach before hitting the gym. These meetings are absurd. We're all literate, yet we need to congregate and have each other read their own entries aloud. I cranked out some busy work for my two colleagues and hit the gym at 130pm.
335pm
Pike. It'll get me through the next 2 hrs. I'm a little bummed b/c I see that I probably could have stayed longer @ PF but there's no way to know that sort of thing. I had a conversation with a recruiter today about a similar position at a large media agency. I'll think about it. If the $ was right, it might be worth getting excited over. I'm speaking with another recruiter who comes with more credit while I'm on the train later.
At roughly 4pm I got a call from AKASW, who is late on reaching out to prominent players here. Because of that, "we're late on getting this to them." Certainly not her, who's been sitting on this information since Thursday. I just downed the rest of the Pike, which had a sweet finish (thanks to me).
Noon - 1240pm
Drank a Breakfast Blend during our bi-weekly meeting. Had some of the raspberry walnut bread with it so I'd have something in my stomach before hitting the gym. These meetings are absurd. We're all literate, yet we need to congregate and have each other read their own entries aloud. I cranked out some busy work for my two colleagues and hit the gym at 130pm.
335pm
Pike. It'll get me through the next 2 hrs. I'm a little bummed b/c I see that I probably could have stayed longer @ PF but there's no way to know that sort of thing. I had a conversation with a recruiter today about a similar position at a large media agency. I'll think about it. If the $ was right, it might be worth getting excited over. I'm speaking with another recruiter who comes with more credit while I'm on the train later.
At roughly 4pm I got a call from AKASW, who is late on reaching out to prominent players here. Because of that, "we're late on getting this to them." Certainly not her, who's been sitting on this information since Thursday. I just downed the rest of the Pike, which had a sweet finish (thanks to me).
Friday, May 15, 2015
Back to the bench
1115am
Green Tips. Right after we took these photos.
Green Tips. Right after we took these photos.
Noonish
I know I had an Awake.
230-300pm
Having a HouseBlend. Just met with an old co-worker who I didn't know well but always liked. She's going to set me up with another co-worker who's now a recruiter. She has already intro'd us via LinkedIn. I don't recognize her but that doesn't mean anything. Coincidentally enough, another recruiter reached out to me today in the 5 min I was on the phone with mom. I have some stuff to do and then am hoping I can catch the 532 to VS if the micromanager leaves soon.
Thursday, May 14, 2015
for the kids
930am
Awake. Had it pretty quickly so I could do the schoolkids' bagging in time w/o looking too groggy.
1110am
HouseBlend. Having a couple of the plain Girl Scout cookies with it. I need something in my belly before I hit PF. I did the schoolkids' bagging for New York Cares. Nice break and I can add it to the resume.
I'm more excited to make my playlist than I am to do any work. Win Hands Down is now a part of the rotation and I'm sure will be for years. One song is called "Muscle Memory." That'll be on the gym playlists forever. But that's most days, anyway. A little bummed b/c I have no regular undies so I'll be going commando once the gym is over.
I had a merciful 10-minute meeting with AKASW. It's tolerable b/c it's about actual editing. However the sound of her voice is like nails on my brain. She also does this audible brain pause thing: Auaieieuauao. That's what it sounds like. I focused on the fact that at least it's editing something and it's over. You can hear her across the floor. I'm very lucky I'm not in as-close proximity as others. She was sched'd to go the NY Cares event at 1130 but she's a loser and probably will not go. So I'll do some work and keep my eyes peeled for her lunch departure. Or I'll just go in the next 75 minutes.
I also thankfully found Alexa's phone (it never left the house).
255pm
Am having a Venti LightNote Blend that is 1/3 whole milk, just to keep my belly full and proteinated. Had a good session at PF and just listened to the first six or so songs off Win Hands Down. Just perfect metal. I think "Debauchery" is about Ariel Castro -- at least that's how I interpret the lyrics -- "You say it's b/c you're addicted to smut/you need help" -- I'm paraphrasing but it seems like a reaction to what that scumbag said in court during his sentencing.
Just met a BD dude from Chicago. Couldn't really make eye contact with me. Whatevs. Just some tedious email stuff now. Hoping to learn if I'll have a lighter day tomorrow.
It is also worth noting that unlike yesterday and Tues, I did not have any coffee @ home.
405pm
Awake. Just for the heck of it.
Awake. Had it pretty quickly so I could do the schoolkids' bagging in time w/o looking too groggy.
1110am
HouseBlend. Having a couple of the plain Girl Scout cookies with it. I need something in my belly before I hit PF. I did the schoolkids' bagging for New York Cares. Nice break and I can add it to the resume.
I'm more excited to make my playlist than I am to do any work. Win Hands Down is now a part of the rotation and I'm sure will be for years. One song is called "Muscle Memory." That'll be on the gym playlists forever. But that's most days, anyway. A little bummed b/c I have no regular undies so I'll be going commando once the gym is over.
I had a merciful 10-minute meeting with AKASW. It's tolerable b/c it's about actual editing. However the sound of her voice is like nails on my brain. She also does this audible brain pause thing: Auaieieuauao. That's what it sounds like. I focused on the fact that at least it's editing something and it's over. You can hear her across the floor. I'm very lucky I'm not in as-close proximity as others. She was sched'd to go the NY Cares event at 1130 but she's a loser and probably will not go. So I'll do some work and keep my eyes peeled for her lunch departure. Or I'll just go in the next 75 minutes.
I also thankfully found Alexa's phone (it never left the house).
255pm
Am having a Venti LightNote Blend that is 1/3 whole milk, just to keep my belly full and proteinated. Had a good session at PF and just listened to the first six or so songs off Win Hands Down. Just perfect metal. I think "Debauchery" is about Ariel Castro -- at least that's how I interpret the lyrics -- "You say it's b/c you're addicted to smut/you need help" -- I'm paraphrasing but it seems like a reaction to what that scumbag said in court during his sentencing.
Just met a BD dude from Chicago. Couldn't really make eye contact with me. Whatevs. Just some tedious email stuff now. Hoping to learn if I'll have a lighter day tomorrow.
It is also worth noting that unlike yesterday and Tues, I did not have any coffee @ home.
405pm
Awake. Just for the heck of it.
Wednesday, May 13, 2015
the effing phone
I had 2 Awakes before 1pm. Both were with honey. My throat is not really scratchy so the honey was just for taste. I got through my calls and I know I had a Breakfast Blend closer to 1pm before I hit the gym for some shoulders and bis sets. The coffee has been uninteresting and I had maybe half a cup earlier.
345pm
LightNote. Had 2 cookies (1 lemon cake tart, the other a chocolate-maca chip) with the coffee. Getting stuff done. As echoed in past posts, AKASW is not so bad when there's an itinerary and we just hammer stuff out. The 20 minutes in her office is tolerable that way. I was expecting something about the dress code but there's nothing to prompt it today. I'll wear a polo on Fri. She either was just talking for the sake of it or actually cares and is a loser. She wears a thin leather coat all day so she cannot empathize on the idea of being warm.
I took photos of the show last night on the Alexa phone, which I immediately lost/misplaced this morning. I do not value phones, which is why I lose them. I should never buy a new/good one, b/c I will lose/break it. I have no question of this. Phones are not important. Music is.
Tuesday, May 12, 2015
More (physical) headaches
1140am
Awake has cooled off. I'm getting a headache behind my eyes again. I can't tell if it's the lighting in here or what. I'm not any more stressed than usual and am actually in a pretty affable mood so I'd like to dismiss that as the cause. I did just sit through a 60-minute meeting but even that wasn't so bad.
1245pm
House Blend. Went to 18 just to break away for a bit. The headache remains. Can't let this keep up. I'm getting too dependent on pills to alleviate the headaches. It's hilarious that I have to present a formal letter requesting a "solution" but cannot provide the name of the actual solution.
I had forgotten I had added raw sugar to my drink and it capped it off nicely. AKASW is here. I'm eating a lunch and stepping outside.
340pm
Pike time. Headache gone, likely due to the pills. I'm actually in a better mood now, of course. Did my 60 tris reps and got a good deal on some protein powder. The manager hooked me up (to push the GNC product) but I got 3-plus pounds of basically the same thing for $20 so that is an extra half-pound. I'll open it once I get the Marked out of here. I just took half of that home yesterday which was a good move, actually.
Getting more excited to see Armored Saint tonight. I really hope I get to meet the band afterward. It would mean a lot. If I get a picture with them, I'll freak out and treasure it forever. About as cool as meeting Henry Rollins. I would have liked to have someone join me but if they are not interested and if it's a time-waster for Lizard (which it is) then why bother anyone?
I like hanging out with David, our assistant. I kind of wish he'd have invited me out to the cocktail hour also but I can see why he would not. We have a lot of similar interests and I think he knows by now that my personality is not that of a corporate stooge. At least not when we talk in confidence. That's ok, maybe I can hit PF again and knock out my bis.
I think the combination of being outside for a bit, getting a quick endorphin rush, getting a good deal and being the recipient of some kindness and having something to look forward to all contributes to a better mental state and positive outlook. Every day will not be like this. The weather is a huge factor. I think also b/c Chick was comparatively easier this morning than yesterday was also good. These slight changes in my routine helped. Hopefully, the anticipated lack of sleep will not destroy me.
Awake has cooled off. I'm getting a headache behind my eyes again. I can't tell if it's the lighting in here or what. I'm not any more stressed than usual and am actually in a pretty affable mood so I'd like to dismiss that as the cause. I did just sit through a 60-minute meeting but even that wasn't so bad.
1245pm
House Blend. Went to 18 just to break away for a bit. The headache remains. Can't let this keep up. I'm getting too dependent on pills to alleviate the headaches. It's hilarious that I have to present a formal letter requesting a "solution" but cannot provide the name of the actual solution.
I had forgotten I had added raw sugar to my drink and it capped it off nicely. AKASW is here. I'm eating a lunch and stepping outside.
340pm
Pike time. Headache gone, likely due to the pills. I'm actually in a better mood now, of course. Did my 60 tris reps and got a good deal on some protein powder. The manager hooked me up (to push the GNC product) but I got 3-plus pounds of basically the same thing for $20 so that is an extra half-pound. I'll open it once I get the Marked out of here. I just took half of that home yesterday which was a good move, actually.
Getting more excited to see Armored Saint tonight. I really hope I get to meet the band afterward. It would mean a lot. If I get a picture with them, I'll freak out and treasure it forever. About as cool as meeting Henry Rollins. I would have liked to have someone join me but if they are not interested and if it's a time-waster for Lizard (which it is) then why bother anyone?
I like hanging out with David, our assistant. I kind of wish he'd have invited me out to the cocktail hour also but I can see why he would not. We have a lot of similar interests and I think he knows by now that my personality is not that of a corporate stooge. At least not when we talk in confidence. That's ok, maybe I can hit PF again and knock out my bis.
I think the combination of being outside for a bit, getting a quick endorphin rush, getting a good deal and being the recipient of some kindness and having something to look forward to all contributes to a better mental state and positive outlook. Every day will not be like this. The weather is a huge factor. I think also b/c Chick was comparatively easier this morning than yesterday was also good. These slight changes in my routine helped. Hopefully, the anticipated lack of sleep will not destroy me.
Monday, May 11, 2015
Let's make it good
940am
With a Breakfast Blend in hand, I approached AKASW, who seems a bit more chilled than normal. Likely a combination of having a neck pain (pause for obvious joke) and having a weekend with fam for Mother's Day. I'm hoping this sets the tone for the rest of the week. I spend way too much time conjuring dialogue for an exit interview.
I also just got a free $25 at Charles Tyrwhitt which I will try to use. Even if it gets a shirt down to 20, it's worth it.
I had a killer gym session yesterday which was void of Armored Saint, so I am gearing up for tomorrow night. I admit to feeling a bit hollow about it right now but I'll get out of that mode in a bit. Hoping to reconnect with former ALMers this week and get some leads.
At 1013 I have the door closed listening to Saxon's Strong Arm Of The Law. My good headphones predictably died so the little white buds from Legaltech will suffice for a while. I had the foresight to take a couple of those. My teenage tees should have been of Judas Priest, Gamma Ray, Helloween, and Saxon. Nine Inch Nails was such a friggin letdown. If I see Miri going down that path then I know now how to balance it out.
11am
Following a mass evacuation of anything ingested after 2pm yesterday, I'm on to coffee #2. I should've gone downstairs b/c when this blend cools off too much it's not very good. I've had about half a cup. I think I'll have some water instead. My sister wants to buy my father a birthday gift that is way out of my price range. I spilled out the rest of the coffee.
335pm
Have had a day that is largely AKASW-free. I wonder if my slightly altered outlook influenced the day's event: I rec'd a $25 voucher at Charles Tyrwhitt and was able to discreetly get a shirt for 5bucks! Beautiful. It even goes with my purple/black tie so I have a beautiful new shirt for a 2nd interview. Not wasting it here, no way.
Having 18th floor House Blend. Getting a bit of a headache and it's from staring at this crap all day. Looking forward to tomorrow. I also am quite sure now that AKASW will do her volunteering at 1130-1230 on Thurs, so I opted for the morning so I can hit the gym while she's out, that day.
At 1013 I have the door closed listening to Saxon's Strong Arm Of The Law. My good headphones predictably died so the little white buds from Legaltech will suffice for a while. I had the foresight to take a couple of those. My teenage tees should have been of Judas Priest, Gamma Ray, Helloween, and Saxon. Nine Inch Nails was such a friggin letdown. If I see Miri going down that path then I know now how to balance it out.
11am
Following a mass evacuation of anything ingested after 2pm yesterday, I'm on to coffee #2. I should've gone downstairs b/c when this blend cools off too much it's not very good. I've had about half a cup. I think I'll have some water instead. My sister wants to buy my father a birthday gift that is way out of my price range. I spilled out the rest of the coffee.
335pm
Have had a day that is largely AKASW-free. I wonder if my slightly altered outlook influenced the day's event: I rec'd a $25 voucher at Charles Tyrwhitt and was able to discreetly get a shirt for 5bucks! Beautiful. It even goes with my purple/black tie so I have a beautiful new shirt for a 2nd interview. Not wasting it here, no way.
Having 18th floor House Blend. Getting a bit of a headache and it's from staring at this crap all day. Looking forward to tomorrow. I also am quite sure now that AKASW will do her volunteering at 1130-1230 on Thurs, so I opted for the morning so I can hit the gym while she's out, that day.
Friday, May 8, 2015
Dress Code
1045am
I'm having a Breakfast Blend that was cooling as I once again fixed the bike chain and its guard. This happened last week, too, right as I was arriving at Penn. Today it happened at 48th and 6th. Right before I went to fix it (it took 5 min) I was told by a co-worker that AKASW, who's out today, has taken issue with the idea of the men not wearing button-down shirts. She has a problem with my wearing polos on non-Fridays and another person wearing a sweater, even though both are expressly listed as appropriate in the Dress Code Guidelines. Looking to control everything. Part of me wants to throw this back at her and say: I'm doing what corporate has asked.
I'm thinking about it all.
I work for a loser and control-freak. She's nothing more than that. I'll remember that when I unleash a demon at PF.
320pm
House Blend time. I was all Cellador and Overkill at PF and knocked my abs, tris and shoulders out within an hour. My legs are still a bit sore from Tues night's squats. During the brief ride back I saw the Hispanic "Oz" guard who was eyeless by end of Season 2. I remarked that he regained his vision and he sorta chuckled and was amiable.
I am wondering if my bonus will hinder upon this polo shirt business.
Drafting some letters and pushing some emails. Want to leave in 90 min. Thank you for reading this.
I'm having a Breakfast Blend that was cooling as I once again fixed the bike chain and its guard. This happened last week, too, right as I was arriving at Penn. Today it happened at 48th and 6th. Right before I went to fix it (it took 5 min) I was told by a co-worker that AKASW, who's out today, has taken issue with the idea of the men not wearing button-down shirts. She has a problem with my wearing polos on non-Fridays and another person wearing a sweater, even though both are expressly listed as appropriate in the Dress Code Guidelines. Looking to control everything. Part of me wants to throw this back at her and say: I'm doing what corporate has asked.
I'm thinking about it all.
I work for a loser and control-freak. She's nothing more than that. I'll remember that when I unleash a demon at PF.
320pm
House Blend time. I was all Cellador and Overkill at PF and knocked my abs, tris and shoulders out within an hour. My legs are still a bit sore from Tues night's squats. During the brief ride back I saw the Hispanic "Oz" guard who was eyeless by end of Season 2. I remarked that he regained his vision and he sorta chuckled and was amiable.
I am wondering if my bonus will hinder upon this polo shirt business.
Drafting some letters and pushing some emails. Want to leave in 90 min. Thank you for reading this.
Thursday, May 7, 2015
Maple Bacon Kettle Cooked Chips
942am
I got to the office with a few extra minutes so I figured I'd go get the House Blend on 18. It's pretty good. Certainly dark. Maybe even a little smoother than the Pike roast. I was given two bags of Maple Bacon Kettle Cooked chips today, following 2 bags of regular yesterday. I then found a dollar on the floor. I decided after that to give a bag of the chips to the hobo parked outside the M&M shop(?). I honestly thought he was a woman all these months. Upon getting to the building I stopped to tuck in my shirt and saw LS sneaking a pre-work cigarette and she complimented me on the cuteness of the baby at the wedding. Oh, beautiful memories, Fare Thee Well.
1110am
Awake. I think I need more non-coffee hydration. I have a headache behind my left eye. I can't tell if it's from waking up on time or from the one beer I had last nite (the J&D beer). Just had a conversation with a nice guy from the ABA. I also just got freed up to hit the gym tomorrow afternoon, which rocks. I'm actually pretty sore from Tues night, so the extra rest is welcome.
1145am
Had some milk to knock back the un-aspirin. Decided to have a little hit of LightNote, too. Just got interrupted by AKASW, who needs more lists and internal BS. She's proud that she's "getting to all this little by little." HA. It's all delegating responsibility. The work she actually has to do -- the 3 paragraphs she has to write -- still isn't done and it's been sitting with her for well over a week now. That's the manager I have: Delegates but doesn't actually work.
I got to the office with a few extra minutes so I figured I'd go get the House Blend on 18. It's pretty good. Certainly dark. Maybe even a little smoother than the Pike roast. I was given two bags of Maple Bacon Kettle Cooked chips today, following 2 bags of regular yesterday. I then found a dollar on the floor. I decided after that to give a bag of the chips to the hobo parked outside the M&M shop(?). I honestly thought he was a woman all these months. Upon getting to the building I stopped to tuck in my shirt and saw LS sneaking a pre-work cigarette and she complimented me on the cuteness of the baby at the wedding. Oh, beautiful memories, Fare Thee Well.
1110am
Awake. I think I need more non-coffee hydration. I have a headache behind my left eye. I can't tell if it's from waking up on time or from the one beer I had last nite (the J&D beer). Just had a conversation with a nice guy from the ABA. I also just got freed up to hit the gym tomorrow afternoon, which rocks. I'm actually pretty sore from Tues night, so the extra rest is welcome.
1145am
Had some milk to knock back the un-aspirin. Decided to have a little hit of LightNote, too. Just got interrupted by AKASW, who needs more lists and internal BS. She's proud that she's "getting to all this little by little." HA. It's all delegating responsibility. The work she actually has to do -- the 3 paragraphs she has to write -- still isn't done and it's been sitting with her for well over a week now. That's the manager I have: Delegates but doesn't actually work.
Wednesday, May 6, 2015
Manipulatin' Miri
955am
Took first sip of Breakfast Blend in a normal-sized cup. Need it. Need it now. With Snickers bites.
Listening to Ha Ha Tonka again but it's more soothing than sad today. Tasked with more last-minute stuff today.
Chickie was up before 730 today which hinders my progress but Lex and I still made the 818.
1037am
Pike. I saw in the cafeteria they have House Blend, which is Medium, too. Maybe I'll give that a shot later/tomorrow.
Must gear up for a conf call. Lex said there was a fire/blast right outside her building. No news on it yet.
1115am
I have finished my Pike. I believe the caffeine may contribute to the stress. I think I have to ease off for a while.
305pm
Green Tips. Saw my cousin as I stepped out for a bit with 2 free sandwiches. Feel better with food in belly and fresh air in lungs.
435pm
Zen is caffeinated.
So I had the equivalent of a full (normal 20oz) coffee plus 2 teas. Not bad. I realized earlier that I have a little more power in my job than originally thought. If my mgr lost me, it'd reflect poorly on her.
Took first sip of Breakfast Blend in a normal-sized cup. Need it. Need it now. With Snickers bites.
Listening to Ha Ha Tonka again but it's more soothing than sad today. Tasked with more last-minute stuff today.
Chickie was up before 730 today which hinders my progress but Lex and I still made the 818.
1037am
Pike. I saw in the cafeteria they have House Blend, which is Medium, too. Maybe I'll give that a shot later/tomorrow.
Must gear up for a conf call. Lex said there was a fire/blast right outside her building. No news on it yet.
1115am
I have finished my Pike. I believe the caffeine may contribute to the stress. I think I have to ease off for a while.
305pm
Green Tips. Saw my cousin as I stepped out for a bit with 2 free sandwiches. Feel better with food in belly and fresh air in lungs.
435pm
Zen is caffeinated.
So I had the equivalent of a full (normal 20oz) coffee plus 2 teas. Not bad. I realized earlier that I have a little more power in my job than originally thought. If my mgr lost me, it'd reflect poorly on her.
Tuesday, May 5, 2015
Upon Return From the Wedding
945am
Awake. Awake and spiteful. I can't help it. I had to let it happen. When I've had too good a time away (esp with fam) and have to return to this awfully sterile environment, I have to just accept and embrace my loathing and let it run its course.
I try to keep my 'tude to a minimum when I'm trapped in AKASW's office for nearly an hour but it's hard when she interrupts everyone all the time. We were on to me and I had said: "Most importantly, this week, is -" and I was cut off. Who wants to work for someone like that? I will get out of this mood later but now I'm playing it off as: "I have to focus."
11-1135am
Got my hands on Breakfast Blend and it's ok. Sat on a conf call while drinking it and buying UNION's double disc. 7 things happening all at once.
120pm
I have a Pike now that is leaking a bit but I can manage. For two days of being out there's a lot of stuff to sift through and another detail to which I need to adjust is that no one is covering for me in the sense of moving things along. For years I had my team backing me up and vice versa and now that is not the case. The writers are autonomous but that's pretty much where it ends. AKASW is useless and has not sent the one email I asked her to.
5pm
I had half a tall cup of LightNote. I cannot even tell you if it was good or not. All I know is that I did not burn my tongue. I've found out I can hit the gym before Miri sleeps, which I suppose is a good thing. That's why I needed the extra jolt. I have so much rage to unleash it's frightening and sad in a way. I need to get another job. This internal communications stuff is totally unfulfilling.
Awake. Awake and spiteful. I can't help it. I had to let it happen. When I've had too good a time away (esp with fam) and have to return to this awfully sterile environment, I have to just accept and embrace my loathing and let it run its course.
I try to keep my 'tude to a minimum when I'm trapped in AKASW's office for nearly an hour but it's hard when she interrupts everyone all the time. We were on to me and I had said: "Most importantly, this week, is -" and I was cut off. Who wants to work for someone like that? I will get out of this mood later but now I'm playing it off as: "I have to focus."
11-1135am
Got my hands on Breakfast Blend and it's ok. Sat on a conf call while drinking it and buying UNION's double disc. 7 things happening all at once.
120pm
I have a Pike now that is leaking a bit but I can manage. For two days of being out there's a lot of stuff to sift through and another detail to which I need to adjust is that no one is covering for me in the sense of moving things along. For years I had my team backing me up and vice versa and now that is not the case. The writers are autonomous but that's pretty much where it ends. AKASW is useless and has not sent the one email I asked her to.
5pm
I had half a tall cup of LightNote. I cannot even tell you if it was good or not. All I know is that I did not burn my tongue. I've found out I can hit the gym before Miri sleeps, which I suppose is a good thing. That's why I needed the extra jolt. I have so much rage to unleash it's frightening and sad in a way. I need to get another job. This internal communications stuff is totally unfulfilling.
Thursday, April 30, 2015
Breakfast (Blend) At Work
935-10am
I just realized I've been nursing this Breakfast Blend practically since I came in. It was another late nite and I want to hit the gym during lunch. I'm actually readying my bag now so that I can just go. I just have to stay on top of people and their respective deadlines today and then that's all.
1230pm
Getting my Pike in now so that I'm amped enough for the gym and so that I can take the cup full of Marked powder. I'm extremely upset that a bunch of former co-workers got the axe today. Not an immediate one but still. 2 people I recruited are done by Summer's end.
In two separated dinings, I inhaled a bavarian creme and vanilla creme donut halves from 18. They will be burned off shortly. Fact is I have basically only fruit and nuts post-workout, so I'm getting the carbs in now. I'm seriously so sad and feel like the "good old days" of working 2005-8 are truly just memories now. I knew intellectually they were gone but now as far as sentiment is concerned it's the final nail.
A freelancing opportunity may now arise. I have to plug his # into my phone.
410pm
Awake now. Need the hydration. Am pretty bummed about the good people I know being let go. Had a pretty good workout and certainly sweated it up. Did that same superset of deadlifts, curls and press. 32 reps. Also did my abs, the pec fly and a final set of curls. I was Screaming For Vengeance.
I just realized I've been nursing this Breakfast Blend practically since I came in. It was another late nite and I want to hit the gym during lunch. I'm actually readying my bag now so that I can just go. I just have to stay on top of people and their respective deadlines today and then that's all.
1230pm
Getting my Pike in now so that I'm amped enough for the gym and so that I can take the cup full of Marked powder. I'm extremely upset that a bunch of former co-workers got the axe today. Not an immediate one but still. 2 people I recruited are done by Summer's end.
In two separated dinings, I inhaled a bavarian creme and vanilla creme donut halves from 18. They will be burned off shortly. Fact is I have basically only fruit and nuts post-workout, so I'm getting the carbs in now. I'm seriously so sad and feel like the "good old days" of working 2005-8 are truly just memories now. I knew intellectually they were gone but now as far as sentiment is concerned it's the final nail.
A freelancing opportunity may now arise. I have to plug his # into my phone.
410pm
Awake now. Need the hydration. Am pretty bummed about the good people I know being let go. Had a pretty good workout and certainly sweated it up. Did that same superset of deadlifts, curls and press. 32 reps. Also did my abs, the pec fly and a final set of curls. I was Screaming For Vengeance.
Wednesday, April 29, 2015
The Speech
1015am
I had to reverse the routine this morning b/c I've got 90 straight minutes of meetings and calls during the typical Pike time.
I'm a little roadworn and weary I think from the lackluster commutes and the bad sleep. Now that the wedding has been relocated, we may be able to leave after breakfast on Friday. We'll supposedly save an hour each way. That and saving an extra night's stay is good with me.
Just trying to get stuff out the door. I didn't plan on my meeting being right after our normally-long conference call but I'm using it to wrap it up faster.
I have to actually draft a speech today. The pieces are there I just need to arrange them.
312pm
Awake time. AKASW has a no-reaction-time policy, to which she pretends to be oblivious. I have not drafted the speech yet it will happen on the train for sure. An unsolicited but nevertheless welcome resume critique said I need to come off as more of an "achiever" as opposed to a "doer," and quantify my results. After my initial "fuck you" reaction, I realized it can't hurt. It's a little tough to quantify my results since I'm not in sales and currently do not work with revenues but if/when these windbags win something, I'll take my share of the credit for local/regional/national/global recognition.
340pm
China Green Tips.
Mostly just b/c I want the honey and hydration, not so much for the caffeine. Worth mentioning that I hit PF today and did 60 reps on my tris. That and the walk were good.
I had to reverse the routine this morning b/c I've got 90 straight minutes of meetings and calls during the typical Pike time.
I'm a little roadworn and weary I think from the lackluster commutes and the bad sleep. Now that the wedding has been relocated, we may be able to leave after breakfast on Friday. We'll supposedly save an hour each way. That and saving an extra night's stay is good with me.
Just trying to get stuff out the door. I didn't plan on my meeting being right after our normally-long conference call but I'm using it to wrap it up faster.
I have to actually draft a speech today. The pieces are there I just need to arrange them.
312pm
Awake time. AKASW has a no-reaction-time policy, to which she pretends to be oblivious. I have not drafted the speech yet it will happen on the train for sure. An unsolicited but nevertheless welcome resume critique said I need to come off as more of an "achiever" as opposed to a "doer," and quantify my results. After my initial "fuck you" reaction, I realized it can't hurt. It's a little tough to quantify my results since I'm not in sales and currently do not work with revenues but if/when these windbags win something, I'll take my share of the credit for local/regional/national/global recognition.
340pm
China Green Tips.
Mostly just b/c I want the honey and hydration, not so much for the caffeine. Worth mentioning that I hit PF today and did 60 reps on my tris. That and the walk were good.
Tuesday, April 28, 2015
Baltimore Woes
955am
Awake. I am wearing my wool pants which thankfully still had my LavAzza coupon in them. Maybe I'll use it.
I'm quite bummed b/c of what's transpiring in Baltimore. Jared's wedding is sched'd for Sat but I don't feel great about bringing my fam to that area, even if it is a mile away. We'll still likely have to go through parts of the city that were ravaged and I do not believe that a new car with an affluent young family stands much of a chance. We've all been looking forward to this for a long time and they had to book the museum well over a year ago and the nearby citizens are exhibiting what they really think of their environment.
AKASW hath returned and although she's run down, that voice booms through all the hollow offices and hallways.
I realized I made it through the whole day on just one Pike. I was even up pretty late and still didn't need it.
1125am
Pike. Took 20 minutes for this too cool to an imbibable temperature. Had an interesting chat with a co-worker about the riots and cops. His dad was a cop and corrections officer but and he's black so he's a bit torn about the whole thing but his perspective is weighty, in my opinion.
1150am
Still going on my Pike. Despite my best efforts to get awards in process early, I am bottlenecked by the person who keeps wanting "more" from me. I guess that person inadvertently wants us all to be here "more" and "later," too.
250pm
About 16 oz. of LightNote Blend from other side of the floor, b/c it's presumably fresher. I have a meeting in 5 minutes and I can't wait to watch AKASW show inability to digest information.
330ish
As I finish my LightNote, I'm asked to figure out a process for starting a nomination earlier (my top priority). I have to articulate a bureaucratic, politically correct, in-depth, sensitive, step-by-step process that can be summed up in 3 words: PRESS THE BUTTON!
Awake. I am wearing my wool pants which thankfully still had my LavAzza coupon in them. Maybe I'll use it.
I'm quite bummed b/c of what's transpiring in Baltimore. Jared's wedding is sched'd for Sat but I don't feel great about bringing my fam to that area, even if it is a mile away. We'll still likely have to go through parts of the city that were ravaged and I do not believe that a new car with an affluent young family stands much of a chance. We've all been looking forward to this for a long time and they had to book the museum well over a year ago and the nearby citizens are exhibiting what they really think of their environment.
AKASW hath returned and although she's run down, that voice booms through all the hollow offices and hallways.
I realized I made it through the whole day on just one Pike. I was even up pretty late and still didn't need it.
1125am
Pike. Took 20 minutes for this too cool to an imbibable temperature. Had an interesting chat with a co-worker about the riots and cops. His dad was a cop and corrections officer but and he's black so he's a bit torn about the whole thing but his perspective is weighty, in my opinion.
1150am
Still going on my Pike. Despite my best efforts to get awards in process early, I am bottlenecked by the person who keeps wanting "more" from me. I guess that person inadvertently wants us all to be here "more" and "later," too.
250pm
About 16 oz. of LightNote Blend from other side of the floor, b/c it's presumably fresher. I have a meeting in 5 minutes and I can't wait to watch AKASW show inability to digest information.
330ish
As I finish my LightNote, I'm asked to figure out a process for starting a nomination earlier (my top priority). I have to articulate a bureaucratic, politically correct, in-depth, sensitive, step-by-step process that can be summed up in 3 words: PRESS THE BUTTON!
Monday, April 27, 2015
Papers everywhere
943am
Awake. Time for me to tidy up.
I timed my ride -- once on the street it takes 10 minutes to ride to work. Probably and extra 3-5 to get above ground.
I'm going to hit the gym hard and early today. AKASW is out. I have to draft something for her. Normally I'd wait until day's end but it's not worth it. I'll just do it by four. I did leave something for myself to send first thing this morning. I don't remember if Men's Health suggested it or if I read it somewhere else or if I'm repeating myself but if there's something that I need to send but not terribly urgently, I draft it and send it first thing the next morning. I'm sure I'm not the only person to enact that process. I do it at day's end, too, most days. It shows that I am in and out on time but also puts things in the other person's court.
I'm listening to Incitare by Volto! This is the instrumental rock-jazz fusion from the Tool drummer. The music is intricate, energetic and fast but with a groove and it's even fun. I bought it for maybe a buck last year at J&R (b/c it looked cool) and it's gotten me through many a day here and at ALM.
Must also make time for Jared's toast, and "the hunt."
The Awake is gone and I'll need some Pike real soon again.
1035am
Pike time. Will have a samoa cookie with it.
1130am
It takes a while for 20 oz to cool. Pike is gone and I have to void my bowels. I've been working on this one email (that I cannot send myself) for an hour. One hour of Mozart under my belt.
242pm
Awake.
I just tore it up at PF. Abs, tris, bis, back, shoulders, hips. I also created(?) a superset with 50lb dumbbells that combined deadlift, curl and overhead press. Did 4 sets of 8 but I will admit that the last set needed to be broken in halves. Was able to take the time to do it all b/c I finished that letter and other work and there's not much waiting for me in email. I had a Marked shake at the gym and then came back and had a water and milk and now a tea just to keep from crashing. Work is tolerable when a stress magnet is not asking me to join meetings and watch her talk on the phone. It's also not so bad b/c I know it's just 3 more days of this and then I've got the wedding and an extra day for myself. Gnoshing on peanuts and will have an apple soon. I was going to mooch some food from 23 but it's not worth it.
Awake. Time for me to tidy up.
I timed my ride -- once on the street it takes 10 minutes to ride to work. Probably and extra 3-5 to get above ground.
I'm going to hit the gym hard and early today. AKASW is out. I have to draft something for her. Normally I'd wait until day's end but it's not worth it. I'll just do it by four. I did leave something for myself to send first thing this morning. I don't remember if Men's Health suggested it or if I read it somewhere else or if I'm repeating myself but if there's something that I need to send but not terribly urgently, I draft it and send it first thing the next morning. I'm sure I'm not the only person to enact that process. I do it at day's end, too, most days. It shows that I am in and out on time but also puts things in the other person's court.
I'm listening to Incitare by Volto! This is the instrumental rock-jazz fusion from the Tool drummer. The music is intricate, energetic and fast but with a groove and it's even fun. I bought it for maybe a buck last year at J&R (b/c it looked cool) and it's gotten me through many a day here and at ALM.
Must also make time for Jared's toast, and "the hunt."
The Awake is gone and I'll need some Pike real soon again.
1035am
Pike time. Will have a samoa cookie with it.
1130am
It takes a while for 20 oz to cool. Pike is gone and I have to void my bowels. I've been working on this one email (that I cannot send myself) for an hour. One hour of Mozart under my belt.
242pm
Awake.
I just tore it up at PF. Abs, tris, bis, back, shoulders, hips. I also created(?) a superset with 50lb dumbbells that combined deadlift, curl and overhead press. Did 4 sets of 8 but I will admit that the last set needed to be broken in halves. Was able to take the time to do it all b/c I finished that letter and other work and there's not much waiting for me in email. I had a Marked shake at the gym and then came back and had a water and milk and now a tea just to keep from crashing. Work is tolerable when a stress magnet is not asking me to join meetings and watch her talk on the phone. It's also not so bad b/c I know it's just 3 more days of this and then I've got the wedding and an extra day for myself. Gnoshing on peanuts and will have an apple soon. I was going to mooch some food from 23 but it's not worth it.
Friday, April 24, 2015
Exhausted Friday
945am
Awake: Let's just get through the day, here. Will get to the gym a little earlier today for lunch and just crank that out. AKA SW is out today and Monday so I'll get work done and maybe get home earlier.
I'm exhausted b/c last night I made Chick's coup but made a mistake toward the end and prematurely capped something so I have to remove it. It can be done, since all I did was hammer it down but it will take either a 2nd man or a machine to get it off. Once that happens I can have it finished and Chickie can play.
I couldn't bring myself to do su doku (too hard) nor read (I'm way too exhausted).
I captured a roach this morning with a cup. One of the marketing girls was a bit spooked. The cleaning lady came in and took it away.
I'll get a Pike shortly, as well.
1030-11am
Piking it up. It's a must. The su doku in the bathroom got the brain running. It's continued from last week's bus ride.
Just had a fun talk with co-worker DZ about all sorts of stuff. B/w that and the coffee, I am truly awake.
Noon
Caffeine has been ingested for a while now, which propelled me to send a personal submission to a fantastic group. I did not drop the name I was hoping to but I wrote the most sincere letter of my career.
325pm
Having a victory cup in a company mug. Light Note blend from the other side of the floor, b/c it's fresher. I did my abs, shoulders and tris at the gym and was spotted by co-workers on the bike, which is all good. Listened to Armored Saint, Gamma Ray and even squeezed in an Orange 9mm song. I'm not as tired as I'd anticipated. Work got done and now I'm just tidying up. My desk is a mess, too.
Awake: Let's just get through the day, here. Will get to the gym a little earlier today for lunch and just crank that out. AKA SW is out today and Monday so I'll get work done and maybe get home earlier.
I'm exhausted b/c last night I made Chick's coup but made a mistake toward the end and prematurely capped something so I have to remove it. It can be done, since all I did was hammer it down but it will take either a 2nd man or a machine to get it off. Once that happens I can have it finished and Chickie can play.
I couldn't bring myself to do su doku (too hard) nor read (I'm way too exhausted).
I captured a roach this morning with a cup. One of the marketing girls was a bit spooked. The cleaning lady came in and took it away.
I'll get a Pike shortly, as well.
1030-11am
Piking it up. It's a must. The su doku in the bathroom got the brain running. It's continued from last week's bus ride.
Just had a fun talk with co-worker DZ about all sorts of stuff. B/w that and the coffee, I am truly awake.
Noon
Caffeine has been ingested for a while now, which propelled me to send a personal submission to a fantastic group. I did not drop the name I was hoping to but I wrote the most sincere letter of my career.
325pm
Having a victory cup in a company mug. Light Note blend from the other side of the floor, b/c it's fresher. I did my abs, shoulders and tris at the gym and was spotted by co-workers on the bike, which is all good. Listened to Armored Saint, Gamma Ray and even squeezed in an Orange 9mm song. I'm not as tired as I'd anticipated. Work got done and now I'm just tidying up. My desk is a mess, too.
Thursday, April 23, 2015
Review Time!
959am
Finished my Awake, which I brewed in the presence of AKASW. I was a little apprehensive about my "review" -- it doesn't seem to be a formal one but w/e. I'm shaved, wearing a tie and feeling pretty good though there's a bit of a headache coming on I may need some Pike real quick. I got a surprising compliment from a co-worker about a nomination I slapped together. I always feel like I can do better but I do not have ample time. Of course this all could have been avoided if they'd committed to nominating this person a month ago when he was the sole contender.
Regardless, I will focus on being positive, pleasant and humorless. AKASW only really laughs as a by-product of stress or when work stuff is "funny." May as well just tell the truth and get it over with.
1050am/Noon
Review has come and gone. It was not the formal one. I downed the 2nd half of my coffee upon my return. Had I not had my "washout" night some weeks back, this would've been a nightmare but I just did exactly as I said I would. I did point out that there were some things I set out to do that I did but still need more time for, and I think I may have actually been convincing. Overall, there's no real rapport there, and no warmth whatsoever. AKASW tries to present that when I'm asked before/after meetings about home life and bicycling but it's all a time-passing act. Nice gesture, I suppose, but I'm not dealing with Susan anymore. I've reconciled that and now it's a fact to which I am numb. It's obvious that if my top priority is drafting an email for someone else to send is what pays the bills, then fine, but it's also a major affirmation of my after hours activities.
315pm
Needed a half-cup of Light Note Blend. I went to the other side of the floor to get it b/c I know it's fresher. I am a little melancholy. Not sure why. This bittersweet song came to mind. I realized I haven't heard it in some time. Ha Ha Tonka's "The Past Has Arms" will be the companion track. I think I'm a little down because I bought Chickie some books. It's like a beautiful sadness.
I keep eating these good cookies b/c they are available. I will hit the gym for lunch tomorrow and Monday. It will feel good. I will apply to a dream job by morning, too. My letter is already drafted.
This should be it for the java.
Thank you for reading.
1050am/Noon
Review has come and gone. It was not the formal one. I downed the 2nd half of my coffee upon my return. Had I not had my "washout" night some weeks back, this would've been a nightmare but I just did exactly as I said I would. I did point out that there were some things I set out to do that I did but still need more time for, and I think I may have actually been convincing. Overall, there's no real rapport there, and no warmth whatsoever. AKASW tries to present that when I'm asked before/after meetings about home life and bicycling but it's all a time-passing act. Nice gesture, I suppose, but I'm not dealing with Susan anymore. I've reconciled that and now it's a fact to which I am numb. It's obvious that if my top priority is drafting an email for someone else to send is what pays the bills, then fine, but it's also a major affirmation of my after hours activities.
315pm
Needed a half-cup of Light Note Blend. I went to the other side of the floor to get it b/c I know it's fresher. I am a little melancholy. Not sure why. This bittersweet song came to mind. I realized I haven't heard it in some time. Ha Ha Tonka's "The Past Has Arms" will be the companion track. I think I'm a little down because I bought Chickie some books. It's like a beautiful sadness.
I keep eating these good cookies b/c they are available. I will hit the gym for lunch tomorrow and Monday. It will feel good. I will apply to a dream job by morning, too. My letter is already drafted.
This should be it for the java.
Thank you for reading.
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
Su Doku-tastic
945am
Awake with honey. I actually have some work today so I'll have to buckle down immediately after this post. Vivaldi is playing.
I finished a difficult su doku this morning, so I know my brain is functioning and my problem-solving abilities are strengthening. Hoping to apply them to work and to life.
During my walk I imagine the dialogue of my exit interview. It's glorious. It's not an FU speech at all. It's more of a "I made up my mind maybe a week in to being here."
So the goal is to get to that stage, it's just like su doku, where I've got to figure out how to fill those spaces.
1045am
Breakfast Blend. Better than yesterday, so far. Certainly an echelon higher than the lukewarmness from yesterday. All my calories just had a mass evacuation. I heard from a new contact who seems to want to pass me off to her boss, which is fine, but I did want to hear her story. Informational interviewing and networking is hard work. My Metro horoscope (I see it during su doku) says to break routines today b/c it will pay off later. So I reckon I will draft a cover letter whilst on the train today instead of playing su doku.
1245pm
Soda counts. I had some tap Coke on 18. Something was up with my stomach. Getting the rumbles. They didn't have Ginger Ale, so that had to improvise, post-pizza.
2pm
Having Green Tips to chase my Ginger Ale. I wonder if the Breakfast Blend did this. I remember reading that darker roasts coat the stomach better. I can chance it with a Pike later if nec. I will hit the gym later so I may just immediately have an espresso once home.
335pm
Having a half of a Pike (probably about 10oz). I have a nomination I am sort of drafting but am fidgety.
Awake with honey. I actually have some work today so I'll have to buckle down immediately after this post. Vivaldi is playing.
I finished a difficult su doku this morning, so I know my brain is functioning and my problem-solving abilities are strengthening. Hoping to apply them to work and to life.
During my walk I imagine the dialogue of my exit interview. It's glorious. It's not an FU speech at all. It's more of a "I made up my mind maybe a week in to being here."
So the goal is to get to that stage, it's just like su doku, where I've got to figure out how to fill those spaces.
1045am
Breakfast Blend. Better than yesterday, so far. Certainly an echelon higher than the lukewarmness from yesterday. All my calories just had a mass evacuation. I heard from a new contact who seems to want to pass me off to her boss, which is fine, but I did want to hear her story. Informational interviewing and networking is hard work. My Metro horoscope (I see it during su doku) says to break routines today b/c it will pay off later. So I reckon I will draft a cover letter whilst on the train today instead of playing su doku.
1245pm
Soda counts. I had some tap Coke on 18. Something was up with my stomach. Getting the rumbles. They didn't have Ginger Ale, so that had to improvise, post-pizza.
2pm
Having Green Tips to chase my Ginger Ale. I wonder if the Breakfast Blend did this. I remember reading that darker roasts coat the stomach better. I can chance it with a Pike later if nec. I will hit the gym later so I may just immediately have an espresso once home.
335pm
Having a half of a Pike (probably about 10oz). I have a nomination I am sort of drafting but am fidgety.
Tuesday, April 21, 2015
Priorities
954am
Awake with honey. Just another day here but will try to keep it interesting as I have to list priorities for our group.
Here's an honest list: Let me get started on projects earlier and don't waste my time having me draft tedious emails.
The side of my neck is having tired throbs but I'll get over it.
Trying to keep the external/job-searching dialogues going with at least 3 people concurrently.
Will try to change the outlook from 'just another day' as much as possible.
Could use some su doku about now.
1235pm
I caved and have 2/3 cup of Breakfast Blend. It actually came out at the perfect temperature but I question its freshness. Not to say it's un-imbibable but normally that blend has changed to another by this time of day. I can do all the work I'm doing from home.
245pm
I have a full Pike that is now lukewarm even after reheating. I took a few sips and something's not sitting right in the belly, now. I had a chicken marsala dish and an apple for lunch with some tootsie rolls. I'll retry the coffee but if it's not still ill-received I'll dump it. I took a walk to PF during lunch and did some quick curls and press down sets. On the way there, though, I found a blank check. I reached out to the person via LinkedIn and hopefully he gets the message. A less honest individual would've ruined his day. I may just stick with tea.
320pm
Zen tea. Easing the hassle of all the BS emails I have to deal with.
That's all. Thank you for reading.
Awake with honey. Just another day here but will try to keep it interesting as I have to list priorities for our group.
Here's an honest list: Let me get started on projects earlier and don't waste my time having me draft tedious emails.
The side of my neck is having tired throbs but I'll get over it.
Trying to keep the external/job-searching dialogues going with at least 3 people concurrently.
Will try to change the outlook from 'just another day' as much as possible.
Could use some su doku about now.
1235pm
I caved and have 2/3 cup of Breakfast Blend. It actually came out at the perfect temperature but I question its freshness. Not to say it's un-imbibable but normally that blend has changed to another by this time of day. I can do all the work I'm doing from home.
245pm
I have a full Pike that is now lukewarm even after reheating. I took a few sips and something's not sitting right in the belly, now. I had a chicken marsala dish and an apple for lunch with some tootsie rolls. I'll retry the coffee but if it's not still ill-received I'll dump it. I took a walk to PF during lunch and did some quick curls and press down sets. On the way there, though, I found a blank check. I reached out to the person via LinkedIn and hopefully he gets the message. A less honest individual would've ruined his day. I may just stick with tea.
320pm
Zen tea. Easing the hassle of all the BS emails I have to deal with.
That's all. Thank you for reading.
Monday, April 20, 2015
Win Hands Down
1000am
Awake with honey.
I just heard the first (title) track from the new Armored Saint and I cannot believe it's always that good. ALWAYS. I often wonder: If I had been immersed in this and some other more positive metal, would I have done things differently because there is no doubt that music is an influence. When John Bush sings it's always done correctly. Like he's ironed out the kinks.
AKA SW wants to meet with us about God-knows-what in about 30 min. Just hit the ground running with that stress. It's always there for her. I promised myself to be the opposite of that and I'll keep it going.
140pm
Pike time. I don't think I'll need more than one, which is reaffirming. I don't need to be jacked up right now. I realized yesterday I had weak coffee from the hotel in the morning before the ride and loose tea after I got home. It's probably why I slept as well as I did (it was nice to be asleep before 1130pm). I'll shoot for that again tonight.
Drafting emails. Ugh.
Today is a staff appreciation event at 430-530. I've already left my jacket on the event's floor. I'm hanging out for a short bit -- there may be a raffle for PTO -- and bolting soon after.
That's all I think I need today. Coffee's still a bit too hot but it should do the trick.
300-330pm
Somewhere along the line I just needed another hit. I had a half a large cup of LightNote. I could feel that it was actual addiction forcing me to the coffee room and not actual fatigue. We'll see if CaffeinateDad happens tonight.
Thank you for reading.
Awake with honey.
I just heard the first (title) track from the new Armored Saint and I cannot believe it's always that good. ALWAYS. I often wonder: If I had been immersed in this and some other more positive metal, would I have done things differently because there is no doubt that music is an influence. When John Bush sings it's always done correctly. Like he's ironed out the kinks.
AKA SW wants to meet with us about God-knows-what in about 30 min. Just hit the ground running with that stress. It's always there for her. I promised myself to be the opposite of that and I'll keep it going.
140pm
Pike time. I don't think I'll need more than one, which is reaffirming. I don't need to be jacked up right now. I realized yesterday I had weak coffee from the hotel in the morning before the ride and loose tea after I got home. It's probably why I slept as well as I did (it was nice to be asleep before 1130pm). I'll shoot for that again tonight.
Drafting emails. Ugh.
Today is a staff appreciation event at 430-530. I've already left my jacket on the event's floor. I'm hanging out for a short bit -- there may be a raffle for PTO -- and bolting soon after.
That's all I think I need today. Coffee's still a bit too hot but it should do the trick.
300-330pm
Somewhere along the line I just needed another hit. I had a half a large cup of LightNote. I could feel that it was actual addiction forcing me to the coffee room and not actual fatigue. We'll see if CaffeinateDad happens tonight.
Thank you for reading.
Friday, April 17, 2015
Grapefruitastic
1023am
My post-grapefruit Awake is making its way in to my belly.
I'm a little bummed today, b/w the dreary weather and leaving my girls for the weekend. I'll get over it once I'm on the bus, but that's just how I am now. Had my citrus bright and early to help boost the mood (supposedly it helps) and get my C.
Let's just trudge on through the day. Will try to get over to PF during lunch, though, just to crank out some curls.
1051am
Just burnt my tongue on a Pike. 10 minutes is not enough cooling time.
Noon
Not exactly certain at what time I finished my Pike but it got me through my meeting with AKA SW. It's actually not so bad when we have work to focus on and not when she just wants to remind everyone that she's in charge and "in control." Emails to send now and whatnot.
210pm
I have my Pike and letting it cool off though I have had a couple of sips. I reckon I don't need to drink it all b/c I've got a bus ride that will help me doze. I've got some more assignments to disseminate and I'm hoping to organize myself a bit by day's end. I keep getting interrupted with things with which I had no involvement.
My post-grapefruit Awake is making its way in to my belly.
I'm a little bummed today, b/w the dreary weather and leaving my girls for the weekend. I'll get over it once I'm on the bus, but that's just how I am now. Had my citrus bright and early to help boost the mood (supposedly it helps) and get my C.
Let's just trudge on through the day. Will try to get over to PF during lunch, though, just to crank out some curls.
1051am
Just burnt my tongue on a Pike. 10 minutes is not enough cooling time.
Noon
Not exactly certain at what time I finished my Pike but it got me through my meeting with AKA SW. It's actually not so bad when we have work to focus on and not when she just wants to remind everyone that she's in charge and "in control." Emails to send now and whatnot.
210pm
I have my Pike and letting it cool off though I have had a couple of sips. I reckon I don't need to drink it all b/c I've got a bus ride that will help me doze. I've got some more assignments to disseminate and I'm hoping to organize myself a bit by day's end. I keep getting interrupted with things with which I had no involvement.
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